Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Chapter 22: All I Want is You-Part 1

"If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and green
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves
If I was a flower growing wild and free
All I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee.
And if I was a tree growing tall and green
All I'd want is you to shade me and be my leaves
All I want is you, will you be my bride
Take me by the hand and stand by my side
All I want is you, will you stay with me?
Hold me in your arms and sway me like the sea. 
If you were a river in the mountains tall, 
the rumble of your water would be my call.
If you were the winter, I know I'd be the snow
As long as you were with me,when the cold winds blow."

All I Want is You--Barry Louis Polisar


No matter how hard I tried, I kept fucking shit up with Bella. When I saw Tanya in front of me, fully pregnant, I thought I was in a fucking nightmare. I doubted that the baby was mine, but there was always a tiny chance. I had never fucked the bitch without a condom because she was a goddamn golddigger. My biggest concern was whether or not Bella was going to believe me. Our relationship was still too rocky for this drama.

We had moved to the office once that bombshell was dropped downstairs. Before Tanya came, Bella and I were about to go upstairs for a night of lovemaking in the lair. Now, I'd be lucky if I got a kiss from my babydoll in the next few months. Not that I deserved anything less for fucking up her life so goddamn much.

I wasn't a heartless bastard, but I didn't want a baby by Tanya. She would use it to drive a wedge between me and Bella. Plus, Bella was going to be my wife. I wanted all my children to come from our union. My father had been a fucking manwhore, but he never knocked any of the bitches up. It was the one thing that my mom asked of him that he complied to. I hadn't even done that for my babydoll.

I looked over at Tanya. She was sitting on my couch with her legs wide open. She had on a tiny white sleeveless dress. It looked like she'd gotten her lips done recently. I had no idea what the fuck I had ever seen in her. She was staring daggers at my babydoll. It was taking all my fucking strength not to kick her out.

Bella smiled at the bitch. "Um…so, you're Edward's last secretary. It's nice to meet you. How far along are you?"

Why the fuck was Bella using that sweet voice on the bitch? Tanya was startled that Bella was being so calm and collected. She glanced over to me. I shrugged my shoulders, indicating to her that I had no idea what my babydoll was up to.

Tanya flipped her hair over her shoulder. "Well, obviously I was a little more than his secretary." She pointed to her protruding belly. "And, if you must know, I'm eight months pregnant. I could go into labor any day now."

Bella gasped. I knew that she was doing the math. She and I had only known each other for a little over five months. That meant that Tanya could have gotten pregnant during one of our fuck sessions. I wished that I could take it back and never fuck the bitch. Then Bella and I wouldn't be going through this shit.

Tanya nodded her head smugly. She looked Bella straight in the eye. The bitch even conjured up some fucking tears.

"Eddie…Eddie told me that I was…special. He said that he loved me. Then, he just got rid of me. I've been trying to get in touch with him forever. I…I just want him to help me take care of our baby."

The way she said 'our baby' made it sound like we were a couple. Bella hung her head. She was sitting in one of the office chairs. Her eyes were wet. She was fucking crying. I had promised to only put smiles on her face from now on. I'd fucking failed her yet again.

I glared at Tanya. "You fucking bitch! How dare you sit there and lie to my babydoll! We didn't have shit. We fucked and you tried to rob me blind. I never fucking told you that I loved you. I don't believe a fucking word that comes out of your nasty mouth."

Tanya sobbed louder. "How could you, Eddie. I trusted you." She looked at Bella. "I have it on record; Eddie saying that he loved me. I'll play it for you."

My eyes widened as she took out her Blackberry. She pressed a button and my voice could be heard saying 'I love you'. There was no fucking way. I hadn't ever told the bitch that. She was fucking lying through her cosmetically enhanced teeth.

I flipped out. "You motherfucking cunt! That recording is a fucking fabrication. I never even said I liked your ass, and yet you think I loved you? You're fucking sick. I'm calling Felix to escort your skanky ass out of the club."

Bella turned to me. There was so much hurt and despair in her eyes that I almost keeled over. She fucking believed the bitch. She was going to leave me again. I dropped the phone. There was no way that I would survive another breakup.

My babydoll held up her hand. Her voice was soft. "Edward, please apologize to Tanya. Whether or not she's lying or not remains to be seen. She is still a heavily pregnant woman that you previously had sex with. Don't call her names. Stay calm and we'll sort through this."

I glared at the bitch. "I'm sorry, Tanya. It won't happen again."

She smiled and turned back to Bella. "Thank you, sweetie. You're not so bad after all. When you look at it, we're in the same position."

I scoffed. "That's not fucking true. I'm in love with Bella. She lives and works with me. We're decorating our baby's nursery. She has never cheated on me or lied to my face. She also doesn't steal."

Tanya rolled her eyes. "Eddie, it's not like you were faithful to me either. You fucked every willing pussy that came through the door. Don't put all the blame on me. I may have taken some stuff from you, but you're so rich, they wouldn't have mattered anyway."

Felix walked in the door. He took in the scene in front of him in silence. I knew that he was very fond of Bella. I could only imagine what he thought of me now. "Hey boss, do you want me to escort Ms. Denali downstairs? Chanel's on her way to pick her up."

Tanya huffed. "Just like old times, Eddie. You have other people do your dirty work for you. Are you going to have my sister escort me out of Seattle again? I can tell you that I'm not going anywhere until I get you to acknowledge our baby."

She smiled at Bella. "No offense to you of course."

I pulled my fingers through my hair. Felix was standing next to Bella's chair. She was twirling her in bloom diamond necklace around her neck. She was fucking beautiful in her purple party dress. I wanted to pick her up and take her far away from these problems, but I knew that I couldn't.

"Tanya, what exactly are you looking to get from me? Are you after my money?"

She pouted. "Yes, I would like financial support, but I want emotional support, too. It hasn't been easy going through this pregnancy alone. I would like to move back to the city. Maybe I could even stay with you. We can decorate a nursery for our baby, too."

Bella stood up quickly. She wobbled on her feet before falling. Felix was able to catch her before she hit the floor. I ran over to her. I was so fucking scared that she was losing the baby. Her eyes were closed. Felix shook her gently.

I pulled out my Iphone. "Carlisle, I need you to meet me at the Penthouse. It's…It's Bella. She just collapsed! Her eyes are closed. I'm so fucking scared. Please, Carlisle." He assured me that she was going to be okay.

I took Bella from Felix's arms. He was just as concerned as I was. I didn't see any blood on my babydoll's inner thighs. If she lost the baby, it would be all my fucking fault. I put her under too much fucking stress. I prayed to a God that I thought had deserted me long ago. I would do anything to make my babydoll better.

Felix and I ran to the elevator. I didn't give a fuck about Tanya at the moment. She was part of the reason that my babydoll was hurt. Felix helped me put her in the car. I asked him to go tell Jasper to meet me at the condo. Bella would feel more comfortable if her brother was there.

I took off like a bat out of hell. I pushed the fucking speed limit. Luckily, my building wasn't too far from the club. One of my security guys, Benjamin, came to escort us up. His eyes bugged out of his head when he saw Bella hanging limp in my arms.

When I got to our apartment, he opened the door. Carlisle had sent me a text that he was ten minutes away. I laid Bella on our bed. "Please babydoll, please wake up. I fucking need you. I can't live without you. Please for me." I rocked her gently in my lap.

Her eyes fluttered open. "Edw—Edward? Did I faint? I remember getting dizzy and then I blacked out." Her words were slurred. That fucking scared me to death.

I kissed her all over her face. She just looked up at me. She was thirsty, so I went to the kitchen to get her a bottle of juice. When I got back to the room, I took her dress off. I helped her put on a pink t-shirt and sleep shorts. They both had roses on them. She looked so fucking young and innocent. I kissed her forehead.

Bella didn't want to lay down so I fluffed up lots of pillows and arranged them behind her. She was in the center of the bed. She looked like a queen holding court. I made sure that she was warm under the comforters.

I couldn't hold the tears back any longer. "Bella, I'm sorry. This is all my fault. If…If something is wrong with you or the baby, I…I don't know what I'll do."

My babydoll just stared at her nails. She wouldn't make eye contact with me. I knew that she was fucking angry. Silent tears ran down her cheeks. I couldn't bear it. I kissed her one last time and then left the room.
I went to my office and shut the door. I threw shit all over the fucking room. Nothing mattered anymore, because Bella was going to leave me for good, and I'd never recover. I would go back to being the asshole that I was before. I would be just like my father; a fucking failure to my family. I pulled my hair and cursed the fates.

A few minutes later, Benjamin knocked on my door to tell me that Carlisle had arrived. I stood outside the room while he attended to Bella. The door was cracked so that I could see what they were doing. My mom was sitting on the bed holding Bella's hand. They were doing what I couldn't do. I had never felt so worthless in my entire life.

Carlisle removed a stethoscope from his bag. He pulled Bella's top up to expose her chest. A burst of extreme jealousy ran through my veins. I knew that it was stupid because Carlisle was just doing his job, but I didn't like any other man seeing her body. She was mine.

He was very professional throughout the checkup. I watched him pull down her sleep shorts and feel her belly. I dug my nails into my palms to keep from running into the room and punching him. Whatever he was saying made her smile. Esme patted her hand in a motherly fashion.

Bella put her hand over her bump and asked some questions. I was too far away to hear clearly. The checkup must have been going well because they were all smiling. Carlisle lowered my babydoll's shirt. He reached into his bag and took out a red lollipop. Bella giggled and gave him a peck on the cheek. I wanted to fucking kill the good doctor.

He stood up and walked towards the door. I moved aside. My mom stayed in the room with my babydoll. I sat down on the floor and waited for Carlisle to update me. The urge to knock him out was strong. I had to keep reminding myself that he was a doctor and my stepfather.

"Edward, I wondered where you got off to. Why are you sitting in the hallway, son?"

My first reaction was to snap that I wasn't his fucking 'son' but I held it back. He had been good to me and my family. Plus, he just fucking took care of my woman. I owed him so much.

"It's my fault Carlisle. I'm the one that put too much fucking stress on her. She's mad at me. It's over. I should have known what we had was too good to last."

Carlisle grabbed my hand to help me up. "Come to the kitchen. We need to talk about some things. It's going to be all right."

I followed him. He took out a bottle of Perrier and poured both of us a glass. The bubbles felt good in my mouth.

He turned to me. "Edward, Bella is going to be fine. She's in her second trimester. As you've probably read, that can be a critical time for a pregnant woman. It's not unusual for her to be dizzy or have an occasional fainting spell. The baby is pressing on her uterus and disrupting her blood vessels a bit. It's normal. What happened to Bella tonight is not your fault. She is a perfectly healthy woman. She and the baby are developing beautifully. I didn't detect any problems. You should go talk to her."

I hung my head. "She won't want to see me. I'm going for a drive. Can you and my mom spend the night with her? I'm not in a good place right now. I need to be alone."

Carlisle patted me on the shoulder. "I understand son but don't do anything wreckless. You love Bella and she loves you. Don't throw away everything you've worked so hard to build. Remember, you're going to be a father soon. Think about your baby. Esme and I will take care of Bella."

I was about to thank him when Alice and Jasper burst through the door. Jasper was frantic. I pointed him to the bedroom. Alice stopped to hug me before following her fiancée. I envied them their easy relationship. They were free to love each other without all the obstacles that Bella and I faced.

Carlisle nodded to me. I grabbed my keys and went to the garage. I got into the Phantom. It still smelled of Bella. I thought back to a few nights ago when we'd made love in the backseat. She was my fucking soulmate. She was mine in every sense of the word.

I pulled her underwear from out of the glove compartment. She'd forgotten all about them after our tryst. I fisted them in my hands. They were black with a pink bow on the front. I sucked the crotch in my mouth. Bella's taste was potent. My dick hardened in seconds. I used the underwear to stroke myself until I came. It didn't help my pain though. I wanted Bella.

I started up the car and took off. I had no real destination, but I needed to be away from my babydoll. I couldn't stand to see her look at me like I was a fucking liar. I wanted a hit of blow so fucking bad. I could almost taste the smoke in my lungs. It would make me forget all of my problems. Fuck it,

I took out my phone to dial Demetri. There was a picture of Bella sleeping as my phone's background. She looked so peaceful and angelic. Her right hand was over her baby bump. I'd taken it the first night she'd moved in with me. I pounded the fucking steering wheel. Carlisle was right. I couldn't fucking destroy us.

With a new resolve, I drove to my friend Garret's tattoo parlor. His dad was low level Mafia and he did lots of tats for our Organization. He had the biggest crush on Chanel, but he was turned off by her profession. I'd had to ban him from the club because he jumped on any man that took her for the night.

It was almost ten at night but his lot was still full. It was near campus so he got a lot of regular business. I parked in one of the reserved spots. A group of sorority girls made lewd comments to me. The bitches were as bad as the fuckers lately. I was lucky to find such an innocent girlfriend. I ignored them and entered the shop.

Almost every chair was filled up. Some guy was getting tear drops tattooed on his biceps. He looked sad as fuck. I guessed that some woman had broken his heart. I could relate. Garrett ran over to me the second he saw me. He was a hugger. I dodged his arms.

"Still a dodgy fucker, I see. What can I do you for?"

Garrett was taller than me. His hair was long and hung down his back. The girls at the club thought he had some dreamy poet look going. I was glad that he hadn't met Bella yet. She loved poetry.

He led me to the back. I took one of the chairs reserved for the Made Men. The back had a bar and the chairs were more comfortable. He poured me a glass of scotch. I drank greedily. The burn felt good.

"I'm looking to get my girlfriend's name tattooed across my heart. I want it inside of one of those infinity bands you showed me last time." I wrote Bella's name down. " I want the name done in fancy cursive."

He eyed me curiously and took the paper. "Edward Cullen is getting a woman's name tattooed across his chest. I have to meet this chick. She must be a fucking miracle worker."

I snorted. "Bella is my fucking life. I'm gonna ask her to marry me this weekend. She's pregnant with my baby. She's so fucking sweet man. Everyone loves her. I knocked her up while she was on fucking birth control."

Garrett laughed. "Aren't you the proud papa? Congrats, Cullen. It's time you stopped fucking around and settled down."

I smirked. "What about you? Are you finally going to tell Kate how you feel about her? She's almost finished with dentistry school. I'm helping her look for buildings. She wants to be legit, Garrett. You should give her a chance."

He busied himself with cleaning and setting up the instruments. I noticed how his eyes brightened when I said Kate's name. He was in love with her.

"There's nothing for me and Kate. I…I tried but I couldn't do it. We'd never work. I'd always be throwing those johns in her face. She doesn't deserve that. I'm resigned to be a bachelor for the rest of my life."

I sighed. "Listen bro, I'm the last fucker to be giving goddamn love advice, but I say go for it. You could miss out on something really great. Relationships are hard. I'm still fucking mine up. Believe me, it's better to be in love than be without it. It's up to you, but I know for a fact that Kate cares for you."

He huffed and waved his hands. "Enough of this sappy shit. Let's get you tatted up."

Three hours later, I had a brand new tattoo. I looked at it from all angles. I already had the symbol of the Volturi on my body. Bella was more important to me than even them, so I'd chosen to put her on my chest. It looked good. I hoped that she would like it. I planned on getting our child's name and birth date on my back once it was born.

I stepped out of the back room with my shirt still off. Two teen girls that were picking out nose rings almost fainted. I winked at them. They burst into giggles. Garrett rolled his eyes and rang up my charge.

"Put your fucking clothes on, pretty boy. Those girls are probably not even legal."

I smirked and buttoned my shirt. I threw a wad of cash at Garrett. He thanked me and then I left. As usual, there were fuckers slobbering over my car in the lot. I got in and drove away, leaving them in the dust. It was good to piss motherfuckers off sometimes.

I stopped at a fast food joint and picked up a burger and fries. It wasn't healthy but tough shit. I ate while I was driving. I drove for hours. When I was tired, I headed back to the club. I would sleep in the lair tonight.

Thankfully, no one was there to bother me. I spent the rest of the night thinking about Bella. Her smile. Her eyes. Her hair. Her pussy. Okay, I thought about that last thing most of the fucking time. It felt so fucking good when I was inside of her. Hands down, she was the best woman that I'd ever had sex with. I fell asleep with one of her t-shirts on my pillow.

I awoke at dawn. My phone was buzzing. I had a missed text message. I touched the screen to see who it was from.

Edward, where did you go? I miss you. Please come home. I love you. XOXO

Holy shit! She wanted me with her and I'd been a fucking coward. She'd sent the message two hours ago. That meant that she wasn't sleeping. I felt a fresh wave of fucking guilt go through my body. I kept letting her down.

I covered my tat and took a quick shower. I threw on some jeans and a long sleeved black sweatshirt. I didn't bother to shave because I didn't want to waste time. I stopped at one of Bella's favorite bakeries to pick up a box of scones and donuts. I would make hot chocolate for her. She fucking loved my hot chocolate.

When that was done, I drove home. Benjamin carried up the boxes for me. I went to the kitchen to make the Cioccolata Calda or Italian hot chocolate. I didn't use any of that packet shit. I took out a saucepan to heat the corn starch and cocoa powder. I mixed the rest of the ingredients. Then, I took out a large mug and poured some in. I added a generous dollop of cream for Bella. I took out two ladybug donuts and placed them on a tray. They were strawberry jelly filled donuts with red icing and chocolate chips on top. My babydoll loved them. I also poured her a glass of milk because she needed her Calcium.

It was hard to believe that I was the same man. I'd never made a fucking meal for anyone but Bella managed to turn my ass into a gourmet chef. I loved watching the way her eyes twinkled when she devoured something that I had made. It felt good to cater to her. She was doing all the hard work by carrying our kid, so the least I could do was make her as comfortable as possible.

I figured that Esme and Carlisle were probably in the guest bedrooms upstairs. I opened our bedroom door. Bella was awake reading a book. She was nude from the waist up. I almost dropped the fucking tray. Her perky tits were glorious. I watched her pink nipples pucker when she spotted me. A growl came from her lips.

"Edward Cullen, where in the hell have you been?! I was so worried. You just left. You didn't call. I couldn't sleep without you."

My mouth turned up into a huge smile. My babydoll wanted me. I was so fucking excited that I felt like dancing. We still had a major problem named Tanya, but as long as we were together, we could work through anything.

"Please accept my sincere apologies, babydoll. I thought that you were mad at me, so I slept in the lair."

I held the tray out. "I bought ladybugs and made you hot chocolate. There are more donuts in the kitchen."

Bella giggled. "Get your sexy ass over here, Cullen. I need my morning kiss."

I carefully set the tray on the nightstand before kissing Bella. Her mouth tasted like apple juice. Our tongues mingled lazily. One of my hands went to her tits. I massaged them until she pushed me away. My dick was straining against my pants.

"Not right now, Edward. I'm too hungry and tired. Take off your pants and come eat with me."

I stripped but left on my shirt and boxers. Bella giggled as I jumped into bed. I pulled her into my lap. We took turns feeding each other. She moaned when she tasted her Cioccolata Calde. I winked at her.

"Mmm, Edward. I swear you make the best hot chocolate. Thank you." She kissed my cheek.

I ended up making her a plate of scrambled eggs and bacon, too. Carlisle and Esme came out to eat before leaving. Carlisle wanted Bella to stay in bed and take it easy for a day. She had an appointment scheduled with her OBGYN for next week. It would be the first one that I would attend.

If my babydoll was going to be in fucking bed all day, then I was going to stay with her. I cancelled all my previous engagements. We had a lot of shit to hammer out. I had already called my lawyer and he was going to meet with Tanya.

Tomorrow, I was planning on taking Bella to Thornewood Castle in Lakewood. I had rented out the whole fucking place so that I could propose to her. We'd be gone all weekend. Mom, Ali, and Rose had helped set it all up. If everything went according to plan, I would be bringing Bella back as my bride to be. The thought sent a tingle through my heart.

I returned to our bedroom. I frowned when I noticed that Bella had put on a tank top. She was lying on her side, reading again. I took the book out of her hand. She looked up at me. I made sure to save her place before setting it aside.

Her eyes were droopy so I pulled her to my chest. She was asleep before I pulled the blankets up. Her body felt perfect next to mine. The tattoo barely hurt at all. I would show her when she got up.

I watched ESPN with the volume down while she mumbled in her sleep. She said my favorite words, but then she mumbled a bunch of other shit. I heard her say something that I would have waited a thousand lifetimes to hear. "Edward's…I belong to him. Want…want to marry Edward. Want to be his wife. Love Edward."

I stared at her in amazement. She was in a deep sleep. There was no fucking way that mom or anyone else told her my plan. I had to resist the urge to wake her up and maul her sexy ass. She fucking wanted to be my wife. I kissed her rosy cheeks. She even blushed in slumber. I fell asleep soon after. My dreams were vivid and they all starred my babydoll.

I dreamed of us holding a baby in our arms. I couldn't tell what gender it was, but it was beautiful. Next, I dreamed of Bella and me inside of a grand mansion. My babydoll was sitting in a rocking chair breastfeeding a baby with a smile on her face. 

Unfortunately,  my pleasant dreams soon changed to a nightmare. 

Bella stood in front of a tombstone. A little boy and a little girl held each of her hands. They had enough of our features for me to deduce that they were our children. I looked into the casket. It was me. I was in a black suit and my skin was ghost white. I didn't look that much older than I was now. I watched in horror as dream Bella leaned down to kiss my dead lips. She whispered, "I love you forever," her voice breaking at the end. Then, Jasper and Ali led her and the kids to a waiting car. I was screaming that I was still alive but no one could hear me.

The dream had been too real. My body was bathed in sweat. Bella sat up and rubbed my back. She handed me one of her bottled waters. I took a long drink. Her beautiful brown eyes searched my face for answers. I rubbed her back. She didn't need any more stress. I had to keep the dream a secret.

"I'm okay babydoll, just a bad dream. It was really fucking stupid too. I dreamed that a werewolf was chasing me in the woods."

She giggled. "That's what you get for watching that horror movie marathon last week."

The nightmare freaked me out more than I thought. Bella went back to sleep but I stayed up. It wasn't going to happen. I wouldn't leave her a young widow and our kids fatherless. I hugged my babydoll for dear life. She centered me. As long as she was by my side, nothing could touch me. I fell asleep again, cradling my angel in my arms.

When I woke up again, it was raining. Bella was sitting up watching TV and eating popcorn. She was only wearing a little pink camisole. She hadn't noticed me yet so I just watched her. Her back was to the headboard. Her silky white legs were crossed at the ankles. She had a tiny smile on her face, enjoying the show. My dick throbbed when she licked her fingers. Her chocolate eyes were full of light and her hair was messily piled on top of her head.

She reached out for her juice on the nightstand. I could see her tight little ass. I was so turned on that I gripped the sheet. Her pink tongue came out to lick the corner of her mouth. That sight almost caused me to lose it.

I groaned deep in my throat. "Good afternoon, babydoll. You're looking better."

She pounced on me, covering my mouth in sweet kisses. I claimed her lips with a ferocity that almost scared me. We kissed for a long time. Bella crushed her whole body to me. I felt her nipples pucker and the wetness between her thighs. By the time we finished, we were both panting and sweaty.

I gently lifted Bella off of me so that I could sit up. "Fuck, Bella. I want you so fucking bad right now, but we need to talk first."

Her eyes were full of mischief. She rubbed my chest. I winced when she made contact with my tattoo.

"I'm so sorry, Edward. Where are you hurt?! Let me see."

I took my shirt off, tossing it on a nearby chair. Bella teared up when she saw her name over my heart. Tears fell down her beautiful face. She ghosted her fingertips over the marking. I reached out to stroke the inside of her wrist.

"Edward…Edward…you…you put my name over your heart. It's beautiful," she sobbed.

I kissed her palm. "I did it for you. You're always there, in my heart. You are the only reason I know that it still exists. I live only for you. I love you, Bella."

She straddled my lap, looking deep in my eyes. "I love you too Edward; so much. You own every part of me. There is nothing that I wouldn't do for you." She put my hand over her baby bump. "Our love created this, which proves that we can do anything together. I'd climb the highest mountains to get to you. Please stay with me forever."

I answered her with a heated kiss. Her words went straight to my soul and settled there. I didn't think that it was possible for me to love Bella more than I already did, but I was wrong. She was my angel, come to save me from eternal damnation.

Unfortunately, I had to break away. We needed to discuss the Tanya situation before we left for the weekend. "Bella, we…we need to talk about what happened with Tanya."

She shivered. "Okay, Edward. Can you hand me my pajama pants?"

I nodded. Bella put them on and then cuddled to my side. She turned the television off. The silence was deafening. Neither one of us wanted to have this conversation. I decided to start.

"First off, I'd like to say that I'm sorry that you have to deal with this shit. I never fucked Tanya without a condom. I knew that she was a fucking golddigger so I was always really careful not to get her pregnant. I don't believe a fucking word she says. The bitch isn't important though. I'm worried about how you're handling the situation."

Bella rubbed circles around my thigh. It was very comforting. "I'm…okay. It's a lot to take in. I don't like Tanya, because I can tell that she wants you. It makes me jealous. On the other hand, she's pregnant and there's a chance that you're the father. I know that she's in your past but…"

I put my hand over Bella's. "She never had a hold on me. That tape of me saying I love her is doctored. I never felt anything for Tanya. I'm sorry I was such a fucking manwhore. I'll…I'll understand if you need some time away from me. I can go stay at the lair. I'm so fucking sorry."

My babydoll shook her head. "No…no, Edward! We can't be apart again. It almost destroyed the both of us last time. I love you. We can work this out, even if the child is yours."

I hugged her. "You make me so fucking happy. I'm going to take you away this weekend. I rented out Thornewood Castle in Lakewood. We have it for the whole weekend. It'll be good to get out of the city for a couple of days."

Bella bounced excitedly and kissed my fingers. "From the Rose Red movie?" I nodded. "That place is beautiful. I can't wait to walk in the secret garden. What room are we staying in?"

"We can stay in any room that you like. Sit tight; I'll go grab my laptop. I downloaded the brochure."

I got up and went to my office. There was a missed call on my direct line. I looked at the caller I.D. It was from my lawyer, Jason Jenks. It must have been important if he was calling me here, so I decided get back to him.

He answered on the first ring. "Hello Mr. Cullen. I hope you're well today. I've been in my office with Ms. Denali. I got her to confess the truth. You are not the father of her baby."

I let out a huge sigh of relief. Bella was going to be so excited. I could propose to her without this shit hanging over our heads, but Tanya had lied. She caused my babydoll fucking stress and that was unacceptable. The bitch would have to pay.

My teeth ground together thinking of that bitch in my office, lieing to Bella. "Jay, why in the hell did she do it?!

I could hear him swallow something. Jay was a fucking pig; he was the stereotypical Armani suited Italian lawyer who ate lasagna all the fucking time, but, he was fucking ruthless too. He had been my lawyer for several years.

"There's a problem. Ms. Denali is scared. She says that the real father is someone of importance to you. She'll only confess his identity to you, in person. I can arrange a meeting today."

I pulled my fingers through my hair. This shit just got worse and worse. "Okay. Pick up Ms. Denali and come to my condo. We can have the meeting here. My girlfriend will be present, so no yelling at Tanya. Bella doesn't like that shit. I'll see you both around five."

I lingered in my office for a few minutes. I regretted having to tell Bella that Tanya was on her way over. I needed some fucking liquid courage so I poured myself a shot of Stoli. After that, I felt better. I grabbed my Macbook and headed back to the bedroom.

Bella was buck naked when I got to the room. My fucking knees almost gave out. She was just sitting on the bed nude, reading a fucking book. Her nipples were protruding. I saw wetness glistening in the place I wanted to be the most. My little tigress was a very bold creature. I watched in amazement as she fondled herself. A tiny moan escaped her lips.

I walked into the bedroom. "Bella, what in the fuck are you doing? I go to get my computer and you…you…" I couldn't finish the fucking sentence.

She just hummed and continued playing with herself. I threw the laptop on the nearest table. Then, I sat beside my babydoll. She removed her hand and held a finger out to me. I wasted no time in licking up her sweet honey. The fucking taste drove me wild. I spread her legs wide and buried my face in her center. Her hands gently stroked my hair. I ate her pussy with relish. I enjoyed each and every one of her moans. When I felt her getting close, I sucked on her clit. She came hard. I continued licking her through two more orgasms. Her knees were squeezing my head by that point. Her gentle caresses had turned painful.

When she was limp, I crawled up her body. We kissed passionately. I reached down so that I could insert my cock inside of her. She bucked into me. Bella's pussy was magical. All of my fears and cares went away while I was inside of her. I lose my fucking mind. The sensation of her tight pussy milking my rock hard cock was indescribable.

I took her hard and quick this time because I knew I didn't have the strength to last. I rotated my hips so that I would hit her special spot every time. Her beautiful body trembled under me. She reached up and pulled me down for a kiss. I shot my load deep inside of her. We kissed lazily until I could move again.

"That was great Edward. I love you."

I kissed her rosy cheeks. "I love you, too."

We ended up spending a leisurely hour in the bathtub. We didn't make love, but we cuddled and bathed each other. It was very intimate. We shared ideas for the baby's nursery. I dried Bella off. Her bump was getting bigger every day. She was so fucking cute.

"Edward, I picked up some…toys for us. We can use them this weekend. I really want you to come on my tits."

"Fuck! Bella, you can't say shit like that to me. Now that's all I'm going to be thinking of when Tanya and Jason get here."

She froze in her tracks. "What?! You didn't tell me they were coming. When?!

I rubbed the back of my neck. "Well, I was kind of distracted by my horny girlfriend." She let out a tiny growl. "They'll be here in about two hours. I'm…I'm not the father of Tanya's baby. She already confessed. Mr. Jenks, my private lawyer, is bringing her here. She wants to tell me who the father of the child is in person."

Bella wrapped her arms around my waist. "I'm so glad, Edward. I really want to be the mother of all your children. You're mine and I don't want to share you with any other woman."

I picked her up and carried her to the wardrobe closet. We both dressed in front of the full length mirrors. It took longer than usual because I kept getting distracted with the sight of Bella's naked skin in the mirror. I fucking mauled her neck again. She pushed me away after the fifth time.

I ended up choosing a navy pair of slacks with a black V-neck cashmere sweater. I let my babydoll do her thing with my hair. She chose a pair of black leggings and a gold glittery turtleneck sweater. The top set off the highlights in her dark hair. I could spend hours looking at all the reds and golds in each strand. She was so fucking beautiful. Our kid would be lucky to get both its mother's looks and personality.

We stood in the mirror looking at each other. I put my hand over Bella's bump and kissed her forehead. She closed her eyes and smiled. We were perfect for this moment at least. Bella turned around and buried her face in my chest.

"Edward, can you bring your old photo albums and stuff for the trip? I feel like I don't know you that well. I mean, I know who you are now, but I want to know about your past. I'll share with you, too."

There were lots of things in my past that I didn't want my babydoll privy to, but she had asked, and I couldn't fucking refuse her. "All right. But you have to promise not to get mad at me for past shit. If I could change it, I would. Please just give me a chance to explain it all."

"I promise," she whispered.

I carried her into the living room and made sure she was comfortable. We had a fucking argument because I wouldn't let her walk anywhere. I reminded her that Carlisle said that she was on bed rest for the day, so I was being fucking generous to let her out of it. She pouted until I felt like a fucking Nazi, but I didn't budge. I made her spaghetti and meatballs for lunch--all was forgiven after that.

We were looking at the prenatal yoga DVD when Mr. Jenks and Tanya arrived. My bodyguard led them upstairs. Bella was tense so I massaged her neck until she loosened up. I placed her in my lap before the bitch came. I wanted Tanya to understand that Bella was my fucking life now and that sluts like her no longer had a place.

Jay was the first one to enter. He introduced himself to my babydoll. He went to kiss her hand but I sent him a fucking look that clearly scared him half to death. Tanya followed behind him. She was dressed in a fucking green dress with pink spirals all over it. Her fake tits were on full display. I was disgusted with myself for ever touching the skank.

They both took the couch across from us. I made Jenks a sour martini and got Tanya a bottle of juice at Bella's request. She was too fucking nice for her own good. I noticed the bitch eying my babydoll sitting in my lap. I wrapped my arms around her tighter and glared at Tanya. She turned away with an evil look on her face.

J stood up. "Let's get this meeting started. Ms. Denali has signed papers stating that she lied about the paternity of her unborn child. In return, my office won't bring a defamation lawsuit against her. She wishes to apologize."

Everyone looked at Tanya. She was picking at her manicured nails. "I'm sorry Eddie. I was just so scared." She gasped for dramatic effect. I rolled my eyes. "It's…it's just…you told me you loved me once and I thought that you would help me. Bella can't satisfy you the way I can. She won't do the things I will. Plus, I'm prettier. Please take me back Eddie. I still love you."

I was about to say something when my little tigress jumped in. Her eyes were blazing and her cheeks were pink. "You bitch! I have tried to be nice and understanding but you don't deserve that! Edward, not Eddie, is with me. I love him and he loves me. We are soulmates. Don't presume you know what we do and don't do, Tanya. My Edward is very satisfied. You may think you're prettier than me but you're not. You're a fake bitch who sells her pussy to the highest bidder. I feel sorry for your kid. Now, say what you need to say and then get out of our Penthouse."

That was the hottest fucking shit I had ever seen. Jenks was looking at Bella like she'd grown horns. Tanya was fuming. I kissed Bella deeply and massaged her lower back.

She buried her face in my neck. "I'm sorry, Edward."

I patted her knee. "You have nothing to apologize for, babydoll. She had no right talking to you like that. I'm so fucking proud of you for standing up for yourself."

I turned to Tanya. "If you say one more fucking word to upset my babydoll, I will make sure your ass never sets foot in Seattle again. I won't physically hurt you, but I can make your life a living hell. I feel sorry for whatever fucker's seed you're carrying around. I'm ashamed that I ever laid a finger on you. Trust, it won't happen again."

Jay composed himself enough to continue. "Well, we should get the show on the road. I wouldn't want to make the little missus angry." He winked at my babydoll. "Ms. Denali, why don't you tell Edward what you came to say so that we can leave."

Tanya pouted for a minute. She looked ridiculous with her plastic lips. "The father of my baby is an enemy of yours. I found out that he only pursued me because he thought we were still together. Like you, he is a very rich and powerful man. Unfortunately, I can't get access to any of his money."

I set Bella aside so I could stand up. I paced around the room, trying to wrap my head around this shit. "Tanya, are you telling me the father is James?! You fucking bitch!"

Tanya shook her head. "As if! That asshole is the reason I'm here in the first place. The baby's father was Stephen Sokolov. He died before he could change the will. I'm left with nothing and James refuses to acknowledge my child. It's a nightmare."

Bella gasped. I collapsed onto the couch next to her. She gently stroked my hair to calm me down. This was the fucking news of the century. There was another heir to the Russian Organization. James wouldn't like that one fucking bit. Tanya suddenly became very useful to me.

"Jenks, draw up a contract for Ms. Denali." I told him the details.

The two pregnant women both had to use the restroom so we had the time alone. I would have to have my maid disinfect whatever Tanya used. Bella protested but I carried her to the bathroom. She complained about getting a fucking wheelchair so that I could get a break. I called her a 'smartass' before leaving.

Tanya came back with a sweater on. I guess she got the point that I was no longer interested. I had asked Bella to text me when she was done, but she didn't. My eyes narrowed when I saw her saunter into the room.

"Babydoll, why don't you listen to me? You're on bed rest. You were supposed to text me."

She rolled her eyes. "Really, Edward, walking a few feet isn't going to hurt me or the baby. You're too overprotective."

I settled her in my lap and kissed her forehead. A light powdery scent was mixed with her usual strawberry and flowers. I inhaled deeply. My hand snaked under her shirt. I gently rubbed the baby bump. She put her hand over mine and smiled. It was a silent apology.

"I love you," we whispered at the same time.

Tanya watched all of this with a sneer on her heavily made up face. I raised my eyebrow, daring the bitch to speak. Lucky for her, she kept quiet. She may not have been the brightest bulb in the lamp but she knew not to cross me. My wrath was fucking legendary.

"Tanya, I asked Jay to draw up a contract between us. If you promise to give me access to the DNA test once the baby is born, I'll provide you with financial compensation. You will be ordered to stay in Alaska. I have a large mansion in a quant town. I will provide for all your necessities and give you a monthly stipend for a year. After that, the Russians will be responsible for you and the baby. Do we have a deal?"

She nodded. Bella looked confused. Jay had Tanya and I sign the papers. I put him in charge of making sure Tanya got to Alaska safely. When that was done, they both left. Bella was still staring at me. I had to explain.

"Bella, there are things in my world that are fucking harsh. James is my enemy, therefore, I have to take him down before he makes a move against me. If Tanya's baby proves to be his biological brother, then he loses power. He has several uncles that don't want him to lead. They will use Tanya's baby to launch a coup. I promise you that I will do my best to keep Tanya and the baby safe. It's fucking cruel but it has to be done."

She nodded. "I understand. I just hope no one ever tries to use me or our baby against you. I couldn't bear it," she said, sobbing.

I wiped her eyes. "There's no fucking way! I'd kill anyone who came close to you or our baby. I may be a Mobster, but I've always been very careful. The Volturi protect family at all costs."

She sniffled a little. I hated to see her fucking cry. "I trust you, Edward. You take really good care of me. I know you'll keep our family safe."

My chest swelled when she said 'our family'. I was so fucking proud that this woman wanted to be with me for life. I hugged her little body to me. She fit perfectly in my arms. We were meant to be together. I would never let anyone take her away from me. I'd fucking die first.

We were going to leave for Lakewood in the morning. We spent the night watching DVD's and eating pizza. I made sure that Bella didn't walk anywhere. She gave up fighting with me and let me take care of her. We made love in the bathtub before going to sleep.

The next day, I woke up at six thirty. Bella wasn't beside me. I panicked for a minute before I saw the bathroom light on. Of course, I should have known she was in the fucking bathroom. I felt bad for her bladder. She came out in her cami and boy shorts. That's all she wore to bed lately because she had hot flashes. Her fucking hormones were all over the place.

I had a morning woody. Bella sucked me off. She was so fucking good at that shit. If she wasn't a virgin when I met her, I would swear that she had done it before. I fucking came hard in her mouth. She swallowed and licked me clean like always. She was so cute, kissing the head of my cock and smiling saucily at me. She knew she fucking owned my ass. There were not enough fucking words to describe my love for my babydoll.

When I could move again, I helped her dress and packed the SUV. We were taking the Hummer again but this time I would be driving. I made sure that I had her OBGYN on speed dial. Then, I packed some pregnancy books, her pills, and other things that we would need. I wanted the weekend to not only be about sex, but also about me getting closer to my future wife; just thinking that fucking word made me grin.

My babydoll was still sleepy, so I made a bed in the back for her. I used lots of fluffy pillows and blankets. She was out before I left the garage. My bodyguard, Benjamin, would be following us and staying close. I didn't expect any trouble because James was out of the country, but it was better to be safe than sorry.

I texted mom, Ali, and Rose before I got out of Seattle. They wished me luck on O.P.T.B. I couldn't wait to bring my angel back with a ring on her pretty little finger. I set my Ipod to play light Classical music as I drove. I had read that it was good for the baby. Bella mumbled in her sleep. She was saying something about a pearl. I would have to ask Alice if my babydoll had looked at any pearl jewelry. I knew Bella wouldn't ask me for shit, so I used my sisters and Esme to tell me what she wanted.

The drive to Lakewood wouldn't take long so I took the scenic route. I heard Bella's stomach rumble. It was still breakfast time. I pulled over to a nice looking restaurant with lots of cars out front. They advertised that they had waffles, which were one of my babydoll's favorites.

I woke her up. She pushed me away at first, but the minute she smelled waffles and syrup, she woke up. I parked and we went inside. Our table was in a corner at the back. A blonde waitress kept eye-fucking me. I subtly let her know that I wasn't interested.

Bella was too fucking tired to notice our exchange. She had to pee again so I walked her over and waited. Several old ladies smiled at me. I told them about how I got Bella pregnant while she was on birth control. Unfortunately, my babydoll heard me.

She greeted the elderly women and pulled me away. "Christ, Edward! Do you have to tell everyone that story?"

Her cheeks were red so I licked them. This earned me another round of yelling but I didn't fucking care.

When we got back to the table, our drinks were waiting. I had ordered espresso, which caused my babydoll to glare at me. She had good old orange juice with pulp.

Soon, a different waitress came to take our food order. Bella got the country fried steak breakfast as well as a plate of banana nut waffles. I ordered a Southwestern omelet. We talked while we waited for the food to arrive.

We were discussing baby nursery colors when Bella gasped. She was looking at someone over my shoulder. I followed her gaze. Staring at her was a man that looked to be around our age. He had slate gray eyes and dark brown hair. I fucking hated the way his eyes drank in Bella. I wondered how she knew the fucker.

He walked over to the table. Her eyes never left his face. I was so fucking jealous that I wanted to throw shit. He took her hand and kissed it. I kicked him in the shin. He looked at me like I was some kind of demented asshole.

I stood up. "Don't fucking touch her, asshole! Who the fuck are you anyway?!"

Bella asked me to calm down. She invited the asshole to take the chair next to her. He happily complied.

"Jared Daniels meet my boyfriend Edward Cullen. Edward, this is Jared, he and I used to…we used to date a little in college." She said the last part very fast.

Neither Jared nor I wanted to shake hands. She may have dated this fucker, but she didn't give him any pussy, that was for sure. We glared at each other. He turned to Bella, a huge smile plastered on his face. I was going to pound the shit out of this fucker. Unfortunately, the waitress saved his life. She must have felt the tension because she practically threw the food on the table before leaving.

The asshole took in the large amount of food in front of Bella. He gestured to her plate. "Wow, princess, you must have really gained a hell of an appetite. I remember you not being able to finish a whole hamburger."
I was seething. Did he just call her princess? She wasn't a fucking princess, she was my babydoll and I wasn't fucking sharing. I growled at the fucker. He was too engrossed in Bella to notice.

She put her hand over her stomach and giggled. "No, J.D., I'm pregnant. That's why I'm eating so much. I'm hungry all the time."

The fucker tensed up. "You're…you're pregnant. How…when…why? Who's the father?"

I kicked him in the knee this time. He glared at me. If it wasn't for Bella, his ass would be on the fucking floor.

"Um…my boyfriend…Edward is the father. It wasn't really planned but I'm really happy. I'm a little over four months."

The fucker scoffed. "I really didn't expect this of you, Bella. You had everything. You could have gotten into any Master's program. You wanted to be a writer, what happened?"

He glared at me, his voice turning ugly. "No wonder you never returned my advances. I could barely kiss you without you running away. Now I know it was because I didn't have as much money as your pretty boy over there. You're throwing away all your potential to become some trophy breeder. I notice that your ring finger is bare. The asshole won't even marry you. You're going to end up being his mistress. He will wed some socialite and take the baby. I thought you were better than that, princess. I'm ashamed of you."

I lunged for his throat. I kicked and punched until he was covered with blood. Two off duty police officers pulled me off of him. They tried to ascertain what happened. Bella was crying and begging the officers not to take me. She explained the situation. They took Jared outside and made me promise to behave. In return, I slipped them five one hundred dollar bills each. They both winked before leaving. It never hurt to have cops in your fucking pocket.

Bella was too upset to eat after that, so we took our food to go. When we got outside, she got in the passengers seat. She had a few tears on her cheeks. I texted Dee to give him instructions. I was going to have him pick up Jared. He was to take the fucker to a warehouse, scare him, and leave him naked tied to the docks. That would teach the asshole not to hurt my babydoll again.

I pulled away from the restaurant. Bella took out her container and began to eat. She was still crying a little. I clutched the fucking steering wheel. I tried making conversation but she wasn't into it. She just looked out the window and forked food into her mouth. It was fucking depressing.

"Bella, that fucker was a goddamned liar! I won't leave and marry someone else. You know that you're more than a 'breeder' for me. I've told you that if you want to go to school or write, I'll support you. You're my life babydoll. Don't let him plant seeds of doubt in your head. I love you."

She broke down. "I'm…I'm…sorry. I'm not good enough for you. Maybe he's right. You could marry a socialite with a lot of money and use her to strengthen your businesses. I'm just a small town girl with no money or family heritage. I….I…know you would never ask me, but even if you did, I would refuse. I…I love you so much. We…we can be together for as long as you want me, but I'll never make you ask that question. It's already a miracle that you love me. I…I would never force you into an unwanted marriage."

I pulled the car over. This was a fucking nightmare. I pulled her into my lap. She protested but I wasn't letting to. I cupped her chin and looked in her eyes. I wasn't going to let that fucker goad me into proposing the wrong way, but I couldn't let Bella think she was fucking worthless. What she had said broke my heart.

"Bella, I don't want anyone else. I only want you. I don't care about your family or how much money you have, I only care about us. I want you forever. When, not if, I ask you to marry me, I hope with all my heart that you accept. I don't take what we have lightly. I want you in every sense of the word. Don't let me ever hear you put yourself down again. You are the woman who makes people smile. You saved me from eternal damnation. You accepted an orphan as your brother. You light up every room you enter. You love my family as much as me. You are smart, sexy, and gorgeous. Plus, you're the mother of my baby and that alone makes you priceless. Don't let the haters separate us. We belong together forever. They're just jealous of what we have. Ti amo."

She melted into my arms. "Thank you, Edward."

We kissed until the windows started to fog up. I helped Bella back into her seat. She fed me my forgotten omelet. It wasn't as good as hers but it was fucking delicious. I told her so, which caused her to blush and smile.

She gasped when we pulled up to Thornewood Castle. A bellhop came to take our bags. I had requested that the help be there for our arrival. Bella twirled around in a circle, hugging me. She looked like a kid at Disneyworld.

I led her to the secret garden. Beautiful winter flowers were in bloom everywhere. She took out her digital camera and began taking pictures. She even got me to pose for a few. I sat on the ground and pulled her on top of me. Her arms snaked around my neck. She kissed everywhere but my lips. I smacked her tight little ass. She bucked into me. I recognized the fire in her eyes. She was fucking horny as shit.

My dick was pretty much always hard when Bella was near, so I was ready. I just hoped no one would see us because I was going to fuck my babydoll right here and now. She saw the hunger in my eyes and pushed me away.

"Wait! There's…there's something I need to ask you. She was kneeling between my legs. I sat up. She kissed me on the lips. "Edward, did you mean what you said in the car? About making me your wife someday?"

"Every fucking word. I would never lie to you. What's this about, Bella?" She was scaring me.

"I…I…I…just want…" She paused to take something out of her pocket. It was a small black velvet jeweler's box. She opened it. Inside sat a thick silver ring with black diamonds. I didn't wear much bling but I would wear that.

Bella took my hand. She placed the ring on my finger. To say I was fucking stunned would be an understatement.

"It's…it's…not much but I bought it myself with my own money. It's a Tungsten ring. The jeweler assured me that it was indestructible; like our love. Nothing will ever destroy what I feel for you. You make me the happiest woman in the world. Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, will you marry me?" She looked up with her puppy dog eyes, intense love and devotion written all over her face.

My fucking eyes bugged out of my head. This was a fucking disaster. I tried to form words but the only thing that came out was, "Oh shit!"


  1. i love your story, i read the first chapters in fanfic but then it was removed and i ended up here.

    PS: i like the backscreen of your blog but it's a little difficult to read. hurt mu eyes a little.
    maybe you could put a unique color without the lignes going through the text?!!

  2. Thank god that baby wasn't Edwards. I just love the politics of the mob where he still draws up a contract to support her because her baby is useful to the family.

    The tat was perfect. I think I would melt if my hubby did that for me.

    LOL! Of Course Bella would beat him to the proposal.

  3. how funny bella asked him!! haha that is sooo cool i know she is going to get mad at his response in the next chapter! i can feel it she is going to be crying because she thinks his "oh shit!" means no!!
    i knew the baby couldn't be his. interesting that she is going to be a pawn in the james thing. ed is so f-ing hot dang can i just have for a night?

  4. Oh, my! That "Oh shit!" Is bound to cause trouble...