Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Chapter 25: A Change is Gonna Come

"It's been too hard living but I'm afraid to die
Cause I don't know what's up there beyond the sky
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will
I go to the movie and I go downtown somebody keep telling me don't hang around
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will
Then I go to my brother
And I say brother help me please
But he winds up knockin' me
Back down on my knees"

A Change is Gonna Come—Sam Cooke


"Mmmhhh, yes, Edward. Deeper. Ugh. Oh God!"

I almost fucking cried. My babydoll was having a fucking sex dream, and there was nothing I could do to make it a reality. My fucking patience had worn thin. I was either going to break the rule and fuck her or go insane.

Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, Bella screamed my name and shivered. She had just reached her peak without me. It was official, I was fucking worthless. I stared at her for several minutes before heading to the bathroom.

The face that looked back at me in the mirror seemed foreign. It was older and more tired-looking than I'd ever seen it. In the last few days, I had come too fucking close to losing everything that mattered to me. I would never be the same again. I had done a lot of fucked up shit in my life, but I'd be damned if my wife would be the one to pay for my sins.

I sat on the marble edge of the bathtub and scratched my chin. I had a full-on growth of stubble. Alice was already clamoring to have me shaved by the wedding. In two fucking days, it would be Christmas and my babydoll would officially be my wife. That fucking scared me to death.

I stood up and paced the room. I had already shown that I couldn't protect her. Laurent and that monster, Alistair, had gotten too fucking close. Benjamin was in a damn coma, and I'd escalated the Mob War that had been building for the last ten years.

Laurent was not only one of James' best friends; he was also a respected member of two old Organized Crime families. He held both French and American citizenship. His father had been one of the top members of France's Organized Crime families. The news of his demise by my hand had spread quickly in our inner circles. Alistair was mainly just fucking muscle, but he'd done a lot of jobs for people in high positions.

The day that I'd gotten the call that Bella was in danger, I aged a hundred-fucking-years. My godfather, Caius, had received word from an old Russian snitch that James was planning something that involved Bella. I was so fucking worried, and the fact that she was out of my sight made it worse. Then, when I'd tried to call Benjamin and hadn't gotten an answer, I assembled my men, ready to fucking die for my babydoll.

I had driven like a fucking maniac to get to her. All I could think about was my father, and how I'd been too late to save his life. It felt like déjà vu. The only thing that kept me from crashing my car was my belief that Bella could hold her own. She'd proven to me time and time again that she was a fighter.

Nothing could have prepared me for what I saw when I got to the beach. Laurent and Alistair were on the ground with bullet wounds through their knees. The grainy sand was coated with fresh blood. I had been so fucking scared that some of it was Bella's. My heart actually stopped beating for several minutes.

I had my men fan out on the beach to make sure that we weren't still under attack. Then, I went to find my true reason for living. Demetri and Felix were trying to talk to me, but my mind was only on one person, Bella.

I'd spotted Jane's SUV and ripped the door open. My babydoll flew into my arms. It was like I had gotten permission to leave Hell and go to Heaven. I'd squeezed her for dear life. When she told me what those monsters did to her, I'd made up my mind. I didn't care about the fucking consequences. Laurent and Alistair were dead men.

Jane had been ordered to take my babydoll to the doctor so that I could make sure she and the baby were okay. I couldn't believe that fucking piece of shit, Alistair, had kicked her in the back. What kind of a fucking man picks on a pregnant woman? Demetri put brass knuckles on me, and I went to town on Alistair's face.

By the time Demetri and Felix drove me to the warehouse, I was a fucking animal. I had blood on my hands and in my nostrils. I kept picturing Bella's bruised cheek and scared eyes. That was all the fuel I needed to end the fucking bastards. They tried to kill my wife and child--any man would have wanted revenge.

Demetri killed Laurent with a bullet to the head. He begged to live, but he fucking lost that right the minute he followed James' orders. His head had been shaved bald and his body was dumped on the steps of his American house.

Alistair's death wasn't as pleasant as Laurent's. I fucking beat his ass into the ground. I stepped on his bullet riddled knee until he passed out. Then, I had Demetri dump cold water on him to wake him up. He was such a fucking coward when faced with his own death. I beat him with the brass knuckles until my shoulders locked up. He had been halfway dead at that point, but my blood lust wasn't satiated.

I ended up castrating him, before I shot him right through his fucking black heart. I'd used a surgical scalpel to cut his penis off. The screams had gotten so bad that Felix asked to be excused. Even Demetri looked shocked that I'd done it myself. I stuffed Alistair's penis in his dead mouth, and then had what was left of him, sent to James' house. The rotting body was discovered by one of the maids. The War was on.

When I got back to my Penthouse, Jane and Bella had just been pulling up. Carlisle had already texted to say that Bella and the baby were okay. I breathed a sigh of relief. All the ugliness of my day melted when I held her in my arms. She was my light in the dark tunnel of life. Without Bella, there was no reason for me to exist; I would fucking die if she was taken away from me.

I was so deep in thought that I hadn't heard my babydoll knocking on the door. I splashed my face with water and went to open it; in the doorway stood my angel. She was only wearing a blue tank top and matching panties. Her hair was piled on top of her head with lots of loose strands. She rubbed her swollen stomach and smiled at me. I was of worth after all.

I pulled her into my arms. "Good morning, babydoll. I hope I didn't wake you up," I said, kissing her rosy cheeks.

She shook her head. "I have to pee. I'll just be a minute. Wait for me in the bedroom."

She was going to hate my fucking guts, but I needed to do it. "No, I'm staying in here with you. We're going to be husband and wife. You can pee in front of me."

Bella balked at what I'd just requested. "You have to be joking. I really have to go. Get out, Edward!"

I held my ground. This was an important test. She had to fucking trust me with everything. I would do the same for her. Besides, it wasn't like I was asking her for a golden shower. I simply wanted my wife to be completely comfortable with me.

"I'm not leaving until you pee, Bella."

She tried to stomp past me, but I caught her arm. She snatched it away from me. "I'll go to another bathroom. I can't believe you're acting like this, Edward. Peeing in front of you would be beyond embarrassing."

I stroked her cheek. "That's the whole point, babydoll. There should be nothing that you are embarrassed to do with me. I love you. Please, just allow me this."

She sighed and walked over to the toilet. I watched as she lowered her panties and sat on the stool. She looked straight into my eyes as she emptied her bladder. I smiled to let her know that I didn't find it embarrassing at all. Bella finished her business and washed her hands. She glared at me as we exited the restroom.

"I'm not happy that you made me do that, but I get it, Edward. Just don't be surprised when I walk in on you and return the favor."

I sat down on my side of the bed and pulled her into my lap. "I wouldn't have it any other way, Mrs. Cullen. Thanks for being uninhibited with me."

She softened at the 'Mrs. Cullen'. I used the moment to pull her closer and plant kisses all over her neck. My babydoll smelled and tasted so damn good. I wanted to slip down her panties and let her ride me until we both forgot our names.

Bella pushed me away. "Edward, we can't. Besides, I'm hungry," she said, patting her rounded belly.

I put my hand over hers. "Bella, do you have any idea how happy you make me? Any idea of how much I need you? You and the baby are the most precious things in this world to me. I love you."

A torrent of tears fell from Bella's eyes. "I have some idea, because I feel exactly the same. It's always only been you, Edward. It's only ever going to be you. I love you with all my heart, and on Christmas Day, I will prove it by giving myself to you for all eternity."

Warmth spread throughout my body. Things were bad, but as long as I had my babydoll, I could deal with anything.

I pulled her down for a deep kiss. "It's time to start fulfilling my duty as husband and feed my little mother. What do you want for breakfast, babydoll?"

"Hmmm, I think French toast, eggs, bacon, and hot chocolate will do."

I stood up and bowed. "Anything for you, babydoll. Wait here."

As usual, Bella pouted. "I can help. Carlisle said I'm perfectly healthy."

"I don't care. I'm not risking you over-exerting yourself. Now, keep your pretty little ass in that bed, or I will be forced to punish you."

Bella's eyes twinkled and she smiled. I knew that she was thinking about her last spanking at Thornewood. My cock strained itself trying to get to her. I was so fucking stupid for bringing up that shit.

"Not that kind of punishment, Bella. I meant making you stay in bed all day. You're so fucking naughty. I'm going to make you scream on our wedding night."

She licked her lips. "I can't wait, Edward."

I groaned before exiting the room and going into the kitchen. It still amazed me that I could cook a real breakfast. Bella brought out the best in me. I only hoped that I would do the same for her during our lifetime together.

While the French toast was cooking, I pulled out my phone and called Marcus. He picked up immediately.

"Hello, Edward. Are you ready for the big day? Caius, Di, and I are flying in tomorrow. Is there anything you need from Chicago?"

I smiled. "No. The women have ordered stuff from six different continents. If Antarctica had any stores, they would have shopped the world. I'm really happy that you all are coming to the wedding. How's Mafia business?

He sighed. "Edward, it's getting worse. I don't want to fuck up your happiness with it, though. How about you just concentrate on Bella and the baby?"

I was fucking pissed that he was treating me like a civilian. "Fuck! Marcus, you know I'll only worry more if you keep shit from me. Tell me what's going on? I need to know so that I can protect my family."

I heard him swallow something before he answered. "Edward, it's bad. James knows that you were the one that killed Laurent. He hasn't given up on his mission to take Bella. He's being bold right now, and that scares me. His Uncles have completely lifted their protections, so basically, he's gone rogue. James' father had a lot of KGB buddies, and they are just as loyal to the son. I beefed up security on Tanya, because she's a threat to James. He could go after her and try to kill the baby. We have the best on our side. I promise to do everything in my power to keep all members of the Family safe."

I digested this information. Tanya was a gold digging bitch, but she was going to be a mother and didn't deserve to die. I would have to make sure she stayed safe during this whole ordeal. The fact that James wanted my babydoll worried me. It was one thing for him to want her dead, but he wanted her with him. I didn't know what he had planned, but I was positive that it was fucking sick and twisted, just like him. I would die before I let that motherfucker near my family.

I pulled my fingers through my hair. "Thanks, Marcus. I appreciate everything. Keep me posted on the status of things. I don't want you to keep shit from me. I signed on to this for life. I can handle it."

"Ai mali estremi, mali rimedi," he said before disconnecting.

It was a phrase my father had used often. James was the biggest fucking illness of my life. Me killing his ass was going to be the only cure. I knew what I had to do to make things better. Motherfuckers like James didn't deserve to live, and I was just the demon to send him to Hell for all eternity. I could almost taste his blood in my mouth.

Pulling myself out of black thoughts, I finished fixing breakfast. By the time I made the tray and took it to Bella, I was under control. She smiled shyly as I entered the room. My babydoll was getting more and more beautiful with each day that passed.

I gave her a large mug of Cioccolata Calda first. She took it eagerly and began sipping it. "It's so good, Edward. Who will make me hot chocolate when you're gone?"

I sighed. "Bella, we've been over this. I have to leave for a while to make you safe. You know that I don't want to, right?"

Bella looked away. "It's…it's just that I'll miss you so much. I had hoped that we would never be apart again. I'm scared that you'll get hurt or even worse. Please, let me come with you," she sobbed.

I took the mug from her and set it on the nightstand. "Bella," I said, taking her tiny hand in mine. "I love you. The places where I have to go are not safe for you. I promise that I will return as soon as possible. I need you to stay strong for me. You're about to become a principessa di mafia. When you marry me, you marry my lifestyle. You will not only become a Cullen, but also a member of the Volturi. That means that you will be asked to make sacrifices. I wish I could let you go to live a normal life, but I can't. Please, you have to trust me. I don't want to leave you, but it's the only way, babydoll."

She wiped her eyes and nodded. I could see the steel forging itself inside of her. I had never been more fucking proud of anyone as I was of Bella at that moment. I leaned in to give her a tight hug. She reached over and grabbed her mug.

"I can make sacrifices, but I won't sacrifice you. Come back to me, Edward Cullen, or I will never forgive you. Now, give me my breakfast before I keel over from hunger."

I tickled her before placing the try in her lap. She giggled and thanked me for the food.

While Bella ate, I watched the financial news. Things may have been bad on the Organized Crime front, but I was making a fucking fortune in the Market. I'd already had Jenks to draw up a will for me. Besides a couple of cars and property that had special value to my mom and sister, Bella was to get everything. He'd been pressing me to get my babydoll to sign a prenuptial agreement, but I wasn't having that shit. If I ever fucked up enough that Bella left my ass, then she deserved everything I owned.

Mom, Alice, and Rose arrived an hour later. They shooed me out of the bedroom so that they could discuss last minute wedding details with Bella. I didn't even try to argue, because I knew I would lose.

I went into the living room. Carlisle, Em, and Jasper were sitting around playing a game of cards. I joined them. It wasn't lost on me that this was another facet of my life that Bella had changed for the better. Six months ago, I couldn't stand to be in the same room with my stepfather or stepbrother, but now, I would consider them best friends. I smiled at everyone as I took my seat.

Emmett slapped me on the back, almost knocking me over. That motherfucker needed to lie off of the weightlifting. I worked out, but I'd never be as big as him. As long as my babydoll loved my body, I was happy.

"Eddie's getting married… I never thought I'd see the day. Rose is betting that you'll break the 'no sex' vow before the wedding."

I nudged him in the ribs. "First off, my name is Edward, not Eddie. I haven't fucking touched Bella since we made that ridiculous promise. Tell Rose she better pay up. There's only forty-eight hours left until the wedding. I can wait that long."

Emmett laughed. "Dude, you are so whipped. The old Edward would have never made a vow like that. You must really love Bella."

I nodded. "More than anything."

Jasper scowled at me and Emmett. "That's my baby sister you're talking about! She is as pure as the driven snow. I don't want to hear you talk about her like she's a piece of meat! She's…she's….," He sobbed, unable to finish the sentence.

I looked at Carlisle. He shook his head, but I wasn't going to be deterred. "Um, Emmet and I were just joking, Jasper. You know how I feel about Bella. She's my whole life. I know it's hard for you to let her go, but I promise you that she's safe with me. I'll always take care of her."

He nodded and threw down his cards. "If ya'll excuse me, I'd like to go check on Bella and see how she and the baby are doing."

The minute he was out of earshot, Em turned to me. "Dude, I didn't mean to offend him. Can you, um, let him know that I'm sorry? I was only joking. I respect Bella. She's a good friend to Rose and the boys love her."

I nodded. "It's cool, Em. Jasper is just sensitive when it comes to Bella. He's been responsible for her for so long. It's just a little hard for him to let her go. In his eyes, she's still that little girl with sticky hands. He'll be okay."

Carlisle smiled at me. "You're a good man, Edward. You may not see it, but I do. I'm proud of you, son." His words meant more to me than any that my biological father had ever spoken.
I choked up a little. "Thanks, Carl-…Dad."

The room was so quiet; you could hear a pin drop. Then, all of a sudden, Emmett wrapped his huge arms around me. "Welcome to the family, bro. We've been waiting for you to join for a long time."

Carlisle stood up. I disentangled myself from Emmett so that I could walk the remaining steps. We gave each other a man hug, which is really just an awkward shoulder grab. Em joined in to complete the moment. The only person missing was Jasper, but I planned to speak to him in private later.

I needed my family to know that I trusted them, so I decided to come clean about my life. If they truly loved me, they could handle it. If not, then at least I would have gotten it off of my chest.

"Dad, Emmett, there's something I need to tell you both. I'm in the Mafia. My godfathers, Marcus and Caius Volturi, are Mafia Dons. My father was a member, and I joined when I was eighteen. I've done some pretty fucked up shit in my life, and I have a lot of enemies. Those enemies are going to come after everything I love. The Family and I are going to do everything in our power to keep everyone safe, but I thought that you should know what I am." I was so fucking ashamed. I couldn't look either of them in the eye.

They both exchanged uneasy glances. Carlisle spoke first. "Edward, we've known about this for years. Your mother confessed everything on our second date. I told Emmett when I married your mother. We don't think any less of you. You love both your families' and that's all that matters. You can tell the measure of a man by seeing who he loves."

I felt like a fucking truck had been lifted off my shoulders. "You…you know?! I kind of figured my mom told you, but I wasn't sure. Thank you both for accepting me. I'm sorry to put our family in danger, but it couldn't be helped. One of my enemies, James, has gone after Bella twice. After the wedding, I need to go to Europe to end this shit. I'm going to need you to look after her and make sure she stays healthy and doesn't worry too much."

They both agreed that they would. Jasper came back to join us. It seemed the women had kicked him out of the bedroom for picking an ugly place setting. Us men, sat around playing cards until the women decided that it was time for lunch. Bella had fallen asleep, so I was the odd man out.

My mom made a fuss over me, making sure I ate my vegetables. Emmett teased me just like a big older brother was supposed to. Alice and Jasper did their usual cutesy eating shit, and Rosalie bantered good-naturedly with me. All in all, it was one of the best meals I'd had with my family. The only thing that would have made it better was Bella, but she needed her rest.

After lunch, the women left to get ready for the trip. We were leaving for Aspen, Colorado tomorrow morning. I had a lot of shit to do, but all I really wanted was to sleep with my angel. I went to the room to lay down with her. She curled into my chest and mumbled my favorite words. I fell asleep to the sound of her heartbeat.

I was awakened by little hands shaking me gently. I turned over to see Bella looking down at me worriedly. I sat up and looked around. I'd left my gun in my desk drawer, but if there was danger, I had a small handgun in the nightstand.

"Edward, Marcus is on the phone. He says it's urgent," Bella said as she handed me the phone.

Immediately, I knew something was wrong. I grabbed my Iphone from Bella and left the room. Whatever shit he had to tell me was not for her ears. I would do anything in my power to save my babydoll from worry.

"Marcus," I barked the minute I was out of earshot of the bedroom.

He took one long breath. I could feel the agitation through the phone. "Edward, the shit has hit the fan. I just got word that James put a hit out on you. There are only forty-eight hours until it becomes active. The only reason we know about it at all is because of a snitch in James' house. I'm sorry, son. We're going to do everything in our power to protect you."

I sat down and put my head between my knees. "Who…who is he sending? I need to get Bella out of here tonight! I won't put her in danger. Don't worry about me. I need you to put every effort into keeping my babydoll safe. I need her out of here tonight."

"James is sending…The Executioner. He wants to make sure that you don't slip away this time. Liam is working on tracking him from his end, because it's most likely that he'll arrive on the East Coast. As you know, The Executioner is a fucking ghost. No one knows his real name or identity."

I pulled my SIG out of my desk and made sure that it was loaded. I needed to be armed at all times from now on. Marcus said we had forty-eight hours, which really meant our time was up. The Executioner was a sneaky son of a bitch. He could already be in the country for all we knew.

"Marcus, I'm sending everyone to Chicago tonight. Can you have the house ready in time?"

He sighed. "Sure, Edward. You're like a son to me. I promise that we will keep your family safe. Are you planning to join everyone here?"

My heart sank as I answered. "No, Marcus. I won't risk them. I'm the one that started this shit, and I'll be the one to end it. If that motherfucker wants me, he's going to have to come get me. I'm not going to wait like a sitting duck while he finishes off everyone I love. I'd fucking die a million times over first."

"Damn it, Edward, you're going to get yourself killed! You need to stay with the Family so that we can protect you. I won't let your sacrifice yourself!"

In my rage, I kicked my desk chair over. "Fine, send me away with guards, but I'm not going to hide like a fucking coward! James is a sick fuck. He wants Bella, and he won't stop until he has her. I can't risk her and the baby. Please, Marcus. I'm doing it whether you give me permission or not."

He paused for a moment. I knew that he was grasping for something that he could use to get me to abandon my fucking kamikaze mission. "Do you want your child to be born fatherless? Because that's exactly what will happen if you dangle yourself to the wolves like a piece of meat! You need to trust me, Edward!"

"I do fucking trust you! I've always been loyal to the Volturi. I'm asking you to do this one thing for me. Let me go, Marcus. I need to do this."

I could tell he'd give up by his long sigh. "Okay, I will tell Caius your plans. We're giving you all the men we can spare to take along. Liam has volunteered his guard as well. He knows that if James succeeds, the tranquility between the Families will be broken forever. James is not like his father, he thrives on anarchy. The money and power will never be enough for him. I'll have cars waiting for everyone at our landing strip. I'm always here for you, Edward. Al fine."

"Al fine, Marcus," I repeated. To the end.

After the call, I stood in my library brooding. I always knew that something like this would happen one day. I should have never coveted something I didn't deserve. Now, my babydoll was in fucking danger. I could reconcile myself to death for my sins, but she was innocent. I would not let the choices I made ruin Bella's or my family's life. My child would be born free of this shit, even if I had to die to make it happen.

When I got back to the bedroom, Bella was pacing the room. She knew that she wasn't supposed to get stressed out in her condition. I scooped her up and sat down on the bed. She must have seen the angry gleam in my eye, because she looked wary.
"Edward…Edward, what's wrong? Tell me!"

I tucked her head in my neck. I couldn't stand to see her eyes after my confession. "Bella, James has put a hit out on me. I have forty-eight hours. I'm sending you and the rest of the family to the Volturi compound in Chicago. You're leaving in a couple of hours."

She pulled away from me and stood up. "No! I want to stay with you, Edward. It's Christmas Eve. We're supposed to be married tomorrow. You…you can't leave me. I won't let you!"

I turned away to face the window. Usually, the view of Seattle made me smile, but today my face was set in stone as I looked at the skyline. There was a very real chance that I would never see this city again. I looked at my babydoll. She was sobbing so hard that her little shoulders shook. My fucking heart broke into a billion fragments.

"Bella, it's done. I won't risk you and the baby. You promised that you would be strong. This is the first test. I need to know that you're safe or I'll make a mistake. We…we can get married before you get on the plane. I'll call Alice and have everything arranged. I'm so fucking sorry, Bella. I coveted you when I knew that you were too good for me. It's my entire fucking fault."

I buried my face in my hands as I cried. Suddenly, my babydoll wrapped her arms around me from behind. I could feel the steady beat of her heart and even the firmness of her rounded belly through my silk shirt. I turned around to face her.

If I lived to be one thousand, I would never forget the look on Bella's face at that moment. It was filled with so much inner peace and love that my knees nearly buckled. I always thought she was an angel, but never had she looked more like one than now.

"I love you, Edward. If you need me to be strong, that's what I will do. My whole being, my whole life is tied up in you. You did deserve me, and you still do. Just because we're going through a rough patch now doesn't mean that we don't belong together. I need you forever. I know you can rise above the circumstances. You're not like James. You're a good man, and you're mine. I'm giving you my eternity today, Edward. I don't want any regrets. I love you."
"I love you too, Bella. We…we can get married again later, anywhere you want. I'm so sorry that our first Christmas together is ruined. I feel like I'm always fucking up your life. You could have a normal life if it wasn't for me."

She shook her head. "No, no, Edward. Don't say that! I only lived a half life until you. Sure, what we have hasn't been perfect, but it's real. I can't live without you. As long as I have your love and our baby, this Christmas will be perfect. The wedding location is not important as long as we're together."

"I love you," we said in unison.

I kissed her on the forehead. "Bella, I…I want to relieve some of your stress. Do you trust me?" She nodded. "Good, lie down on the bed and wait for me."

I ran to one of her private closets and grabbed what I needed. Between my mom and sisters, Bella's possessions had grown a lot. She now had several versions of everything. I was happy that she allowed everyone to spoil her once in a while.

Bella was on top of the comforter rubbing her baby bump when I got back. She gave me a blinding smile that nearly stopped my heart. I sat down and pulled her on top of me. Her soft weight rested against my chest. I licked, nipped, and suckled her exposed neck. She cried out softly, spurring me on.

"Bella," I rasped. "I want to bring you pleasure. We will still keep our vow, but I need to do this for you. I love you."

She reached back to grab my jaw. "Thank you, sweet husband. I'll do anything for you."

I helped her undress, which was easy because she was only wearing a tank top and sleep shorts. She tried to take off my clothes, but I stopped her. This was all about my babydoll. She didn't need to be stressed out today. The only way I knew to make her calm down quickly was to give her a form of release.

I unzipped the canvas bag and took out 'the goodfella'. It was a dildo that had been a gift from Rose to Bella. My babydoll hadn't wanted a formal bridal shower, so all the girls had simply given her a gift.

Her eyes lit up when she saw what I was holding. Bella did the hottest shit ever by taking it from me and putting it in her mouth. She looked directly in my eyes as she licked the fake cock, just as she would have done my real one. I was so fucking hard. I rubbed myself against her back to create some friction. She shivered and handed the dildo back to me.

I used it to tease her clit a little before inserting it inside of her. She moaned and pressed her back into me. I slowly twisted the dildo inside of her pussy, wishing it was me the whole time. She came in no time at all. I continued my ministrations until Bella had two more orgasms. We were both in fucking heat by the time I finished.

"Babydoll, do you feel better now?" I asked, sure of the answer.

Bella placed my palm over her heart. "Yes, Edward. You always know just what I need. That felt so good, but not nearly as good as you."

I nuzzled her neck. "I'm glad to hear it. I want you so bad, Bella. I'll have to leave a few hours after we're married, but we can still consummate everything. I wish I didn't…."

She raised my other hand and kissed my palm. "I know, Edward. Remember, my heart beats as your heart beats, not a minute more, not a minute less. We..," she placed my palm over her rounded stomach, "need you to come back to us. We can't live without you."

We stayed curled up with each other for several minutes. I stroked every section of Bella's skin, committing it to memory. She was over four months pregnant. We'd gone to her second trimester appointment together the other day. Everything was progressing beautifully. I'd been so proud of her for being brave during the whole thing. When I saw that big fucking needle that they wanted to stick into her belly, I'd gone apeshit.

Carlisle had to hold me back. Bella's assurance that she barely felt it was the only thing that kept me from picking her up and running out. She had every test done that was available for her pregnancy level. They all showed that she and our baby were perfectly healthy and developing normally. I had been worried after that motherfucker attacked my babydoll, so seeing the ultrasound for myself was very important.

Unfortunately, I was going to have to miss the next appointment because of this new shit. If it wasn't safe for Bella to come back to Seattle by then, I would have to get Carlisle to find a good OBGYN in Chicago. Not that I was worried, Chicago had some of the best hospitals in the country. I just didn't want my babydoll's life to be interrupted anymore than it had since she'd met my sorry ass.

I disentangled myself and kissed Bella on the cheek. "Why don't you call Alice and tell her the news. I'll call Pastor Randall."

Alice was not happy that the wedding had been moved up. Plus, she was worried about why. I planned to tell everyone at once. Alice suggested that the wedding be done in Mom and Carlisle's meadow by our tree. It wasn't Aspen by any means, but it was kind of fucking perfect for my babydoll and me.

My sister showed up thirty minutes later and whisked Bella away. I made sure that several security guards went with them. Benjamin was barely hanging on in the hospital. I hadn't told Bella yet, because I knew that she was fond of him. Besides, it's not like she needed any more bad news.

I needed to talk to several people before I left out, so I spent the afternoon doing that. The first person I called into my office was Jane. She'd fucking saved my babydoll's life. I owed her.

Jane walked in dressed in her black shit-kickers and designer jeans. She was a good-looking woman. I could see why the bitches at the club went crazy over her. Her body was feminine, but she had muscles. Also, she had this swagger that bitches found irresistible whether it was in a dude or a chick.

She nodded to me. "Cullen, how's little Bee?"

I smirked at the nickname. "She's good. That's actually what I need to talk to you about. James has put a hit out on me. I need to send Bella to Chicago for a while. You have been her guard for the longest and you've proven that you'd fucking die for her. I'd like for you to accompany her and be her main guard from now on. Are you up for the challenge?"

Jane smiled. "Fuck, yeah! I'd love to spend some quality time alone with Bella."

I rolled my eyes. "I already told you that my babydoll likes dick. I expect you to treat her with the utmost respect. If I find out that she's uncomfortable in any way, I'll revoke your position. Just because you're a woman doesn't mean you don't have to follow my rules. Capish?"

She nodded. "I'm just fucking with you, dude. I'll keep little Bee safe. Was there anything else you needed from me?"

"Yeah, Bella and I are getting married tonight because of my early departure. I would be honored if you could attend. I owe you for saving her life, Jane. I won't ever forget that."

She bit her nails, seemingly in deep thought. "Of course, I'll come to your wedding. Can I bring a date?"

I nodded. Jane left a few minutes later. Liam called to reiterate what Marcus had already told me. Caius phoned several times to try and talk me out of my mission, but I wasn't going to budge.

Alice called with the details for the wedding. It was going to be later at eight at night. My mom and the girls were going to set up an outside gazebo that we would all stand under. After the ceremony, there would be a formal dinner inside the house. I was supposed to arrive around six to start getting ready. Ali tried to get information out of me, but I managed to hold her off. She did let me speak to my babydoll, but only for a few minutes.

Jasper was the next person that I needed to see. He was busy handling business downstairs. I called him up to my office so that we could talk. He was Bella's only relative, so it was only right that I be honest with him.
The minute he entered the office, I could tell that he was worried. "What's going on, Edward?! I get a call from Alice saying that the wedding is tonight at your Parent's house, instead of tomorrow in Aspen. Is there danger?!"

"Take a seat, Jasper," I commanded. I waited until he sat down to go on. "You know some of the events of the past few months. James didn't go away that day that I kicked his ass. He sent two men after Bella the other day. Now, he's put a hit out on me. He's made it clear that he wants Bella. I can't risk him hurting her or the baby, so I'm going to Europe to find and kill him."

Jasper panicked. "I won't let that monster near my baby sister! Are you sure that you'll be able to find him in Europe? What if he sends someone after Bella again?"

I pinched the bridge of my nose. "I am sending all of you to Chicago until I get out of the country. My Godfather will evaluate the situation and determine whether or not it will be safe for you to return. Jasper, I need you to stay calm and look after Bella. She already knows what's going on. She's going to need you more than ever once I leave. I'm sorry for putting all of you in danger. I know I don't have to ask you to also look after my sister."

"You definitely don't have to ask for that. I would give my life for Alice. I promise you that I'll take care of Bella. I've been doing it for practically her whole life. If you need anything from me, it's yours. You're already my brother in my eyes. I've never seen Bells as happy as she is with you."

I grimaced. "I wish I could have been as good for her as she is for me. I'm sorry that I didn't fucking just let her go that day, but I couldn't. I love her. She and our baby are my only reasons for living. I will do anything to keep her safe. Right now, the only thing I need from you is what I already asked. And yeah, I'm your brother. Before I met my babydoll, I never thought I'd ever be close to my family. She not only gave that back to me, she added to it. I know she's excited about you giving her away tonight, so why don't you take off and go prepare."

He left after promising to do everything in his power to protect Bella. I called Liam and discussed the situation. The Irish were behind us, because they didn't like the new type of Organization that James was trying to build.

I also had to get all my business shit squared away before I left. That meant getting Bella added to all my bank accounts and credit cards. I'd had my lawyer draw up a new will that left everything to her in case of my death. I knew that if I told Bella, she would have protested so I kept that information to myself.

After everything was done, I took some time to calm down. A very skilled hit-man had been hired to come and kill my ass. I was fucking scared as shit, but I couldn't let the others see it, especially my babydoll. If she got upset again, I was afraid that she would miscarry. That was the last fucking thing I wanted to happen.

I took out my photograph book to look at pictures of Bella. These were not the porn collection I'd started, but candids of her in everyday life. She was truly gorgeous. The pregnancy only highlighted her natural beauty. I listened to our baby's heart beat as I perused the photographs. I made a vow to myself that I would do anything to come back to them. I never wanted anything more than to see my son or daughter born.

When I next looked at my watch, I saw that it was time for me to head to Mom's house. I had already texted Dee, Felix, and Kate. They would all be at the wedding. I'd also invited Garrett, although Kate didn't know. I was turning into a fucking matchmaker.

The drive to Carlisle and Esme's house went smoothly. I arrived ahead of time. Alice met me downstairs. She insisted that I couldn't be trusted not to seek out Bella, so she sent me to one of the guest cottages to get ready.

When I got there, there was a fucking guy that was supposed to shave me and cut my hair. I let the fucker do it with minimal complaining because it would please my sister. My hair had gotten quite long because I hardly ever cut it. My babydoll liked to pull on it, so I kept as much as possible. Alice's stylist manscaped my ass to within an inch of my life, but when I saw my reflection, I had to admit that he'd done an awesome job. I looked fucking handsome as ever.

Alice had chosen a classic black Armani tuxedo for me. It was tailored to my measurements, so it fit me perfectly. Since it was a special occasion, I took out my Volturi cuff links. They were platinum with the Family's symbol, which was a diamond encrusted Italian Horn. The Italian Horn was sometimes called Lucifer's Horn and was worn as protection against the 'evil eye' in Italy. Aro had taken it as the Volturi's symbol when he took over the Organization. When I was younger, I thought it was cool as fuck because it also stood for sexual power and good fortune. Now, my favorite piece of jewelry was the engagement ring that my babydoll had given me, because it stood for pure and indestructible love.

By the time I finished getting ready, it was almost seven. In an hour, my babydoll would be mine in every way possible. I was nervous, but it just felt so right. All our fighting and pain had gotten us to the moment we were about to share. After tonight, we would be together forever. For that reason alone, it was the happiest day of my life.

Armand, my stylist, was putting the finishing touches on my shoes when someone knocked on the door. The house and grounds were teeming with security people just in case the hit-man came early. I even had helicopters overhead.

I opened the door to find Jasper, Carlisle, Emmett and two of my security men standing outside. I invited my brothers and Dad to come in, letting my guards know that it was okay. They were all wearing tailored black suits.

Carlisle smiled and nodded when he saw me. "You look good, son. I heard that Alice relegated you to the guest house, so I came out to see how you were doing."

Emmett plopped down on a nearby couch and loosened his tie a little. "Dude, I hate wearing these monkey suits, but they drive Rose wild. How're you holding up?"

I sat down in the couch across from him. Carlisle and Jasper took chairs on either side of me. My right knee was shaking like a crack head's.

"I'm really fucking happy. I wish that I could give Bella her dream wedding, but this will have to do for now. We'll get married again when it's safe."

Jasper clapped me on the back. "I've seen Bella. She's glowing. I don't think she regrets the wedding. I know my sister, she doesn't like a fuss."

We all laughed at that, remembering how embarrassed she'd been at her birthday party. We sat around the fire talking. Em and Carlisle gave me some advice that basically consisted of the woman is always right. It amazed me that I once thought they were pussy- whipped. Now my ass was the king of pussy-whipped motherfuckers, and I was the happiest I'd ever been.

Armand got a text from Alice saying that they were ready. The guys gave me one last pep talk before we headed out to the meadow. I didn't know what I was expecting, but the reality was ten times better. The fucking area had been transformed into a lighted paradise.

There was a carpeted path surrounded by moth orchids, which was appropriate because moths were me and Bella's thing. Tall silver torches had been set up to light the way. They led to a fancy gazebo with white silk hanging from the sides.

The gazebo was surrounded by all types of potted plants. The tree that I'd carved our names into was far to the right. The carpet stopped at a couple of grassy steps. Padded white chairs had been set up on either side for our guests. I was in fucking awe of the detail that had gone into making our meadow look so beautiful.

My mom came to greet me the minute I stepped onto the carpet. She'd been crying. When she saw me, she burst into a new wave of tears. I hugged her to my chest until she stopped shaking. Carlisle walked up and took her into his arms.

She smiled at me. "I'm just so happy for you, Edward. Bella loves you so much. I know you two are going to make wonderful parents. I…I never thought I would see this day. I want you to know that I love you very much. You're nothing like your father; you're your own man. For that I couldn't be prouder."

I wanted to cry like a fucking baby. My mom had never expressed her pride for me. I'm sure she felt it at times, but we were always too estranged for her to articulate her feelings. I kissed her on the cheek before Carlisle led her to the front.

Emmett was my best man, so I gave him the rings to hold. He promised not to fuck up, but I threatened him just in case he got any ideas to pull some stupid ass prank. I saw Kate and Garrett arrive. They were both surprised to see each other, but got over it quickly and ended up seated next to each other. My mom winked at me. She was the fucking Queen of the matchmakers.

Pastor Randall was happy to perform the ceremony on short notice. He told me that he'd already talked to Bella and ascertained that we didn't break the contract. He also read me some fucking Bible scriptures about marriage. I'd read the Bible cover to cover when I was younger, but I chose not to adhere to all of its rules. I did like the scriptures on revenge, though, and Solomon was my fucking hero. He was the goddamned pimp of the Christianity world.

Marcus and Di called to wish me luck. My mom was going to tape the wedding for them. Caius had left out of Chicago earlier and was going to make it just in time to witness the wedding in person. He entered a few minutes later dressed in his customary black tuxedo. The color looked even darker against his albino skin.

I watched him greet my Mom and Carlisle. To my surprise, Esme introduced him to Dr. A. He appraised her for several minutes. I could tell that he was smitten, because he gave her one of his rare smiles. If my eyes weren't fucking with me, I could have sworn I saw her blush. They took seats right next to each other. Love was in the fucking air.

I saw Jacob come in with a woman that I assumed was Leah. He was in a dark blue dress suit. I knew that he was a friend of Bella's, but I still saw him as fucking competition. He gave me a small wave before taking a seat.

Dee arrived with one of the new girls from the club. Thankfully, he'd chosen one that I never fucked. I was shocked that he'd used such tact, but figured it had probably been for Bella's sake and not mine. He winked at me as he took his seat. Felix was the next to come. He'd brought a small woman with short dark hair. I never knew that the fucker dated, so I was shocked to see him with a date. Eleazar and Carmen arrived arm in arm, looking like Spanish royalty. She was crying while he handed her Kleenex.

Emmett was telling me a married guy joke when Jane arrived. My fucking eyes almost fell out when I saw who her date was. She brought fucking Jessica Stanley, the stripper from my club. I saw red as I marched over to them.

"What the fuck, Jane?! Why in the hell would you bring Jessica?! You know our fucking history. I'm going to have to ask you to leave."

Jessica wrapped her arm around Jane. For the first time since I'd met her, she looked like she had a real thought in her head. "Don't make us leave, Edward. I'm with Jane now. I promise that I won't do anything to ruin your wedding. I'm happy for you guys."

I pulled my fingers through my hair. That shit was a lot to swallow. "You're a fucking lesbo now, Jessica? I hope that doesn't affect your work at the club."

Jessica shrugged. "I don't know what I am, but I love Jane. She doesn't have a problem with me stripping, and I love the work."

I shared a look with Jane. She smiled. "You heard her, Cullen. She loves me. Now, get your ass up on stage and marry Bella. I never thought I'd see this. It feels like I'm on an episode of Ripley's Believe It or Not.
I pretended to laugh. "Hahaha. What-the-fuck-ever, Jane. As long as you two behave yourselves and don't upset my babydoll, I'll be happy to have you."

Jane licked her lips suggestively and took her seat. She patted Jessica's ass as she sat down. I turned away before the sight could cause me to lose my fucking lunch. I smiled and waved at everyone as I waited for my babydoll to arrive.

Several minutes later, the harpist that had performed for my engagement started playing Schubert's, Ave Maria. The children began their procession down the aisle. Colin and Brady shared the honors as ring bearer. I didn't recognize the flower girl but assumed that she'd been chosen by Alice. I was too nervous to take note of too much.

My sister and Rose walked down the carpet holding bouquets of pink and white moth orchids. They both wore one-shoulder graphite gowns. Alice was so happy that she seemed to float down the carpet. I was stunned that Rose even looked excited. This really is a day for miracles. They reached their destination, smiling happily. Alice gave me the thumbs up sign. Rose winked playfully at Emmett.

Suddenly the music changed. Shania Twain's, "From This Moment On" started to play. After that my vision got fuzzy because I entered heaven. At the end of the aisle stood the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.

My babydoll stood across the lawn, under the full moon. Every inch of her exposed skin glowed. To say that she was beautiful would have been an extreme understatement. She took my fucking breath away. Her dress was strapless. It flowed down past her feet. She looked like an angel come to life. The studded empire waist accentuated her baby bump. She had on a white veil that covered her shiny mahogany curls that were tamed with a princess crown.

Her makeup was minimal, only enough to bring out her features. I wanted to lick every inch of her collarbones. She was wearing the Jubilee diamond and sapphire necklace that I bought her for her birthday. The only other jewelry she wore was the pair of diamond earrings that she'd told me had been her mother's. I felt like I should have been down on my knees worshiping at her feet. She was too fucking good for me.

When our eyes connected, a brilliant smile lit up her face. She whispered something to Jasper as he began leading her down the aisle. Her steps were sure and graceful. I could see her lips forming the lyrics of the song. She was singing it to me. The music, my babydoll, my family, it was all too much. I was in danger of becoming a fucking creampuff. If I wasn't careful, I was going to break down into tears and ruin the vows.

Before I knew what was happening, Jasper placed Bella's hand in mine. He was unabashedly crying, but managed to say a gruff, "Take care of my baby sister." Alice squeezed his hand before he took his place next to Emmett.

The electricity that was always between Bella and I was magnified by a trillion when our hands touched. My thumb rubbed small circles around her palm. I felt her pulse rate speed up at the contact.

Pastor Randall began the ceremony. "Ladies and gentlemen, we are gathered here today….."

Honestly, that was all I heard. My whole being was focused on Bella. Her face was covered in tears as she looked at me. We mouthed, 'I love you' as the Pastor continued with his part.

Finally, we got to the reading of the vows. I took Bella's hand and placed it over my heart. "Babydoll, I love you with everything that is within me. You saved me from a life of Hell and damnation. There are no Earthly gifts that I can ever give you to pay you back for what you've done for me. All I can do is spend the rest of my life loving you and treating you like the Queen that you are. Through all the fights, breakups, and hardships, one thing has remained true; our love. One of your smiles can sustain me for a lifetime. You brought my family back to me…" I placed my hand on her stomach …"and you even multiplied it. I love you so much that I think I'll burst with the feeling. Tonight, I give myself to you, forever. Thank you, Isabella Marie Swan, for choosing me. I'm not worthy, but I'll never stop trying to be. Sei tutto cio' di cui ho bisogn. Tu sei la mia anima gemella. Voglio stare con te per sempre."

A broken sob escaped Bella's lips. I kissed the back of her hand. She beamed. Pastor Randall gave her a moment. Then, he indicated that she was to go next. She kissed the palm of my hand.

"Edward, you are the love of my life. When I lost my parents, I didn't think I'd ever be truly happy again, but you made that possible. Every day I spend with you is special. Even when we fight, I know that you love me, and I always love you. You often say that you aren't worthy of my love, but I think we deserve each other.

"Fate brought us together. You are my soul-mate. There can never be a me, without you. I love everything about you. You are the only man that has ever had my body and that ever will. I also gave you my heart and soul, forever. It is an honor to be your wife and the mother of your children. I pray that we spend many happy days together. I dream of growing old in your arms. You are my life too. I love you so much."

I heard a couple of the women choking up, but I couldn't move my eyes from Bella long enough to see what was going on. Pastor Randall asked for the rings. Emmet placed the platinum bands in my hand. Bella's was fully encircled with diamonds. The inscription on the inside read, Ti amo con tutta l'anima. 

We placed the rings on each other's fingers, never breaking eye contact. I barely heard Pastor Randall as he announced us as husband and wife. I removed Bella's veil and pulled her into my arms. We kissed long and hard, both our tears soaking each other's faces.

Everyone stood up and clapped. I continued to kiss my babydoll. I picked her up and nibbled on her neck. There were a few throat clearings, but neither of us wanted to break apart. My mom's voice eventually brought me out of the fog. I would have been happy making love to Bella right on the stage.

The wedding march began to play. Bella and I stayed wrapped up in each other's arms as we were led to inside to the reception. There was food of every kind lining the table. I was sad when Bella's eyes wondered to the chocolate mousse cake more than me. She smiled and kissed my lips.

"I love you, Edward, but I'm hungry. I was so nervous that I didn't eat. We can dance first, though."

I played with one of her shiny curls. "I love you so much, Bella Cullen. I don't think there was ever a man as happy as I am today. Let's go dance."

She wrapped her arms around my waist. "Bella Swan-Cullen. I'm so happy to be your wife, Edward. "Every time she said that word, my heart fluttered. She had chosen to keep her surname in honor of her parents. I supported the decision.

Alice announced that it was time for the couples' dance. The first song was I found my Everything, by Mary J. Blige. Bella had chosen it. I led her out to the floor. We never broke eye contact as we glided around the floor. Eventually, I noticed that the other couples had joined us. My song to Bella was, True Companion by Marc Cohn. She cried when I whispered the lyrics in her ear.

Carlisle asked to dance with her after that. I was reluctant to give my babydoll up, but my mom waltzed me to the other side of the room. She was crying and saying something, but my eyes were all for Bella. I danced with Rose and Alice before my arms were around the love of my life again. She was flushed with happiness. Dee came to ask her to dance, but I fucking refused. I did let her do a short turn with Felix because she really wanted to, but I stayed close.

Unfortunately, she asked to dance with Jacob. He waltzed her effortlessly around the room. I almost fucking punched him when he kissed her on the cheek. I claimed her the minute the song ended. He just raised his eyebrows and gave my babydoll a hug while I glared holes into his head. He was fucking lucky that I didn't have my gun.

Of course, Bella and Jasper danced together the longest. She had her head buried in his chest the whole time. They were laughing together about some private joke. People came up to talk to me, but I couldn't take my thoughts or eyes away from my babydoll. Colin and Brady wanted a turn, so she held their tiny hands and spun them around the floor. She looked so maternal. I knew that she was going to make an amazing mother.

Eventually, we were seated at an elaborate table. I filled Bella's plate with things that she pointed out. We took turns feeding each other the strawberry chocolate cream wedding cake. Alice threatened to kick my ass if I smashed it into Bella's face, so I carefully placed it into her mouth.

Since it was Christmas Eve, there was a Christmas tree with lots of gifts. Everyone was going to take a present and a goody bag to go. I started to get sad when I thought of spending Christmas Day without Bella, but when she looked at me, I realized why I needed to go. My fucking mind was made up. I had to kill James so that Bella would be safe.

Lots of pictures were taken of the happy event. I made a speech to the guests about what was going to happen, even though they already knew. Everyone pledged their love and support. It turned out that our flower girl was Dr. A.'s adopted six-year-old daughter. Caius took to both the mother and daughter. I didn't doubt that I'd be at his fucking wedding in a few months. I looked around at my friends and family, who were all safe and happy, and smiled.

My babydoll ate like it was her last meal. I sneaked kisses every time she came up for air, which earned several complaints from Emmett. Rose helped me by smacking him on the back of the head and telling him to shut up. Alice and Jasper just held hands and smiled at us. They were going to be the next ones. I had to end James and his fuckery before their wedding. I'd be damned if I missed my sister's big day. She was always there for me.

When the food was done, it was time for the other wedding activities. I wanted to carry Bella to the nearest room and fuck the hell out of her, but she insisted that we be kind to our guests. We got lots of wedding gifts. I was so fucking hard by that point that I let Bella open everything. She oohed and ahhhed enough for the both of us. It wasn't that I was ungrateful; I just wanted to make love to my wife.

Since the kids had been put in the playroom, I decided to spice up the garter toss. Instead of just lifting Bella's dress, I kissed up her leg starting at the ankle. When I got to the garter, I licked the skin around it. Bella's eyes glazed over as she shivered. I used my fucking teeth to remove and toss it away. Then, I rubbed my cheek against Bella's upper thigh. She reached down and pulled my hair. We must have gotten too inappropriate, because several people cleared their throats. Bella blushed and looked away.

Garrett ended up being the one to catch the garter. He just held the lacy garment. I was worried that his ass had gone into shock. Before we left, Bella threw the bouquet. She aimed it straight for Kate, who looked just as shocked as Garrett. They both exchanged a glance before hugging. Bella took a step to go to them, but I led her away.

We had to say goodbye to everyone. They all had to pack for the trip to Chicago. I noticed that the mention of it made my babydoll upset, so I tried to be fucking lighthearted about that shit. My mom had arranged a suite for us at a five star hotel, but my babydoll didn't want it.

"I want to spend the night in the lair," she said.

I tried to talk her out of it, but she was adamant. My Bella was nothing if not stubborn. I looked forward to spending the rest of my fucking life butting heads with her. We left in an armored Hummer limo that had been decorated with cans and other wedding shit. Bella stuck her head out the window and blew kisses. Jasper and Mom were the only two still crying. Everyone else was smiling and waving. I pulled my babydoll back inside as the car sped away.

We kissed passionately, our hands all over each other. I tugged on the bodice of Bella's dress. She stopped my hands. "Edward, if you ruin this dress, your sister will kill you. Besides, I'd like to keep it to remember today. I'm so happy."

I pulled her into my lap. "I'm happy too, babydoll. I love you. Let's put all our cares away for tonight and just enjoy ourselves."

She licked her lips and winked at me. "I definitely plan on enjoying my husband tonight."

I reached under her dress and pulled on her panties. "I want those to take with me."

She shivered. I inserted one finger in her wet pussy. It felt so good after two weeks of no touching. She rode my finger as I played with her clit. When I inserted my second finger she cried out. She was embarrassed, until I told her that the chauffeur couldn't hear anything; I used my fingers to fuck her until her climax hit. She collapsed on my chest with a mighty yell.

"Oh. My. God. Edward, that was so amazing. I can't wait to milk your fucking cock dry."

I kissed her overheated face. "We have all night, wife. I want to hear you scream my name. We'll be lucky if we don't break the fucking bed."

The Club was closed tonight in honor of the holiday. Bella and I kissed the whole elevator ride. I made sure that security was set up, before I carried her over the threshold. She giggled and made a comment about being too heavy. I laughed and told her that she was as light as a fucking feather.

When we got to the lair's bedroom, I washed up and changed into a black silk robe. I was naked underneath. Bella winked at me and then went to use the restroom. I set up a bunch of candles around the room. Then, I laid down on the bed and tried to calm myself down. If I didn't get control, I was going to jizz like a fucking first timer.

After what seemed like forever, Bella came out of the bathroom. She had on a white babydoll with a crotchless thong. Her fucking tits looked bigger than ever in that beaded shit. She wore her hair down just the way I liked it. Seeing my rings on her fingers drove me all kinds of crazy. She smiled shyly at me and sauntered over.

I crawled over until I reached the edge of the bed. Then, I laid open mouth kisses all over her baby bump. She tangled her fingers in my hair and giggled. I kissed and licked all over her delectable skin until we were both too hot to move.

Then she said the words I'd been dying to hear. "Edward…I…I'm ready to try anal with you. I'm really scared, so if we could go slow, that would be really great."

I pulled her on top of my chest and hugged the shit out of her. "Babydoll, I'm so fucking excited! If you feel scared or want to stop, I will. As long as you're honest with me, it will work."

I reached into the nightstand and pulled out the Astroglide that I'd bought at that Port Angeles porn shop. I also grabbed one of the anal vibrators. Bella just looked up lovingly, like she had all the trust in the world in me.

"Edward, I love you. I know that you would never hurt me. Relax, I want it to be good for you. Merry Christmas, husband."

All I could do was nod I arranged her so that she was on all fours. She looked back at me and winked to let me know she was okay so far. Bella's ass was a fucking work of art. I immediately stripped her underwear off and attacked her ass. I sucked, licked, and bit it until she pushed back into me.

When she moaned, I opened her legs wide and inserted my tongue in her pussy. She was fucking wetter than the Ocean. I didn't realize how much I'd really missed the taste of her, until I had it again; I licked her pussy like it was water in a desert. My babydoll came hard as I bit down on her clit.

"Fuck! Edward! So fucking good..your…your tongue…. I can't take it!"

She collapsed onto the bed, leaving her ass up in the air. I pulled off my robe and kissed her shoulders and lower back. She barely moved. I squeezed my eyes shut and took several deep breaths.

"Bella, I'm going to fuck your sweet ass so fucking good. I swear that you'll love it."

She lifted her body so that she was back in the original position. I removed the babydoll top from her shoulders. She giggled as I flipped her over and feasted on her breasts. I looked her deep in the eyes as I sucked an engorged nipple into my mouth. She moaned and grabbed the back of my neck, locking me in place. All of my senses were full of Bella. I licked her whole body. She reached down and fisted my cock. I had to remove her hand, because I was so fucking close to losing my shit.

Bella had begun to make little noises that sounded fucking weird. I checked her to make sure that she was okay. She just got back on her hands and knees and wiggled her ass at me. I took that as my cue.

I buried my face between her ass cheeks. My tongue lapped at her sphincter, twisting and digging at her little knot. She pulled away in surprise. I gave her a few minutes before I continued.

"Babydoll, there's nothing to be worried about. I love doing this to you. Does it feel good?"

She screamed, "Yes! I never want you to stop. I…I didn't know it would be this good."

I reached around and pinched her clit, which caused her to pull the fucking silk sheets. I continued to rub her sensitive nub as I applied more pressure with my tongue. She was mumbling something over and over, but I was too fucking worked up to decipher it.

Her small opening began to clench around my tongue. I took a chance and rubbed my finger around her sphincter. She bucked into me and yelled to high heaven. I inserted two fingers into Bella's pussy as I continued to assault her ass with my tongue. She came so hard that she threw me off of her.

"Holy shit! Holy shit! Holy shit, Edward! I'm commmmmming," she yelled, before completely passing out.

I shook Bella lightly to wake her up. "Bella, are you okay?"

Her chocolate eyes were unfocused and glassy when she opened them. I didn't kiss her, because I didn't know how she'd feel about that shit after I'd rimmed her ass. I shouldn't have been surprised when she pulled me down for a deep kiss, but I was. My babydoll was so fucking made for me that it wasn't even funny.

She laid her upper body down on the pillows and raised her ass, offering it to me. I used the wetness from her pussy and lots of lube to get her ready. Then, I gave her one more chance to back out.

She shook her head. "I want to do this, Edward. There isn't any sexual act that I wouldn't try with you."

I was ashamed to admit that I'd done research to make sure that pregnant women could have anal sex. I was shocked to learn that some of them preferred it and had better orgasms that way. I hoped that my babydoll was one of those cases, because once I fucked her ass, I didn't think I'd be able to give it up.

I kissed her lower back and buttocks and then pressed my cock against her rosebud. She squirmed a little to get comfortable. I rubbed my cock up and down the crease of her ass, coating it with lubricant Bella took a sharp breath. I gave her a minute before I continued.

"Relax, babydoll. I love you. If it hurts, we can stop. Don't hesitate to tell me."

She nodded. I began to insert my dick into her hole. Her rosebud pulsed and stretched as her body began to accept me. I whispered Italian love words as I pushed inch after inch of my cock inside of her virgin hole.

She made a pained noise. "Edward, can you…can you stop for a minute?"

I gritted my teeth. "Yes, babydoll."

My balls were fucking swollen. One move and I would blow my fucking load before I got it in. Bella took a couple of deep breaths and moved around a little. I gripped her hips so hard that I left indentations.

Just when I thought she had given up on the whole idea, she turned around and smiled. "Okay, Edward. You can push again."

My dick fucking throbbed. I nodded. I slid in slowly and carefully, paying very close attention to Bella's movement and breathing--- her near constant moaning encouraged me to keep going. I pulled out of her and sank halfway in again.

Bella gasped and reached back to grab my forearms. "That felt good, Edward. Do it again," she panted."

I pinched her nipple. Your wish is my command, babydoll."

I felt her ass squeeze and relax, each time allowing me to insert more of my cock. Bella's ass was pure nirvana. Anal sex had never felt so fucking good to me. I pulled her ass cheeks apart gently and looked at my cock almost halfway inside of her. I pulled out and plunged in again, slapping her ass as I went.

Bella buried her face in the pillow and fucking snarled. I was stunned beyond belief. She thrashed her head so hard that I feared that she'd broken her neck. I sank further and deeper into her hole. She was as hot as a fucking fireplace. My balls started to constrict. I thought of various boring financial figures to hold off my orgasm.

"Edward," Bella moaned. "So…so….fucking good! Put it all in or I'm going to scream."

Immediately, I ground myself into Bella's ass. She shook violently and clawed at the pillows as her orgasm overtook her body. I reached down and rubbed her clit to prolong it. She came for a long fucking time, making a sobbing noise as she rode her peak. I just held her to me until she calmed down. My dick was still buried deep in her spasming ass, making it hard for me to hold on.

"Edward, you…you…fuckyourcock…lobals.," she trailed off, speaking gibberish.

I had no fucking idea that my babydoll would have such an intense fucking reaction to anal sex. I had a feeling that in the future, I wouldn't have to be the one to initiate it. I kneaded Bella's hips to decrease some of the tension there. She pushed back into me. I pulled out and sank back into Bella over and over again. My mind went away, just like the first time I fucked her. All I wanted was to stay inside of paradise for as long as possible. I rammed into her with abandon. We never had a silent moment. I wouldn't have been surprised to find all our fucking champagne flutes broken after the high pitched noises my babydoll was making.

I spanked her harder, which caused her to scream even louder. "That's it, Edward! Spank my ass. I'm so fucking naughty. I'm your bad girl."

Her fucking words were making it hard to keep from coming. Bella's ass just got tighter and tighter. I stuck my free hand into her pussy. She screamed to high heaven as her hole became as tight as a vice. I felt her pussy clench around my fingers as her ass milked my cock.

I came harder than I ever had before. I squirted my cum deep into her bowels while we both continued snarling and moaning. If I hadn't been an active participant, the noises would have scared the shit out of me. I kept jetting cum into Bella's ass as she shook from her own orgasm.

My cum wouldn't stop flowing. It leaked out of my babydoll's rosebud down her legs. My nuts started to fucking hurt. I was getting worried that something was wrong. The cum just kept coming. The force of it hitting Bella's walls triggered another orgasm for her.

By that point, I was collapsed in back of her as we spooned. Neither one of us had the strength to move.

Finally, my dick stopped squirting. I pulled my flaccid cock out of Bella's ass and held her close. We just kind of fucking passed out after that.

I woke up to Bella pulling me into the bathroom. I was half asleep as she helped me into a hot bubble bath. She soaped me up and straddled my lap. I buried my face in her neck, because I was too groggy to keep my head up. That changed when I felt Bella's slippery fingers working my cock underwater.

She kissed me hard. "I love you, Edward. Welcome home," she whispered, as she guided me into her wet pussy.

I fucking cried like a baby. She did, too. We fucked each other until the water was as cold as ice. After that, Bella wanted me to play the piano for her, so I did. Though, I didn't know what the fuck I played, because my ass was wiped out. The five year age difference was going to kill me at this rate.

Sometime during the night, Bella must have gotten us to the bed, because the next time I awoke, she was lying on my chest sleeping peacefully.

I kissed her forehead. "Wake up, Bella. You can sleep on the plane. It's time babydoll."

She rubbed her eyes, sobbing loudly. "No! It's Christmas. I don't want you to go."

I kissed her eyelids, lips, and nose. "I don't want to go, but you know I must. Come on and get dressed, babydoll."

I made us a light breakfast while she got dressed. Her clothes had already been packed and would be on the plane. We ate in silence. Every time Bella looked at me, her eyes filled with tears.

On the way to the airstrip, I told her about the café and bookstore that I had bought for her wedding/Christmas gift. She barely showed any enthusiasm whatsoever. I'd also bought her more jewelry, but she was in too bad of a mood to bring that up.

I tried kissing, touching, and reassuring her, but she just sat beside me in complete silence. I would have fucking paid a fortune to read her mind. Even though she didn't talk to me, she held my hand the entire drive.

Alice and Jasper were waiting for Bella on the tarmac. Jasper kissed and hugged her. Alice asked her about her wedding night. She mumbled answers to their questions. Jasper looked at me and shrugged.

I pulled Bella into my arms and hugged her. "Babydoll, I'm doing this for us. I know that you love our baby. We have to keep it safe. Please, don't be mad at me. I never wanted to leave you, but I have no choice in the matter. I'll be back soon, and after that, I'll never be away from you again. I promise. I love you."

She wrapped her arms around my shoulders and kissed me on the jaw. "I love you so much, Edward Cullen. I am your wife now, so you better not disappoint me. I'll spend every day waiting for you to return to my arms. Don't be cocky. Do what you need to do and then come back home where you belong. I love you. I love you. I love you."

We kissed passionately right in front of everyone. The wind picked up and blew Bella's hair everywhere. She had on skinny jeans and a Rudolph sweater. I pressed the little button in the center of her chest, and the reindeer nose lit up. She looked up at me and smiled. I took my digital recorder out to capture our first Christmas together, even though it was too fucking short. She reminded me that her Christmas present to me was in my carry-on luggage.

Much too soon, the Pilot announced that it was time to take off. My family came down to wish me luck and say goodbye. Carlisle had to hold my mom up. I hated to see her so hysterical. He promised me that he would give her something to help her sleep on the plane.

Bella wouldn't let me go, so Jasper had to carry her up the steps into the jet. Alice kissed me on both cheeks and told me to be careful. The last image I had was of Bella kicking and screaming as Jasper and Carlisle carried her aboard the jet.

When I got to the car, I broke down and cried. So many tears clouded my vision that for a minute, I didn't know where I was. I stayed in the same position, sobbing my heart out for what seemed like an eternity.

Later, my chauffeur knocked on the privacy glass to let me know that my plane was ready. My heart felt like it was going to leak out of my chest. I pulled out my phone so that I could see a picture of Bella. That only made it worse. With shaky legs and a depressed mind, I boarded my private jet.

I took a fucking Ambien and drank my weight in Vodka so that I would sleep through the flight. All I dreamed of was my babydoll's stricken face as she was forced onto the jet. I woke up bathed in sweat.

My cocktail had worked. I'd slept for sixteen fucking hours and was now entering London. It was one of my favorite cities. I was looking forward to bringing my babydoll here when times were good again. Usually, the sight of Big Ben excited me, but now I was emotionally dead without my reason for living.

I went to the back and took a shower. I was so distraught that my cock didn't even harden. I dressed in all black to mirror how I felt on the inside. My hair was always a lost cause, so I just ran my fingers through it, missing Bella's touch.

I didn't call her because I thought that it would make her worse. Instead, I wrote her a letter that I would send once it was safe. I talked of my love and devotion to her and how happy she made me.

One of Liam's top men met me at the airstrip. Marcus had sent out the best fucking security he could spare. Three fucking giants flanked me as I got into the jet black Mercedes. We cruised through the underbelly of London until we reached out destination.

An old abandoned Catholic Church in Westminster was where we stopped. My guards and I pulled out our guns before going in. I removed my jacket so that I could put on a bullet proof vest. If what I was told was true, we were walking into a fucking war zone. The only advantage we had was the element of surprise.

We barged into the Church in a hail of gunfire. It was like a fucking action movie, only it was fucking real.
One of my men took a hit. I got down on my knees and scoped out the shooters. We had been told that there were three fuckers inhabiting the Church.

They were James' British cousins. They'd helped Laurent plan the ambush on Bella, so they knew I was coming for their asses and had holed up in the sanctuary. Little did they know that God couldn't save their asses from my wrath.

I came up on the side of one of the fuckers as he emptied his clip at my men. He never even saw me before I pulled the trigger. Red blood squirted out of the hole in his head and coated the old walls as he collapsed. My guards successfully took out another one of James' cousins.

They captured the last one and brought him to me. I sat on a pew and indicated that I wanted him knelt before me. He had the same color hair and eyes as his motherfucking cousin. I kicked him in the fucking balls.

"What is James planning? Do you know anything about The Executioner?!"

"Fuck you," he spat.

I reached down and grabbed his hand. "I'm going to ask again. What the fuck do you know?"

He smiled. "I know you're a pussy that sucks dick," he said in a proper British accent.

I pulled my hunter's knife out of my coat and cut off two of his fingers. He screamed. Blood got on everyone, but I didn't fucking care. He tried to pull his hand away from my grasp. I held on and applied pressure, causing him to whimper in pain.

"I only know one thing," he sobbed. I waved the knife. "Bella cosa tosto è rapita." He cackled it over and over again until I slit his throat out of anger.

My blood ran cold. I knew that something was wrong. There was no fucking way that a Russian Mobster would just quote random Italian. I took out my Iphone and dialed Marcus. No one answered. I tried again and again, but still no answer. My guards called the Cleaners to come dispose of the bodies of the men we had just sent to Hell.

I paced back and forth calling everyone I knew. Finally, I got in touch with Caius. I knew something wasn't right when he picked up the phone. "Edward, he whispered. "All wrong, so many dead. All wrong."

I sat down on the pew, rocking back and forth. "Tell me," I commanded.

He said lots of curse words. I could hear him pouring something. Caius rarely drank alcohol, so I knew the news had to be bad.

"Edward, our Intel was wrong. The Executioner was never sent for you. It was a set up. The…the Russians and their men attacked us hard. My brother…my brother is in a coma. Di suffered serious burns getting him out and is in ICU. Those motherfuckers…they fucking bombed the house. They hit Seattle, too. Demetri took a bullet to the head, he's on life support. Eleazar and Carmen are both dead. The fucking cowards gunned them down as they were closing up the restaurant." He cursed again and threw something.

I must have been having an out of body experience, because I felt completely numb. Caius hadn't mentioned the one person whose name I needed to hear the most. I bit down on my lip to keep from screaming out loud.

"They waited until the plane landed and followed the cars. Jasper took a bullet in the shoulder saving Alice, who has a broken collarbone. Your mom suffered a concussion. Carlisle got a bullet in the leg. Fortunately, Emmett, Rose, and their sons were unhurt. They were on the later plane, so we managed to reroute them. They're with Liam in Boston."

I lowered my head. "Bella, where is my babydoll?" I finally broke down and asked.

He sighed heavily. "Edward, I'm so sorry. She was in the same car as Alice and Jasper. They jumped out, but she couldn't get out of her seat belt. She…there…there was nothing anyone could do to save her. Jane was in the car, too. There's nothing left but a bunch of charred metal. Those Russian motherfuckers forced their car off the road. The SUV crashed onto the cliffs in Lake Michigan. Edward, Bella…Bella is gone. There are no survivors. She died instantly. I'm so sorry, bambino. I'm so sorry."

As I threw my phone against the stained glass window, I had one conscious thought: So, this is what it feels like to die.

* Ai mali estremi, mali rimedi ---For severe ills, severe remedies
* Al fine------- To the end.
*Sei tutto cio' di cui ho bisogn---. You're everything I need.
* Tu sei la mia anima gemella. ---You are my soulmate.
*Voglio stare con te per sempre.---- I want to stay with you forever
* Ti amo con tutta l'anima.---- I love you with all my heart.
*"Bella cosa tosto è rapita."----. A pretty thing is soon taken


  1. First, the wedding was beautiful. The wedding night was freaking hot! Great job with both.

    I was in tears when they had to separate the next day.

    I have a feeling that Bella isn't dead. It would totally suck if Jane is the executioner. Bella can't be dead. I'm sure James has her. If Jane is the executioner then all of this was the perfect plan for James.

  2. she's not dead or you wouldn't be writing a sequel.. sorry to spoil the thunder. the wedding was perfect.. anal well i won't comment on that! ed kill everyone!!!

  3. Gasp!! NO! NO! NO! NO! This can't be happening! OH NO what will Edward do without his Bella?!?! Oh, I can't believe it! Your story is so wonderful and full of suspense in just the right places! Oh I hope he is wrong and Bella is Okay! Please let her be okay, this will kill Edward!

  4. Nooooo! Poor Edward... gotta read on....

  5. I have had my suspicions about Jane...
    Now I believe them to be confirmed.
    Please, don't let them harm Bella... I am
    Thinking that the reason Jane shot the
    guys as they were botching her kidnapping
    was A: they were going to draw attention
    with their noise and violence; and B: they
    were hurting her. This is PROBABLY HER

  6. Ok, I have fate in you that you'd never kill Bella. I mean, if she's dead then there'll be no sequel. But I can't wait to find out exactly what'd happened to them.
    Thanks so much for writing and sharing.