Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Chapter 19: Simple Kind of Life-Part 2

"For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
with a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells.
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife
I'm so ashamed, I've been so mean
I don't know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I'm hunting you down
Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?"

Simple Kind of Life—No Doubt


Dr. Cullen ended up being the one to find Edward nude in the parlor. He sent Emmett to get Edward a change of clothes. I didn't feel the least bit guilty over what I'd done. Edward deserved everything he'd gotten so far. He hurt me and for that he had to suffer.

I avoided everyone's curiosity and headed upstairs to get ready for bed. Somehow I managed to get out of my dress without any help. I was just about to brush my teeth when someone knocked on my door. I set my toothbrush down so that I could answer. It was Alice and she was still wearing her dress.

"Bella, we need to talk. Do you have a minute?" I nodded.

She sat down on the edge of my bed, wringing her hands together. I had never seen Alice so agitated. Usually, she was bouncy and full of excitement. The change in her demeanor worried me.

After a few minutes of torture, she turned to me. "Bella, I love you but you need to lay off Edward. I'm not exactly sure what happened between you two downstairs but he's in bad shape. I've never seen him like this. He had dried tears on his face when Carlisle led him away. Also, what you said at dinner was inappropriate. You really hurt him."

First Esme and now Alice; I should have known they'd take up for him. Alice's defense of her brother just made me angry.

"So you're on his side. Edward has said and done some reprehensible things to me. I was lenient with him. I believed that he loved me but he didn't. He cheated on me when I needed him the most. Don't paint me out to be the bad guy now that I'm finally standing up for myself. I'm glad that he's hurt. I hope everything I'm doing pierces his black heart."

She gaped at me with her mouth open. "I am not choosing sides. So it's either Team Edward or Team Bella now? I love both of you guys. You and Edward are having a baby together. It's not healthy for a child to be brought up in such a volatile situation. I don't know exactly what happened for you two to break up, but I do know that my brother is sorry. He's seriously suffering. He loves you Bella, whether you believe it or not. You don't have to go back to being his girlfriend but please treat him like a normal human being."

I balled my fists up and got in Alice's face. She was my sister and I didn't want to fight with her but the things she said made me angry. She made it seem like it was all my fault. I felt the familiar sting of fury prickling my fingertips.

I pointed to the door. "Get out, Alice! Go pacify your brother. You chose him over me and that hurts more than Edward's words. I thought you were my friend. I thought you were my sister."

My pixie started to cry. "B-Bella, I wasn't choosing anyone. You are my sister and my friend. Please just think about what I said. What time do you want to go shopping tomorrow? Black Friday sales start early."
I turned away from her. I couldn't stand to see her cry. I wished that the anger and pain in my heart would go away but it wouldn't.

"I'm not going shopping with you. Take Esme and Rosalie. Goodnight, Alice."

I heard her sobbing quietly behind me. "Fine. I hope you reconsider. Sweet dreams, Bella.'

I didn't turn around until I heard the door close. I sat down on my bed and cried. I felt awful for treating Alice like that. She had been nothing but sweet and kind to me. She didn't deserve to have my hatred spewed at her. I wanted to go apologize but I was scared that she would rebuff me.

I went into the restroom and finished brushing my teeth. I didn't like who I saw in the mirror. When did I become so mean and hateful? I was always the one people counted on, everyone's best friend. Now, I was a monster that hurt the people I loved.

As expected, Jasper came to visit me. The minute I opened the door I could see the anger on his face. He was rarely cross with me. All of my life he had been my indulgent older brother. In his eyes I could do no wrong.

"Isabella Marie Swan, I am ashamed of you!"

I winced at his use of my whole name and his tone. I knew what he was here about. I felt bad enough as it was.

"Alice has been nothing but a friend to you. She came to our room in tears! You owe her an apology! I warned you earlier that your anger would pollute you and it's done just that. The old Bella would never have hurt her friends. The old Bella would have been able to see that Edward is sorry and has had enough. I know you're pregnant and your hormones are going crazy, but that's no excuse for this type of cruelty. You have to let your fury dissipate. It's not good for you or the baby."

I ran into his arms.  "I'm so sorry, Jasper. I didn't mean to hurt Alice. I'll go apologize now."

He hugged me tightly to his chest before shaking his head. "No, give her the night. She is quite upset. Wait until the morning when you both have a clear head. Think about what I said, Bella. What you're doing to Edward is wrong. Despite your feelings for him, he's still the father of your unborn child. You need to apologize and discuss your future together. Even if you don't continue your relationship, the baby will need two parents. I love you, Bells, and I'm always here for you."

After Jasper left, I laid down with my thoughts. I was going to apologize to Alice first thing in the morning. Edward, on the other hand, didn't deserve an apology. He was trying to make everyone think he was some perfect dad to be and that I was the mean one. They were all slowly taking his side. Well, they could believe his lies but I wouldn't. O.T.E.D was still in full effect and it was about to reach fever pitch.

When I woke up, it was well after eight in the morning. I showered and dressed. I hadn't been shopping since I got to Seattle so I was still wearing tights. They were the only thing that fit me. I put on a black pair. I decided to wear the long sleeved red babydoll dress that I'd gotten in Spokane during one of my rare shopping jaunts. The dress had a black bow that tied just under my breasts. I piled my hair up into a messy updo. My ankles were starting to swell a little so I went with my comfy flats. I looked much younger than I was in the outfit but it suited me. I grabbed my purse and some chapstick before going to find Alice.

I met up with Jasper at the landing. I asked him where Alice was. He told me that she and Esme had gone shopping before five in the morning. It served me right. Alice was probably still mad at me. Jaz said that he and Dr. Cullen had a chess tournament set up for this morning but he could cancel if I needed him. I declined. He gave me a kiss on the forehead before joining Dr. Cullen.

My stomach growled so I went to get something to eat. There was bound to be plenty of leftovers from last night. Turkey, stuffing, and cranberries sounded like a perfectly good breakfast to me. I rounded the corner to the kitchen. I forgot I was carrying my purse and dropped it. Before I could bend down to pick it up, a large hand retrieved it.  


"Good morning, Bella. You look very pretty today. Esme helped me make you breakfast bread pudding before she left. It's already set up at the table. I hope you like it."

He handed me the purse. I snatched it out of his hand.

"I have told you over and over again that I will not eat anything you cook. Stop trying to get on my good side. You're only embarrassing yourself. Now leave me alone so I can eat breakfast in peace. Didn't you learn your lesson from last night? I hate you."

Edward's eyes narrowed. To say he looked good today would be an understatement. He was sexy as hell. He had a little stubble on his jaw. His bruised face was pretty much cleared up except for some discoloring around the eye. He was wearing navy blue khakis and a long sleeved v-necked striped blue and slate sweater. He looked like he stepped off of the cover of the Polo catalogue. I wanted to hop into his arms and let him pound me against the door. The urge made me gulp.

"What you did last night was cruel, Bella, but I deserved it for how I've treated you. I love you. I don't care what mean and hurtful things you do, I'm not leaving.

"In the past I've been weak and for that I'm sorry. It's my fault that our relationship has turned into this…monstrosity. It doesn't have to remain that way though. You and our baby are my first priorities. No matter how many times you break me, I'm going to keep trying to make you love me again. I don't care if it takes the rest of my life."

His words brought tears to my eyes. It was hard to stay mad at him when he said stuff like that. I latched onto the image of him having an orgy with those blonde whores. That caused my fleeting anger to grow again. No matter how many nice things he did or said, he didn't love me. Maybe he wanted the baby but he would never want me. It would be best if I kept my feelings the way they were when it came to Edward; maybe then losing him wouldn't hurt so bad.

I walked past him into the kitchen. Of course, he followed me. He went over to the table and held the chair out for me. Breakfast bread pudding was one of my favorites but I wasn't about to tell him that. I ignored him and warmed up some turkey and stuffing instead. I added cranberry sauce and then joined him at the table. I took the plate he had set out for me and put it on the counter so someone else could eat it. Edward frowned at me before digging into his breakfast.

"Bella, would you like to spend the day with me? We can go shopping, see a movie, and eat an early dinner. There are a lot of great sales going on today. I found this new bookstore that you would love. It's made to look like a French cottage and they have an extensive collection."

Edward looked so enthusiastic, but I just shook my head. His shoulders slumped. He dropped his fork onto the table.

"Why not? I promise not to make you feel uncomfortable. We don't even have to talk if you don't want to. Please Bella, I just want to spend some time with you."

I shook my head again. He sighed and stood up. Slowly, he walked around the table and put a credit card in front of me. I stopped eating to glance at him.

"That's my American Express black card. Buy whatever you want. It has no limit. Rosalie is still here, so she can go shopping with you. If you have any problems with the card, call me and I'll fix it."

How dare he? Wasn't he the one that accused me of using him for his money? It would be a cold day in hell before I took any money from Edward. If he wanted to, he could buy the baby stuff, but I wouldn't accept any gifts from him.

I threw the Amex back at him. "Keep your damn card, Edward! I don't want a damn thing from you! I'm not a golddigger!"

He bent down to pickup the card. "Damn it, Bella, I know you aren't a golddigger! I made a mistake that night. I said things I didn't mean because I was upset. I'm sorry that you think I feel that way about you.

"Here," he pulled out his wallet, "take the whole thing. There's cash and cards. Use whichever you want. Please buy yourself something. You're going to need some maternity clothes. Let me pay for that at least."

I turned away from him and finished eating. Then I stood up to take my dirty dishes to the sink. There was no need to wash or load them because the help would do that later.

When I turned around, Edward was still standing in the same spot. He had put his wallet away and was staring at me. I gave him the meanest glare I could muster.

"I already know that I'm gaining weight. You don't have to remind me that I need a new wardrobe. I have a bank account and a job. I'm perfectly capable of buying whatever I need. I'm sure your other whores would be happy to accompany you on a shopping trip today. Please, go call one of them and stop trying to suck up to me."

Edward rushed to my side and lifted me into his arms. He shook me slightly. "Stop it! This isn't you! I'm tired of all this fucking anger! You've made your point. You hate me, I get it already. Let this shit go so we can move on. I'm tired of begging you for forgiveness. You're acting like a fucking brat!"

I kicked him in the knee. He wrapped his arms around my body so that I wouldn't fall, because my feet were dangling off of the ground. Then, he gently rested his forehead against mine.

"Put me down!" I screamed.

He continued to hold me to his body. I could feel the rapid beat of our hearts. Edward's breathing was ragged. I felt wetness fall against my face. He was crying. I had a strong urge to pull him closer, but I didn't. I stayed limp in his arms, not returning his embrace.

"What in the world is going on in here?! Bella, are you okay?

Edward released me. When I stepped away, I saw Rosalie standing by the table. She looked concerned. Colin and Brady were each holding one of her hands. I walked over and kissed the boys on the forehead.

"I'm fine Rose. Would you like to go shopping with me? Esme and Alice already left and I don't want to miss the bargains."

She nodded. "Just let me feed C and B here and I'll meet you in the living room. Emmett can watch them for the day."

I heard Edward say something to Rosalie and the boys. They started to chat. I took that as my cue to leave. I went out on the deck to get some fresh air. I wasn't there five minutes before Edward showed up. I remembered that Rose had once told me that she'd love to drive his Phantom and get a look under the hood. Since she and I would be spending the day together, I decided to do something that would make her happy.

"Edward, can I borrow the Rolls Royce? Rosalie has been wanting to take it for a spin. I would appreciate it if you would let us use it to go shopping. I promise I won't do anything to damage your car."

I thought that he would protest because I knew how much he loved his car, but he didn't. He just took the keys out of his pocket and tossed them to me. I caught them.

"Have fun, Bella. The Phantom is yours, too. I will have you a set of keys made. You can take it anytime you want."

My jaw dropped. Edward didn't let anyone drive his car and yet he was letting me be co-owner. "Thank you, Edward."

He smiled. It didn't reach his eyes. Then he turned around and left me standing there. His gait didn't carry any confidence. He looked like a man that awaited the gallows. Some of the fire in my blood started to cool.
Rosalie was elated when I gave her keys to the Phantom. She purred and petted the car like it was one of her kids. When she lifted the hood, I heard her let out a low moan. She was in heaven. I felt happy that I could do something nice for one of my sisters. Now, all I had to do was get Alice to forgive me.

We took off and headed for downtown Seattle. Traffic was a nightmare. It seemed that everyone wanted to partake in the clearance prices. Rosie and I sang along to girl power anthems as we waited.

She turned to look at me. "You must really be kicking Edward's ass this week. I don't think I've ever seen Slutward so low. Even I'm starting to feel sorry for him."

She rolled her eyes and I groaned. "Not you too, Rose."

"I'm not telling you what to do, Bella, but the guy is a mess. I know he fucked up and said some majorly disrespectful shit to you but he's sorry. I talked to him in the kitchen and he asked me for help. I never thought I would see the day when Edward got his heart broken."

I snorted. "His heart isn't broken because he doesn't have one. He's just pretending to care about me so he won't upset Esme. I'm sure by next week he'll be back to his old self."

Thankfully, traffic started to flow so that we could avoid any further conversation. I stared out my window. There were families walking together holding shopping bags. Some were single mothers out with their kids. They had that annoyed look that you see on women's faces when they have too much to deal with. Will I look that way after my baby was born? 

The happiest kids were the ones that were with two parents. It didn't matter whether it was two dads, a lesbian couple, or a woman and a man. I vowed to give my baby that sense of normalcy. Just because I hated Edward, didn't mean I would keep him out of his child's life.

We pulled into the parking garage at Pacific Place. I had never shopped here before because it's more of an upscale mall. A lot of men turned around to look at Edward's Phantom. I would never understand the drooling that went on over cars. Rosalie parked and we got out. A short guy with cropped hair almost fell over when he saw us.

"Hey, sexy ladies! How would you like to give me a spin in your Rolls?" Rose and I both rolled our eyes at each other.

She got up into the guys face. "Touch this car or think about touching this car and I will break my heel off in your ass. Is that clear?"

The guy practically sprinted from the garage. Rose was almost as good as Edward. I gave her props for being so brave. I usually ignored people who made comments like that.

We took the elevator up to the Coach store. The clerks knew Rosalie by name. She asked for a bunch of things and people ran to get them for her. The purses were pretty expensive, so I sat down while she perused. Soon, she noticed that I wasn't shopping.

"Bella, what's wrong? Don't you see anything you like?"

I blushed. "Um…I don't really think I can afford any of the stuff in here. You enjoy. I'll just sit here and read my book until you finish."

She looked at me like I took the short bus to school. "Bella, Bella, Bella, you do know who you're dating, don't you? Your boyfriend is fucking loaded."

I nodded my head. "Yes, but that's his money. I don't ask  him for anything. He already accused me of being after his money, so I don't want to give him any reason to think I am. Besides, I don't need a bunch of fancy things. I'm perfectly happy with what I've got."

Rose pulled out her cell phone. I thought that maybe she was calling Emmett until I heard the conversation.

"Yes, Edward. No, she won't buy anything. Yes, I explained that to her. She says you called her a golddigger. God, Edward! You're such a fucking idiot. Yes, I will do that. Bye."

I gave her a questioning look. "What was that about?"

She sighed and came over to sit by me. "Bella, Edward gave me his credit card to use for you. I know you're against it but I would feel better if you really shopped with me. If it makes you feel better, only buy stuff for the baby on his card."

I bowed my head in defeat. I was going to have to spend some of his money. Rose was right. As long as it was for the baby it should be fine. I stood up to go look at some diaper bags on the wall. A sales clerk helped me pick out a large black leather one that had the Coach symbol all over it. I only owned one designer purse and that had been a gift from Jasper.

Rose bought almost all the new arrivals. She definitely didn't have a problem spending Emmett's money. She told me it was the least he could do for her after pushing out his two big headed kids. I giggled.

When it was time to pay, Rose handed me Edward's black card and his ID. She said he gave her both just in case there were problems. The clerk's eyes widened when she saw the Amex. She tried to sell me some accessories, but I declined. The baby didn't need a new wallet or umbrella.

Next, we went to Tiffany's. Rose saw several pieces she liked. She used her Blackberry to send pictures to Emmett. The things she took pictures of were possible Christmas presents that she might want. Most of the stuff was really over the top. There were so many diamonds that I needed sunglasses to protect my eyes.

I flipped through the catalog until I found the necklace Edward had given me for my birthday. I gasped when I saw the price and it was ... one hundred and forty thousand dollars! I began hypervenalating. Thank god, I'd given it back to him. That was way too much to spend on me.

When I calmed down, I sauntered around the store looking at miscellaneous things. There wasn't much in there that I could afford. A pretty diamond necklace in a flower shape caught my eye. I asked the salesperson if I could have a closer look. It was beautiful upon further inspection. I inquired about the price. The thing was over six thousand dollars.

I thanked the clerk for letting me see it and then went to find Rosalie. She was buying an earring and necklace ruby set. It looked great on her. She asked me if I found anything I liked. I told her no. She raised her eyebrows at me but didn't comment.

After that, we went to some high end dress stores. I didn't buy anything at those places either. I figured that I would  have to wait until we got to the more domestic mall to buy jeans. I would be using my own credit card for that purchase and it did have a limit. The only store that we visited that held my interest was Barnes and Noble. It wasn't like the independent book stores that I preferred, but they had a few things I liked. I bought some baby books and a baby calendar.

Before the day was over, we visited Bellevue Square and Westlake Center. The latter had a few stores that were reasonably priced. I was able to purchase some new jeans and other things that would fit when I got bigger. Rose was upset because I wouldn't use the card for any of my purchases. She threatened to tell Edward, and I told her to go ahead.

The whole day I was eating. I ate everything from hot dog on a stick to sesame chicken. Luckily no one seemed to mind that I was eating in the stores. I made sure to stay clean and be discreet. I got to know where each bathroom on every floor was too. I swore that my kid was doing jumping jacks on my bladder.

Rosalie was great company. She kept me entertained with stories of Em and the boys. She also helped ease my nerves about childbirth. I wasn't sure what type of birth I wanted yet so her suggestions helped. We ate dinner at a new Thai restaurant before leaving the mall. Two guys a table away tried to flirt with us. Rose leaned in and kissed me on the cheek. We pretended like we were deeply in love by holding hands and staring into each other's eyes. The guy's mouths were hanging open by the time we left. We laughed all the way to the parking lot.

On the way back, we stopped at a pleasure shop. Rose wanted to get some 'toys' for her and Emmett to use later. I tried not to think of the two of them being intimate. Like Edward, she wasn't shy at all. She knew what everything was before the salesperson could tell her. I wandered around the store trying to keep the deep blush off my face. I didn't have a significant other so there was nothing to interest me--that was until I saw something that changed my mind.

Since Edward was the father of my baby, it would be all right for us to engage in intercourse. I quickly formulated a plan that would keep O.T.E.D going and get me laid. I grabbed the items I would need and hurried up to pay before Rosalie could see. I used my own credit card. I hid all the items in purse before going to meet her. I was beat after that last stop so we headed straight home.

When we got to the house, everyone was in the living room. I ran up to Alice and hugged her from behind.

"I'm so sorry, pixie. I was such an idiot. Can you please forgive me?"

She giggled and then turned around. I smothered her tiny face in kisses.

Emmett laughed. "Isn't she supposed to be marrying your brother? You look like you're about to strip her clothes off." Thankfully, Rosie slapped him on the back of the head.

Alice and I chatted about what we'd missed. Her shopping trip had gone well but she missed me. She was the one that asked Rose to stay behind because she thought I might want to go shopping. I hugged and thanked her for being so kind to me. I showed her my new baby bag. She liked it but insisted I needed more than one.

Before long, Jasper came to join us. He was so happy that we'd made up. Esme stopped by to give me a hug. She asked if I wanted anything to eat. I told her that Rose and I already had dinner. I spent almost an hour chatting with everyone.

Carlisle was in full doctor mode, asking if I was taking my vitamins and eating properly. I showed him some of the books I bought and he agreed that they were helpful. Rose gave me Edward's credit card and ID. She told me to return them to him. I asked Esme if he was still here. He was in one of the guesthouses. Jasper walked me out there and left me at the door. I knocked.

Edward had obviously been sleeping. His hair was mussed. He wasn't wearing anything except a low slung pair of pajama pants. His defined abs looked even better than I remembered. I wanted to lick down his body until I got to the prize. To say I was horny would be an understatement. I craved him. Well not him per se, but definitely his manhood. His eyes widened when he noticed it was me.

"Hey, Bella, did you just get home?"

I nodded. "I'm here to give you back your credit card and I.D. I only made one purchase, and I plan to pay you back for that."

He glared at me. "Come inside, babydoll. You know damn well that you don't have to pay me back for anything. Why in the hell didn't you buy more stuff?"

I walked into the cozy cottage. There was a fire going. This particular guesthouse had two bedrooms and one and a half bathrooms. It was very cozy and comfortable. Of course Esme had decorated it so that it was gorgeous. Edward motioned me to the large beige couch in the corner. I handed him his cards. We stared at each other in uncomfortable silence. I decided that I would break the ice.

"Edward, I was thinking that even though we aren't together, you might be able to help me out from time to time."

He leaned forward. "Bella, you know I'd do anything for you. What do you need sweetheart?" I almost gagged on his fake sweetness.

"Um…it's…it's…just that I have urges…you know because of the hormones. If you….if…we…could continue to um…be…intimate that would help me out a lot."

Edward's eyes bugged out of his head. "Are you asking me to…Fuck, Bella! You know you never have to ask. I'm always willing and ready."

He tried to grab me but I moved out of his reach. "Edward, it would only be sex. I have rules. First, you can't touch me. I will bind your hands behind your back. Second, we use condoms. I don't know where your dick has been, and I won't risk catching something. Third, you have to cover your face. I bought you a bondage hood that you can wear. I hate your guts, and if I had to look at you, I wouldn't be able to come. And fourth, no kissing. It's too intimate for what we'll be doing."

He stood up to pace. "You don't honestly expect me to comply to that list, do you? I told you a million times that I'm clean. I didn't fucking cheat on you! Why can't you get that through your thick head? Oh, and thanks for telling me you hate me for the millionth time this week--that should do wonders for my cock."

I sneered at him. "Take it or leave it. You can follow my rules or no sex. I'm sure it won't be a great loss to you, because you're a manwhore, but I'm pregnant. I wouldn't feel right sleeping with a man that wasn't the baby's father."

He pulled at his hair. "If another man tried to touch you, I'd rip off his fucking dick! You are mine whether you want to be or not! I am not a fucking 'manwhore'. You are the only woman I've been with since we met. Fucking holy hell, I'll take it! If it's the only way you'll let me get close to you, I'll take it."

My answering smile was blinding. "If you don't have any objections, we can start right now. I've been horny all day. An orgasm will relax me so that I can sleep."

I walked into the main bedroom. Edward followed me. The bed sheets were messed up from his sleep. He reached for me. I stepped away.

"This is clinical sex, Edward. We both get off and then we go our separate ways. That means that you undress yourself, and I undress myself."

He mumbled some choice words under his breath but complied. Since he wasn't wearing much, it didn't take him long to get undressed. He spent the rest of his time watching me. I didn't undress seductively like I would have done in the past. His eyes darkened when I finished.

I pulled out a pair of fuzzy handcuffs and used them to secure his hands behind his back. Then I came around to the front and put a condom on his cock. I wasn't sure what size he wore so I'd just gotten the biggest size they had. It giggled because it fit. Edward continued to stare at me. When I pulled out the black bondage hood he shook his head.

"There's no way, Bella. It doesn't even have eye holes. I won't be able to see you."

He was right. It covered up his hair and eyes and that's why I'd chosen it. I didn't want to be reminded that it was Edward Cullen I was having sex with, but the hood did have a cutout for the mouth. This was something I wouldn't compromise on; either he wore the hood, or the deal was off.

"We can't do it without the hood, Edward. I don't want to see your eyes. All you are is a human dildo to me. Either let me put it on you or I'm done. It's your choice."

Unfathomable sadness passed through his eyes. The look was so intense that I almost regretted what I was about to do. He lowered his head and nodded. I placed the spandex over his head and helped him lay down.

I straddled Edward's hips. His body squirmed. I licked and bit on his neck. He moaned. I leaned up so that  I could put my nipples in his mouth. He sucked on them greedily before I pulled away. It felt amazing but I was determined not to make any noise. I didn't want Edward to know how much I enjoyed having sex with him.

By the time he finished on my breasts, my pussy was dripping. I glided his engorged cock inside me. It felt so good after all this time, which made me bite my lip to stifle the loud moan threatening to escape my throat.

Suddenly, Edward thrust his hips, which drove his dick deep inside of me. He was hitting all the right spots. My walls clenched as I came hard. I couldn't hold back the tiny noises that escaped from my mouth. I put my hands on Edward's chest to change the angle, digging my nails into his skin.

He groaned out loud. "Fuck, babydoll. That fucking stings. Lay off a bit, please."

His words made me scratch harder. I didn't stop there though. I pounded his chest with my fists. I continued to glide my hips up and down on his erection. The more I hurt him, the closer my climax came. I bit down on his neck leaving a mark. My hips moved at lightening speed. His dick was throbbing deep inside of me. With every downward motion, he would hit my clit. I felt powerful. Edward was whimpering below me but I kept hitting him. It was like I couldn't stop.

"I hate you, Edward Cullen! This… means… absolutely… nothing! I loathe you!"

Our skin was slapping together at lightening speed. I used every synonym for the word hate. I called Edward the vilest names that came to mind. I rode him hard.
"Fuck you, Edward! You're worthless!"

The coil within me broke. I came hard bringing Edward with me.

I screamed, "I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!" over and over again as I orgasmed.

After that,I rolled off of Edward. When I could move again, I threw on one of his nightshirts. Then, I went to the restroom to get some tissue. I used it to remove the condom and wipe off Edward's cock. I'd missed feeling his cum hit my walls.

Next, I helped him sit up so that I could remove the handcuffs. He brought his arms in front and began massaging his wrists. I kneeled into him until I could touch his face. Then, I took off the bondage hood--that was when I knew I had gone way too far.

Edward's green eyes were dead as silent tears were running down his face. His forehead was creased. He stared right through me. It was like he couldn't even see my face. All of the hate and anger I'd been holding inside disappeared. He didn't deserve what I'd done. I'd finally broken him.

"Edward, I'm so sorry," I whispered.

He didn't answer. The flood of tears were still flowing from his eyes mingling with the blood on his chest. There were scratches and bruises across his torso. I had done that to him. I excused myself to go pee. I ran to the bathroom, used the toilet, and cleaned myself up.

When I got back to the room, Edward wasn't on the bed. I panicked until I heard a deep sobbing noise. It was coming from the other side of the bed. Edward was sitting on the floor with his knees up to his chest. His head was resting on them. He had wrapped his arms around his legs and was rocking back and forth. A guttural noise was coming out of his mouth.

I knelt beside him and touched his soft hair."I'm so sorry, Edward. I went too far. I don't really hate you. Please, look at me."

Still nothing. I began to cry. The sounds that Edward was making were eating away at my heart. He was in so much pain and it was all my fault. If I had of listened to everyone and stopped acting childish, my Edward wouldn't be hurting.

"Edward, I didn't mean what I said. I'm so sorry that I've been so mean to you. I'm sorry that I did that to you. You didn't deserve it. I still…I still love you. Please, talk to me. I'm scared."

I gently massaged his scalp as I told him I was sorry multiple times. Eventually he lifted his head. I littered his face with soft kisses. "I'm sorry, I love you, Edward," I whispered again.

He lifted his head and put it on my shoulder. I gave him one last kiss before helping him stand. Then, I grabbed his sleep pants and boxers. He put them on without a word. I led him to the other bedroom. We both laid on the bed facing each other.

I caressed his cheek lovingly. "Edward, what I did….I didn't mean any of it. You are so special to me. You are the father of my baby. Please don't give up on me. I'm so sorry. I love you."

He pulled me closer to his body. "I would never give up on you. We have both done things that we're not proud of but we still care for one another. I love you and our baby. We can get through this."

We sat there in silence just looking at each other for a long time. Edward fell asleep first. I kissed his lips and moved the fringe of bronze hair from his forehead. My fingers lingered on his cool skin. After awhile, I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer and joined him.

When I woke up, the bed was empty. I could smell something cooking in the other room. Of course I was hungry. I went to the restroom to do my usual stuff. When that was done, I padded into the kitchen. Standing in front of the stove was Edward. His chest was still bare and he had the sleep pants on from last night. I was mesmerized as I watched the way his back muscles strained over his skin. I drank him in like he was a fine wine. When my eyes lowered to his backside I almost swooned. I had to fan my face because it was so overheated.

I was kind of worried about approaching Edward. I had been horrible to him yesterday. Maybe he wouldn't want to see me at all anymore. The thought of not seeing him made my stomach hurt. I turned around to go back to the bedroom. This was too hard. I couldn't do it.

"Babydoll, I'm glad you're awake. Breakfast is almost ready. Grab a seat and I'll serve you."

I turned around to face Edward. He was smiling brightly. His emerald eyes shone like beacons out of his face. I was shocked that he was being so nice to me. I walked over to the table. Edward stopped what he was doing and pulled my chair out for me. He even kissed me on both cheeks.

"Um….what's for breakfast?" My voice sounded nervous. I had to grip the seat to keep from bolting.

Edward knelt down in front of me. He clasped both of my hands in his. Our eyes made contact and I was lost. My heart rate doubled. With his long copper eyelashes and dark pink lips, he looked like an angel.

"I'll tell you what's for breakfast if you do me a favor." I nodded. "May I see your stomach?" he asked hopefully.

My blush was so deep that I probably looked like a stop sign. I knew that I had no reason to be shy around Edward but after last night, I couldn't define our relationship. Regardless, he looked so adamant that I wouldn't have denied him anything. I still had on one of Edward's sleep shirts, so I had to stand up to reveal my stomach. Luckily I'd put my panties back on this morning.

I felt kind of silly standing in the kitchen half naked, until I saw Edward's face. He stared at me, like my body was something to be worshipped. He trailed his fingers along my lower abdomen. Then, he placed his whole palm on my stomach. The sensation was strangely erotic. He quickly replaced his hands with his lips. He lightly kissed and caressed my entire stomach. He flicked his tongue into my bellybutton. I had to clutch his head to keep my balance.

"Hello, baby. It's your Daddy. I can't wait to meet you. I love you so much," he cooed, while rubbing his cheek against me.

My heart melted into a puddle of water. The moment was just so perfect. My hormones got the best of me causing me to cry. My tears fell in Edward's hair. He stood up and pulled me into his arms.
"Shhh, Bella, don't cry. I love you."

I buried my face in his chest. "Edward…there's….we have….there's so much to talk about. We…need….we need to make plans. It's…so overwhelming."

He put his finger over my lips. "Hush. We'll talk after you eat. Right now, let's just enjoy each other's company."

I gave him the best smile I could muster. He kissed me soundly.

"We're having scrambled eggs with cheese for breakfast. I hope you don't mind but I ran to the main house and got some leftover bread pudding. There's also lots of fresh fruit," he announced.

My mouth watered with the descriptions. I was so hungry that I could have eaten the wooden leg off of the table. Edward finished cooking. I waited in anticipation as he made me a plate.

The bread pudding smelled even better than it did yesterday. The dishes that Edward set in front of me looked more suited for a museum than a kitchen table. He had meticulously placed everything so that it was visually pleasing.

"Edward, this is too beautiful to eat. How in the world did you learn to cook and do all of this? Don't get me wrong, I appreciate it, it's just amazing."

When I looked up, he was staring at me. He actually looked…shy. The Edward Cullen I knew was never sheepish. "I am learning to cook for you. My mom has been teaching me a few things. I also watched a bunch of tutorials on Food Network and bought some cook books. I'm still not great at it but it took me less tries than before to make the eggs. Oh, and thank you for the compliment."

"Why? Why would you suddenly learn to cook? I can feed myself. I'm not ungrateful; I just don't want you to feel obligated…."

He shut me up by stuffing a spoonful of pudding in my mouth. "Babydoll, you're my girlfriend and you're pregnant. The least I can do is prepare a meal or two. You're giving me the greatest gift on Earth. Let me feed you sometimes. I love you."

I wanted to talk more but once the food gates were open, they couldn't be closed. I ate with relish. Everything was delicious. Edward kept glancing over at me and smiling. His face lit up every time I touched my stomach. It was cute.

After breakfast, I went to shower. Edward wanted to join me but I told him that it wouldn't be such a good idea. I stood under the hot water letting it ease the tension out of my muscles. I shampooed my hair twice because the strawberry scent calmed my nerves. Edward's behavior was confusing. I had expected anger or indifference but had gotten love instead. He even called me his girlfriend, which I didn't think I was anymore. I contemplated his attitude as I took my prenatal vitamins.

Thankfully, when I got to the bedroom, Edward was gone. There was a bag on the bed containing one of my new pairs of dark skinny jeans, underwear, and a white cowl neck sweater. I smiled because I knew that Alice was the one to bring it. I dried off and then hung my towel over a chair.


I screamed. He wasn't supposed to still be here. "Get out Edward! I'm getting dressed!"

As usual, he didn't listen to me. He began walking to me. I backed up until I reached the wall. He leaned down and kissed my forehead. He laid soft kisses all over my body from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. My bones turned to mush. His lips left an electric sensation everywhere they touched.

"I've wanted to do that for months now babydoll. Your skin is so fucking soft. I'm going to take my shower. Wait for me." He exited the room, whistling happily.

That was weird. I still wasn't sure why Edward was in such a good mood, but I wasn't complaining. I dressed and went into the living room to wait on him. My mind was going crazy with the thought of everything to come. We had a lot to discuss. I would be having a baby in six months, so we didn't have much time to resolve our problems.

By the time Edward came out of the bedroom, I was a ball of nerves. He was dressed in jeans and a green sweater that brought out his eyes. He suggested that we go to the meadow to talk. I grabbed two thick blankets and some snacks that we could take with us. Edward insisted on carrying it all for me. Our walk to the meadow was quiet. We were both just taking in the surroundings. The day was pretty chilly but it wasn't raining.

We ended up at the swing. I traced my fingers over our initials in the tree. We had been so happy and in love that day. Edward noticed what I was doing and came to stand beside me.

"It's still E and B. What we have if forever. Don't doubt us, Bella."

I didn't know how to respond so I turned away from him. He took my hand and guided me to the swing. I sat down and let him push me. It was nice. He never let me get too high. I found myself giggling when he picked up the speed. My dad used to push me in the swing when I was little. It was one of my fondest memories from childhood.

Eventually the swinging stopped. I looked behind me to see Edward staring at me intently. I blushed under his scrutiny. Even though we had sex, if that's what you could that mess that happened last night, I hadn't been around him in a while and felt a little self conscious.

"Bella, you're so beautiful. The sound of your laughter lights up my heart. A minute with you is more precious than gold."

He slapped himself on the forehead. "Fuck! I'm not good at this shit. If you tell anyone I said that bullshit, I'll tickle you to death."

I was too stunned to even reply. Edward was being very romantic. He had said such things before but after our breakup, I was afraid that he didn't feel them anymore. All of his actions were confusing.

We spread our blanket in front of a nearby tree. Edward pulled me into his lap and smoothed the extra blanket over the two of us. He wrapped his muscular arms around me. I was in heaven. It was so cozy that I was on the verge of falling asleep. My pregnancy made me tired all of the time. I was amazed that I didn't fall asleep at the mall yesterday.

I laid my head on his shoulder. The warm smells of vanilla, sandalwood, and amber surrounded me. It was Edward's scent and it calmed my nerves. I inhaled greedily.

"Edward, I need to come clean with you. The thing…Alec…he's…he's a DEA Agent…"

Edward's arms dropped from around my waist. I moved back so that I could look at him. I knew he was going to be angry but the look in his eyes was so cold. I couldn't hold back the shudder that racked my body.

"Motherfucker! All this fucking time! It's like a traitor party going on lately. Who's next? Is my tailor a Fed? Is my maid a hired spy? I can't take anymore of this shit! Everyone is a fucking liar! I'm going to clean house. If someone can't be accounted for, they're going to fucking disappear. The Volturi can't have this shit. Alec was my fucking bodyguard!"

I knew what was coming. He was going to blame me. It would hurt beyond words. I put my hands over my face to stifle my sobs. I shouldn't have started our talk with this information but I didn't want us to have secrets. I wanted to clear the air so that we could talk about personal problems, which would never happen if he got too worked up.

I tried to stand up, but before I could, Edward grabbed my arm. He pulled me back into his lap. He kissed my lips softly and rubbed small circles on my lower back. His touches lulled me into a blissful peace.

"Edward, I'm so sorry about everything. I swear to you that I didn't know until I moved to Spokane. The day before I came here, Alec knocked on my door. He confessed everything. His unit is dirty. They're taking payoffs from James and the Russians. They…they…want to goad you into going after James. They…are planning on him…ki-killing you and saying it was self defense. Alec came to me because…because…he wants me to get you to promise…promise not to kill him for his betrayal. "

Edward squeezed me so hard that I yelped. He loosened his arms a little but not by much. "Fuck Bella! Do you know what this means?! How serious it is?! That fucker James is not getting near you or me. I will have to beef up security and warn my godfathers. I'm so fucking sorry that this shit was put on your shoulders. Don't worry about anything. I'll take care of it."

I was still surprised that he wasn't mad at me. I had fully expected him to throw a full on tantrum. It didn't escape my mind that he hadn't said anything about what would happen to Alec. The man had saved my Edward's life. I owed it to him to return the favor.

I kissed Edward's rigid jaw. He trembled with his anger. It was a tangible force that surrounded us. I kept kissing him until I felt his body relax.

"Edward, I need you to promise me. Swear to me that you will not kill Alec."

He looked down at me. His eyes were wide. "You don't know what you're asking me babydoll. Alec betrayed me and my Organization. In my world, that's grounds for death. I can't just let it go. I don't know how much information he's gathered. He could be dangerous to all of us."

I shook my head. "No! He told me that they never had anything on you or the Volturi. He was sent to take down HADES and Demetri. He said you were too powerful to get to so they had to go after your right hand man. Now that he knows his unit is bad, he doesn't care about the investigation. He's not a danger to you."

The curses that poured from Edward's lips made me want to cover my ears. "Bella, I have to deal with this. The Volturi have every right to sentence Alec to death. He lied before. How do you know he's not lying again? I'm sorry but I can't save his life."

I was hysterical, so I crushed my lips to Edward's and begged him over and over again to let Alec live. I knew that he'd messed up by going after the Volturi's business, but he didn't deserve to die. I decided to use the only ace I had.

"If it wasn't for Alec…if he hadn't of taken that bullet, our baby might not have been conceived. I got pregnant that night in the lair after we returned from Italy. Alec saved your life and possibly mine too. You're a powerful man Edward. Don't do this for me. Do it for our baby. If you truly love our unborn child, you'll save Alec."

Edward twirled a lock of my hair around his finger. He appeared to be in deep thought. I silently prayed that he would make the right decision. I felt guilty about what I'd just asked him but if it saved Alec's life, it was worth it.

"You've given me no choice. You know I'd do anything for you and our baby. I give you my word that I won't kill him and I won't let anyone else kill him. He will have to be punished, though. He will no longer be my personal guard. I'll probably have to make him go underground, so he'll be safe. You don't know the headache that this is going to cause, but I'll do it. There's nothing I wouldn't do for you."

He reached into his pocket to get his cell phone before calling Demetri and asked him to pickup Alec. I listened as he explained everything I'd just told him. Demetri wasn't pleased. I could hear his angry voice screaming obscenities. Edward made him swear not to hurt Alec. Dee promised that he would wait for Edward's orders.

After the phone call, Edward pulled me back into his arms. "Babydoll, I won't let anyone hurt you or the baby. Nothing bad will happen to you. I'll make sure of that. In the meantime, I insist that you move into my Penthouse." I shook my head.

He grabbed my chin and looked me in the eye. "I will not negotiate on this Bella. You've just asked me to go against my way of life for you. Now I'm asking you to trust me. You can have a separate bedroom from me if you want. You can even decorate the place to your liking. I vow to protect you and our baby from any harm-- to do that, I need you close to me."

I accepted his offer. He was right. My main priority was to protect our baby. If that meant living with Edward, I would do it. Besides, I had been planning on moving back to Seattle anyway.

"There's just so much Edward. It's overwhelming. I…I…need to officially quit my job in Spokane. Then I need to find a job here so that I can pay you rent. I don't have many things but I want to keep my bed. Then there's…."

He shut me up with a kiss. "Bella what in the hell are you babbling about? I don't need rent money. I own the fucking building. There's no way I'm charging the mother of my child to live with me. If you really want to keep working, you can come back to the club. That way I can keep an eye on you and you can see all of your friends again. Don't worry. I'll take care of everything. I'll call someone to go to your apartment and pack your stuff. I'll have it delivered to our Penthouse tomorrow."

It was all happening way too fast. I had my doubts about living with Edward. That was a big step in a relationship. Of course our situation was different because of the baby, but still it seemed like we were moving fast.

"Edward living together is a big step. We…we need a lot of help before the baby comes. Our relationship is…pretty extreme. I don't want you to feel like you have to do this. I know how you feel about children. I would feel guilty for uprooting your life. It wasn't your fault I got pregnant. I should have asked questions before I took those pills in Italy. Don't feel that you have to…"

That's as far as I got before Edward pushed me back and straddled my waist. He was careful to keep most of his weight off of me. He looked like a dangerous predator as he leaned down and claimed my mouth. The kiss was full of lust. He coaxed my tongue out and claimed it. I gripped his shoulders to keep myself from floating away.

When we cooled down, he spoke. "Babydoll, I love you and Baby Swan-Cullen. You're not making me do anything I don't want to do. I don't blame you for getting pregnant. I'm ecstatic that I'm going to be a father. I know my views on kids haven't been the best in the past but I've changed. The minute I found out that the baby was mine, I began to feel a sense of euphoria. There's nothing I would rather do than raise a family with you. I know that we have lots of work. We'll go to counseling. We'll get the help we need. I promise to make myself worthy of your love. You didn't uproot my life. You enhanced it and gave it meaning. Without you, I'm nothing. You, our baby, and our future are all that matter to me. As long as we're together we can do anything. I love you."

His words brought tears to my eyes. I felt a warm feeling flow through my blood. Edward's words reassured me the way nothing else could.

"I love you too Edward. I…I think it would be best if we took things slowly. We should just be friends for a while. That will give us both time to work on our…relationship. I agree that we should go to counseling. I've been so mean to you these past few days. It…it…was just that I was so angry after what you said that night on the deck. Then when I thought of all the other times…I… I wanted to make you hurt as much as I did. I'm sorry. I should have been more mature. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?"

Edward maneuvered our bodies so that I was on top of him. I rested my head over his beating heart. The gentle vibration was oddly calming.

"I'm the one that has to ask for forgiveness. I hurt you so many times and yet you still love me. I'm so sorry for all the cruel words I've said to you. I'm sorry for putting tears on your beautiful face. But most of all, I'm sorry for making you think I didn't love you. I want to spend the rest of my life making up to you. I deserved everything you threw at me and that was why I took it. You had to get your anger out so you could heal. I would never deny you that. I promise to never hurt you again. From now on, I only want to put smiles on your face. If there is something wrong, I won't jump to conclusions. I'll sit down and talk with you. I have faith in our love for one another. Let's vow to leave all of the bad stuff in the past and start over. Is that okay with you?"

I sniffled, wiping my eyes. "Yes, I...I want us to be happy too. I love you, Edward. Our baby will be better off with parents that love each other and have a strong relationship. I do have to ask one thing. We...shouldn't have sex. I'm not saying we won't ever be intimate again. I just think we need to work us before we go there again."

Edward's answering groan was so loud that the tree shook. "I think that's a bad idea. There's no reason that we can't still make love. I've been going crazy without you. I swear to you that I never fucked those whores or anyone else. And when you say no sex, does that include touching and oral? Please, don't make me do this babydoll. I'll have to take so many cold showers that I'll die of hypothermia."

I had to laugh. From the way that he was pleading, you would have thought his life depended on the matter. It would probably kill me to not be intimate with Edward but I felt that this was what we needed. I believed his admission that he never cheated, but that didn't mean that we could just go back to the way things used to be. Everything was different now. It would do Edward and me some good to reacquaint ourselves with each other.

I kissed his pulse point before answering. "Edward, I love you so much. I trust you. I know that you would never cheat on me. That doesn't mean we can go right to where we left off. Let's just try being friends right now. We have a baby coming, and that should be our main priority."

Edward protested for several minutes until he saw that I wasn't going to change my mind. He huffed, and then grunted, before dropping the subject. I felt his big hand slide into my pants. He cupped my bare buttocks. I pushed away.

"Stop! We can't do that either, Edward. There will be no sexual touching, got it?"

"Shit, you can't…how am I…Fuck! You are going to kill me Bella. I should at least be able to cop a feel. Fuck! Okay, I agree to your terms. The minute you change your mind just jump on my dick and ravage me. I don't care what I'm doing at the time."

I giggled and slapped him on the chest. We stayed in the meadow for hours. The time was spent filling each other in on what we'd been doing during our time apart. It was nice just being there with Edward. I fell asleep in his arms.

When I woke up, I was in the main house. Edward wasn't with me. I wondered if he was in the guesthouse. It was dark outside, which meant I had slept most of the day away. I sat up and turned on the bedside lamp. I was really hungry but I didn't feel like getting out of bed. I had one foot on the plush carpet when someone knocked.

"Come in."

Esme, Rosalie, and Alice all shuffled into the room. Ali and Esme had smiles on their faces. Rose simply looked curious. I looked down at myself to make sure I wasn't glowing or something. Why would they all be here?

Esme answered my silent question. "Bella, dear, I'm so happy you're awake. When I saw Edward carry you into the house, I was worried, but then he explained…and…it's just so wonderful. I'm glad you two are back together."

I didn't have the heart to tell we were just friends so I just smiled. She hugged me and then went to get my dinner. I could tell Alice wanted to talk so I looked at her.

"Oh Bella, I'm so happy. You and Edward belong together. Your baby is going to be beautiful. I can't wait to help you decorate the Penthouse. I've wanted to do over again for months but Edward wouldn't let me. We can go on a major shopping trip to buy stuff. It's going to be so much fun. Edward has so much room. I can make a nursery. Then there's that sunroom…"

Rose put her hand over Alice's mouth. I laughed as Rose threatened to tie Ali up. My sisters were wonderful. I never thought I would have such a large family. I rubbed my stomach and thanked god for sending me the Cullens.

Esme brought me a dinner of lasagna and salad. I ate while the girls talked about babies and decorating. My mind was too busy thinking about Edward and our day in the meadow. I did manage to chime in with a few suggestions of my own.

Eventually, Jasper came by to retrieve his overzealous fiancee. He told me about his talk with Edward. They made up and everything was good again. Jasper was going to continue to work at HADES.

Esme informed me that Edward requested that I be brought to the Penthouse tonight. She and Dr. Cullen were supposed to drive me there. It was a little after eight at night. Edward must be planning for me to sleepover. I was both nervous and elated. I packed my necessary things and then met Esme and Carlisle at the car.

I read one of my new books the whole way there. When we arrived, Carlisle pulled into Edward's private garage. We took the private elevator to the top floor. I would never get over the opulence of Edward's building. It was very secure and expensive. I shuddered to think what a simple one bedroom would cost in this building. The Penthouse itself was massive and had a great view. To think, I, Bella Swan, would be living here was like a fairytale.

Dr. Cullen and Esme stayed with me until Edward returned. We were watching a movie when we heard him come in. I sprinted for the door eager to see Edward. He wasn't alone though. I recognized his companion immediately.

"Felix," I squealed, as I wrapped my arms around him. He awkwardly patted me on the back and kissed my hair. I heard Edward hiss at the display of affection. I guess Caveward wasn't dead after all. I let go of Felix before Edward pounced.

The Cullens said their goodbyes. Carlisle whispered something in Edward's ear before he left. I didn't ask what it was about because it wasn't any of my business. I told Felix that I was pregnant. He was very happy for Edward and me. Surprisingly, he knew a thing or two abut babies. We talked, well I talked and Felix listened, until Edward sent him on an errand.

I went into the kitchen to get a granola bar. I felt Edward's strong arms wrap around my waist. I leaned back into him, letting myself completely relax.

He bent down and kissed my neck. "You smell so good babydoll. I missed you. I had some business to take care of today. Alec sends you his gratitude. He says that he's indebted to you for life. I can't tell you where I sent him but know he's alive and safe. You're an amazing woman Bella. I have a surprise for you. Let's go into the living room."

He took my hand and let me to one of his large leather couches. We sat down. Edward went to his office and when he came back, he was holding a gift bag. He sat it down next to me. I tried to refuse but he shut me up.

 "I hope you like it babydoll."

With nervous fingers, I pulled out the first item. It was a black baby's shirt that read: 'too cute to play with your ugly ass kid'. I laughed, realizing that it was meant for the baby. It was just the thing Edward would buy. I kissed him soundly.

"You, Daddy Edward, are going to give our child an ego the size of Jupiter. I love it though. You even picked a color that can be used for a boy or girl."

He beamed at my praise. The next gift was for me. It was a maternity shirt with the image of a baby over the stomach. The picture was formed from the words 'I love you' in several different languages. It was beautiful. I began to cry. Edward pulled me into his arms.

"Don't cry babydoll. If you don't like it, I can have it returned and get you something else."

I kissed his jaw. "Silly Edward, I love it. Thank you so much. It's perfect. I'm just crying because I'm happy."
He continued to pat my back until I calmed down. There was one more gift in the bag. I pulled it out. I gasped when I saw the familiar blue Tiffany box.

"No Edward, I gave it back. It's too expensive. You should have told me that it cost over a hundred thousand dollars. I can't wear something like that everyday."

Edward interrupted me. "Open it Bella. I think you'll like what's inside. Please, babydoll, just trust me."
He gave me his puppy dog look. After that, I couldn't refuse. I opened the box. Inside was the diamond flower necklace I'd seen that day at the mall. It was even prettier than I remembered.

"How…how did you…I never told you… I can't accept this, it cost too much."

Edward removed the necklace from the box. He turned me so that he could place it around my neck. I felt the cool platinum settle on my chest. It wasn't heavy at all. Edward kissed the back of my neck. Then he turned me around to face him.

"Rosalie saw you looking at the necklace. She took a picture and sent it to me. I knew that you'd never ask me for it so I took matters into my own hands. You are giving me something that is priceless. Nothing is too expensive. You deserve the best babydoll and I'm going to give it to you, whether you want it or not. Besides, it fits you. The diamonds are in bloom just like your body. It looks lovely."

I ran to the bathroom so I could look at myself in the mirror. It was beautiful. Since it wasn't too ostentatious, I could wear it everyday. I did a few twirls before returning to Edward. He was smirking at the baby tee. I straddled his lap. We kissed until we were both panting.

"I take it you like your gifts." I reached up and pulled his hair. "Christ, don't do that babydoll. My cock is hard enough as it is. This no sex thing seriously sucks. By the way, I still have your Jubilee necklace. I'm going to give it back to you. You can wear it on special occasions if that makes you feel better."

We spent the rest of the night talking. I cooked steak and potatoes for our late dinner. Edward didn't want me to but I bribed him with kisses. I didn't want us to sleep in the same bed but Edward insisted. I agreed, because honestly, I wanted to be in his arms.

I changed into a blue sleep short and cami set. Edward groaned when he saw me. I just kissed him on the lips and pulled the comforter over us. We fell asleep spooning.

I woke up a couple of times during the night to pee. Edward was frantic every time. I had to assure him that it was normal for pregnant women to go to the bathroom a lot. That helped him relax a little but he still stirred every time I left the bed.

When I awoke, I was still in his arms. He was already up and playing with my hair. Of course, I had to pull myself away to go pee. I used the time to brush my teeth and wash my face.

When I got back, Edward asked me what I wanted for breakfast. I chose blueberry oatmeal and he went to make it. I still couldn't believe that Edward Cullen was cooking for me.

I dressed in a pair of black yoga pants and a red tank top. My boobs had gotten bigger and filled out the tank quite nicely. I was going to go braless but then I thought of Edward and change my mind. If he saw my puckered nipples, my no sex rule would be out the window.

I left the bedroom. My mouth was watering with the thought of breakfast. Surprisingly, Edward was standing by the front door instead of in the kitchen. A huge guy with bright red hair was speaking to him. The man was even bigger than Emmett.

When I got closer, I noticed that there were several other guys behind that man. They were all impressively built. No one had noticed me yet so I decided to turn around. Since Edward had guests, I wanted to change into something more appropriate for entertaining. I briefly wondered why he hadn't told me that people were coming over today. Before I was halfway to the bedroom, I heard something that knocked the air out of my lungs.

"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, you are under arrest."


  1. im happy Bella sorta took EdwaRD back! they are just too cute together..and all i have to say about those last 8 words are 'OH CRAP'!

  2. Oh man, yeah, the masked sex was definitely too far. It broke my heart to see Edward sobbing by the bed afterward. I was afraid it was too much and Bella totally broke him. Thankfully he survived it.

    I definitely want B&E to survive all of this crap and be a happy family.

    I loved the shirt for the baby. My kids would've definitely been rocking that shirt if I'd found one like it.

    I'm afraid to know who's arresting Edward.

  3. damn alec better not be the one arresting ed... damn it they get back together and then they take him away i can't read any more i have to get up in 3 hours for work... i am going to be on pins and needles and not be able to sleep!!

  4. OMF i hate what bella did to edward i know he said so hateful things to her but what she did to him was i all time low hitting him & saying those god awful things was making her climax i had to stop reading coz edward reaction just broke my heart i think he forgave her to easy imo but i guess he thinks he thinks he deserves it i hope she goes a bit easier on him now hes sufferd enough by her hands

    i hope alic isnt behind him arrested

  5. I was totally ok to let Edward suffer even a lot after what he have done to Bella, but Edward crying after the masked sex makes me nearly crying too. She has gone very far for revenge.
    Somewhere he has touched his own medecine.
    She really wanted to broke him and she succeded.
    Anyway, I'm glad that they are back together.
    You are very talented, thank you for sharing your wonderful imagination with us.

  6. Wow, bella is so vindictive and immature! She is the same in LAMTAF 2.. Its does become hard to take her behavior irrespective of Edward's faults. He atleast tries hard to redeem himself more than anyone and still forgive bella so easily unlike the horrible stuff bella puts him thru in this story or LAMTAF 2. She really gets carried away! The Ass "edward" might be unforgivable but he is so humble n genuine in his mistakes that u do end up being lenient with him. Bella is just a bitch plain and simple. She can really make u wish that edward shud simply get rid of her for his own bi-polar good. She is totally toxic for his mental health here as well as in LAMTAF 2. I wonder why you portray her in such an extreme unpleasant manner in both the plots- she starts off as likeable and then does a 180 degrees and you just cant reconcile her split- personalities by even a far stretch.

  7. The masked sex thing is so degrading and I honestly skipped that part. Bella just went too far and Edward would never do that to her. Even though he called her names before he never covered her face during sex and said she's too ugly to get him off, it's just too humiliating.
    But anyway I'm glad all is well now though. Hopefully they can stop fighting for the sake of their baby

  8. It's gotta be the crooked Feds. Grr....

  9. Bella went too far with the sex thing which made her just as ugly. If she's really that mad then just walked away, ignored him thoroughly. I guess love makes people blind and, stupid.