Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Chapter 18: Simple Kind of Life-Part 1

"For a long time I was in love Not only in love, 
I was obsessed with a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shell
And all I wanted was the simple things 
A simple kind of life And all I needed was a simple man 
So I could be a wife I'm so ashamed, 
I've been so mean I don't know how it got to this point 
I always was the one with all the love Y
ou came along, I'm hunting you down 
Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight 
And all I wanted was the simple things A simple kind of life 
If we met tomorrow for the very first time 
Would it start all over again? Would I try to make you mine?"

Simple Kind of Life—No Doubt


There had been moments in the past that defined my life. The death of my mother when I was three, my father's passing when I was a teenager, and Jasper legally becoming my brother. All of those events paled in comparison to what happened to me a few hours ago when I found out that I was pregnant.

Esme was right when she suspected it in the bathroom. I hadn't wanted to entertain the possibility but my sudden nausea, food cravings, and weight gain all pointed to the obvious, I was going to have a baby. We'd gone back to the table after Esme made me promise to let Dr. Cullen give me a test and check. I was so scared because I though that Edward would be able to see it on my face. I had never been good at hiding things from others. My face was an open book.

The dinner was going well and Edward seemed oblivious to what occurred in the bathroom so I started to relax. That was until he basically tried to get between me and my desert. I'd gone off on him and caused a riff at the table. I felt so bad afterwards. It was just that my hormones were all over the place.

I'd forgone dancing and decided to turn in early. Of course Edward volunteered to drive me back to the house. Our drive was awkward, especially when we broke out in song. I hated to admit it but being back around Edward was causing my old feelings to stir and that frightened me.

We had gone back to the mansion and Edward surprised me by being a gentleman. He helped me out of my dress and respected my boundaries when I told him to leave. The kitchen incident ended up really bringing us closer together. He had fingered me as I clutched the counter. It felt so good to have his hands back inside of my body. I'd missed our intimacy. Of course I'd gotten embarrassed when I realized that we performed a sexual act in his mother's kitchen, so I ran to my room.

Edward came upstairs to check on me. He was so sincere and sweet, bringing me my sandwich. He'd even added a pickle and chips. I was impressed because I knew that Edward was domestically challenged. I let him watch television with me and I felt our friendship return. He had to go to the restroom halfway through our time together and excused himself. I was glad because it was hard trying to ignore him when he was so close.

I was trying to sneak some chips off of Edward's plate when I heart him let loose an expletive. I thought that something might be wrong so I'd gone to check on him. He was pleasuring himself so I apologized and left the room. I paced in the hallway for a minute before returning. He had pleasured me in the kitchen and I was going to return the favor. Edward's penis in my mouth was a feeling I had greatly missed. From the way he responded, I assumed that he had missed it too.

That night, I went to sleep in Edward's arms. I planned to invite him to the doctor's appointment. Something must have gone wrong in the night because when I awoke, Edward was gone. I panicked, thinking that maybe I'd done something wrong. I tried calling him all day but he never returned my calls. I was racking my brain trying to remember what I could have done to piss him off but I came up with nothing.

Esme and Dr. Cullen drove me to the hospital. He set me up in an exam room. I had to take off my clothes and put on one of those awful paper gowns. Esme was so sweet, holding my hand and reassuring me. Although I appreciated what they were doing for me, I wished that Edward was there. Carlisle distracted me while he stuck a needle in my arm to draw blood. He explained to me that the blood test was more accurate than the over the counter urine tests when it came to predicting pregnancy. A lab tech came and took the sample. I was beyond scared by that point.

I tried calling Edward again but he still wasn't picking up. I left him several voicemails but still he didn't answer me. That was my cue that something really bad had happened. While we waited for the results, Dr. Cullen questioned me on my sexual history. I assured him that I'd only been with one person and that it had been Edward. Esme gave her husband the death eye for even asking me such a question.

Since I had been on birth control, we had to figure out how I conceived. Dr. Cullen went over the list of medicines I'd taken over the last few months. He figured out that it had to be the Temazepam I'd taken that counteracted the contraceptives. The drug was used to treat anxiety and help sleep problems. Dr. Moretti had given me a few in the clinic and I'd taken one on the plane ride back.

Carlisle and Esme didn't know about what happened with Gianna in Italy. The Volturi had decided not to tell them unless absolutely necessary. That meant I had to make up a story about why I'd taken medicine in Italy.
I told them that I was given the drug to relieve my nervousness about flying. Luckily they bought my story.
The test came back positive. I was almost ten weeks pregnant. That meant that I conceived that night in Edward's lair. Maybe even during the piano sex, though I couldn't be sure. We'd engaged in so much intercourse that night that it could have occurred anytime. Esme was over the moon that she was going to have another grandchild. I even saw Carlisle beaming at me. They both encouraged me to tell Edward as soon as possible. I told Esme about how I hadn't been able to contact Edward all day and she said I could use her phone when we got back to the house.

After that, Dr. Cullen called a technician into the room and I was given my very first ultrasound. The tech looked to be in her late fifties. Her name was Mrs. Cope and she had the sweetest smile on her face as she squeezed some cold jelly on my exposed belly and moved the machine around. It wasn't as scary as I'd thought it would be. The moment I heard my baby's heartbeat, I fell completely in love. I couldn't make out much from the blurry image on screen but Dr. Cullen said it was a normal healthy fetus and I believed him. I cried right along with Esme as we watched the developing baby on screen.

Carlisle and Mrs. Cope left so that Esme could help me get dressed. She wiped off my stomach and hugged me. I was sad that my mother couldn't be here for this moment but Esme was the next best thing. She was so supportive and loving and that made me feel safe. I went into the bathroom so I could change out of the gown and put my clothes back on. I stood in the mirror for several minutes looking at my belly. Pretty soon it would be swollen with my beautiful child. As I rubbed my stomach, I felt a strong sense of protectiveness and tenderness sweep over my body. I was going to do everything in my power to make sure my child was healthy, loved, and happy.

Dr. Cullen returned and passed Esme an envelope that contained several ultrasound pictures. Her face lit up like he'd just given her the biggest diamond on Earth. I smiled as they embraced each other. I was still worried about telling Edward but I knew that as long as Carlisle and Esme were there for me, I would be okay. They both fussed over me as we went downstairs and got into the car. Carlisle gave me the name and phone number of the hospital's top OBGYN. He had already made me an appointment to see her next week. We stopped to eat lunch at a local restaurant before heading back.

When we got to the house, Alec came out to greet us. He chatted with the Cullens for awhile before they left us alone. He told me that he needed to talk to me. I got angry at him because I wanted to tell Edward everything and he still wanted to wait. I'd broken down and told him about my pregnancy. He tried to convince me that everything would be all right. I broke down in his arms sobbing. It was nothing like being in Edward's arms but it comforted me somewhat.

I went into the house and used Esme's phone to call Edward. He was short with me and butterflies began to form in my stomach. He told me that he would come see me in thirty minutes. I was so nervous as I waited for him. The rest of the family was playing games in he living room but I didn't want to see them until I told Edward. I'd gone out to the back deck to read while I waited.

The minute Edward came through the door, I knew that our conversation wasn't going to end well. He was dressed up in a wrinkled suit and he looked off. He looked more like the man I'd met on that first day when he gave me the secretary job. That wasn't the Edward I needed right now. I sucked up all my insecurities and told him I was pregnant.

Nothing could have prepared me for his reaction. He was pissed off. He yelled at me and threw his chair over the deck. I couldn't stop the tears that came out of my eyes. Deep in my heart I'd known that Edward wouldn't be happy. The few times we discussed children, he either changed the subject or made derogatory remarks. He told me that he knew about Alec. I thought that maybe that was why he was so angry.

Edward slung some of the vilest accusations at me. He called me a slut and accused me of being a gold digger. That had stoked my anger because I'd never once asked him for money or anything else for that matter. I punched him hard in the jaw. He tried to leave but I stopped him and asked about his feelings for the baby. He called my unborn child a 'shitmaker' and a 'bastard'. It hurt so bad to know that he didn't want to have anything to do with our child. I didn't think it could get much worse until his parting words. He basically told me I was going to become unattractive and ugly and that him and no other man would ever want to touch me again.

When he left, I laid on the cold deck floor and cried as my heart broke. Edward didn't want me anymore and he wouldn't be there for the baby. Esme came out and cried with me until Carlisle carried me up to my room. I sat motionless as she dressed me and braided my hair. Even though Edward and I were technically broken up, I had held a tiny hope that we would get back together. I still loved him and couldn't believe that he would hurt me so badly. Esme left and I cried until I fell asleep.

I slept for almost three hours before a nightmare woke me up. I had dreamt of Edward and one of his bimbos pointing and laughing at my pregnant belly. In my dream, he called me the same names and taunted me while the bimbo gave him a blowjob. I had to pee so I went to the restroom. My body was bathed in sweat and I felt awful. I cringed when I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I had to pull myself together.
Someone knocked on the door. I went to open it and saw Alice on the other side. She took one look at me and her big blue eyes filled with concern. She wasted no time walking into the room and hugging me.
"What's wrong Bella? Are you hurt?"

I wrapped my arms around her tiny shoulders and resumed crying. She led us to the bed where we sat down. She tried to shush me but I was beyond inconsolable. I ended up telling her everything.
"I'm…I'm…pregnant, Alice. Edward…he's the father….but…he doesn't want me…or the baby."

I heard Alice gasp. "Are you sure, Bella? I just can't believe that he would be that cruel."

I repeated what he'd said to me on the patio. I felt her tense up by the time I got to the end. She was so angry that her small body was trembling.

"That asshole! Don't worry, Bella. We're going to get to the bottom of this. All this time, I…tried to help him get you back. Oh Bella, it's my fault too."

She began to cry. I promised her that it wasn't her fault that Edward was acting like a douchebag. She excused herself to the restroom while I tidied up the room. I doubted that I would be going back to sleep anytime soon.

I was folding up my favorite throw when Jasper burst through the door. He took one look at me and rushed to my side. He sat down on the bed and pulled me into his lap. I buried my head into his neck and let the rest of the tears escape my heart. Alice came out of the restroom carrying her cell phone.

"I already told him what you told me, Bella. I thought that you would want your big brother at a time like this."

They were both so great. I was ruining their holiday and they weren't even mad at me. Alice sat on the other side of Jasper and petted my hand. It was oddly very comforting.

Jaz asked me some questions about the pregnancy. He and Ali were super excited about being an Aunt and Uncle. They promised me that they would be there for me and the baby.

So far, everyone had taken the news of my pregnancy well, except for the one that should have cared the most, Edward. Alice made plans to go baby shopping as soon as possible. I almost groaned. Jaz and Alice left the room. I knew that he had been calm for my benefit. The dam would burst soon.

I was reading a book when the flood began. My door was still open so I heard everything. Edward was downstairs demanding to speak to me. Thankfully, someone was holding him back. I had nothing more to say to him. Hadn't he broken me enough?

"Damnit, Jasper, I need to see her. It was all a misunderstanding! If I don't talk to her now she's going to think the wrong thing!"

I crept downstairs so that I could see what was happening. I hid behind a tall indoor tree. Jasper had Edward pinned up against the wall. His arm was on Edward's neck. Esme and Alice were crying softly. Rosalie was glaring daggers at Edward and Emmett was trying to break up the fight. I didn't see Dr. Cullen anywhere.

Jasper was yelling expletives and pressing Edward harder into the wall. "I'm not letting you near by baby sister again! I knew from the beginning that it was a bad idea for her to get involved with you, but she was in love and wouldn't listen to me. I should have never let it get this far. Do you even know how broken she is?! No, you don't because you don't fucking care about her. I seriously thought you'd changed and wanted to be with her. You had me fooled but no more. I promised Charlie that I would take care of Bella for the rest of my life and that's what I'm going to do."

Emmett finally managed to pull Jasper's arm off of Edward's throat. Edward coughed and clutched his neck. "Please, Jasper, I need to talk to Bella. I need to apologize so that we can make plans for the future."
He was lying. He didn't want me or the baby. He was just trying to do the right thing because his mother had probably spoken to him. I didn't need his pity. We were done. I was no longer in love with Edward. In fact I hated him with a deep seeded passion.

"No! You will stay far away from her. I am going to take care of my sister and her baby. She doesn't need you. She told me what you said to her when she told you she was pregnant. How could you, you fucker?! I should have known something was seriously wrong when she left and went to Spokane, but I chalked it up to a lover's tiff. There's no telling what kinds of vile things you've said and done to her that she's kept secret from me. The only thing preventing me from killing you is the fact that you're the father of my future niece or nephew."

Everyone was suddenly quiet. Emmett let go of Jasper. Rosalie's eyes widened and she gasped.
Two sets of voices yelled at the same time. It was Em and Rosie. "Bella's pregnant?!"

Jasper nodded his head. "Yes and this fucker called her a slut and her unborn child a bastard. He told her that he didn't want to have anything to do with their baby. She's upstairs crying her eyes out."

Rose stepped forward. She balled her fist up and punched Edward in the stomach. He doubled over in pain. Emmett was too shocked to stop her.

"You piece of shit! I thought you changed. You're still the same selfish prick you always were. Do you know how scary it is for a woman to find out she's pregnant? Poor Bella, she must feel so bad."
Emmett pulled Rose into his arms. He glared at Edward. "You really screwed up this time. What you did to Bella is definitely not cool."

Edward stood up. He held his arms out. "Alice?"

She went to stand beside Jasper. "Don't Alice me, you dick! I saw Bella. She didn't deserve to be treated that way, Edward. You're just as selfish as you always were. You weren't there for me when I developed my eating disorder and you've already shown that you won't be there for Bella and her baby. I wish you weren't my brother."

With that she took Jasper's hand and tried to lead him away. He turned around to face Edward.
"I'm quitting the club. Find yourself a new manager. Don't come near my sister again or I promise that I will fuck you up. You're dead to me Edward."

After that Alice managed to pull him into the kitchen. Rose and Em gave Edward disgusted looks before following. Edward looked after them with a pained expression on his face.

He lowered his eyes and I saw tears cover his face. He looked horrible. His jaw was swollen and his hair was a complete mess. He also had a black eye and other facial bruises from Jasper's beating. I felt bad for him until I remembered what he'd said to me on the deck.

Dr. Cullen entered the room. He went to stand beside Esme. She was trying to wipe Edward's face.

"It's probably best if you go, honey. I don't want to cause any more problems."

Edward started to protest until his mom whispered something in his ear. He nodded once and bid her and Carlisle goodnight. His usual swagger was full of defeat. He looked like a shell of the Edward I knew.

I went to the kitchen to get a snack. Everyone gave me a hug and asked about the baby. Esme came inside and passed out the sonogram pictures. Emmett made jokes about me being knocked up. Rosie hit him on the head a few times. The women almost fought over who would make me a snack. The men made sure I was comfortable before leaving to have a talk. I was sure that it was going to be a conversation about Edward and me.

After I finished eating, I went upstairs to read. I fell asleep a little after eleven. I was so tired all of the time. I knew that it was because of the baby but it was going to take some getting used to.

I was sleeping heavily when I felt a hand caress my forehead. It felt soft and wonderful so I didn't want to climb out of my slumber. I vaguely felt someone lift me and carry me somewhere. The next thing I knew I was sleeping in something that moved. I thought that I must be dreaming so I snuggled deeper into my blanket.

When I woke up, Esme and Carlisle were leaning over me. Esme kissed me on the cheek. "Bella, I'm so sorry for what I'm about to do, but it's for your own good. I just want my grandchild to be born into a peaceful situation so that's why I kidnapped you."

 "You what?" I yelled, looking at them like they'd lost their minds.

She turned to Dr. Cullen.

Carlisle cleared his throat. "Esme promised Edward that she would help him get the chance to explain himself to you. We knew that he'd never be able to do it at our house because everyone is angry at him. We're going to lock you and Edward together in his penthouse for twenty four hours. Use the time to talk about your futures and the baby. We will come back to get you at eight in the morning on Thanksgiving Day.
We're not forcing you to forgive Edward but please, talk to him."

I bit down on my lip. Surely they were kidding. I looked at both of them. They looked serious.

"You can't….you…think…this…is wrong on so many levels. Jasper will come looking for me."

Esme smiled sadly at me. "Please, don't hate us for this, Bella. It will all work out in the end. I told Jasper that I was taking you away for the night so you could calm down. Dr. Cullen and I will be downstairs in Alice's apartment. Please use your time together to straighten out your feelings."

I turned my head away from the both of them. My greatest champions had chosen Edward over me. I was beyond upset. Dr. Cullen carried me up to the private elevator doors. I demanded that he put me down. He shared a look with Esme before complying. I ignored both of them as we rode up to Edward's penthouse.
Edward was waiting at the door when we got to his floor. He gave me his signature crooked grin. I just glared at him.

He hugged his mom and Carlisle. "Thank you both so much," he said happily."This means the world to me. I'll owe you guys forever."

Esme handed me an overnight bag. She tried to kiss me on the forehead but I pulled away. I knew that I was acting childish but I was still angry about her betrayal. She smiled at me before leaving with Dr. Cullen.

Edward turned to me and gave me a toothy smile. "Babydoll, I'm so damn sorry. I got everything wrong and acted like an asshole. Please forgive me Bella. I love you and our baby. My mom showed me the sonogram picture. Our baby is beautiful. We're going to be wonderful parents."

He tried to take my hand. I stepped away. "Stay the hell away from me Edward! You're always so sorry. You're a pathetic piece of shit. I hate you and I wish the father of my child was anyone else but you. It is not our baby, it's mine. I will never forgive you for as long as I live!"

I turned to go to one of the bedrooms but Edward blocked my path. A wave of intense hatred consumed my body. I stepped right into his face. I raised my leg and kneed him in the balls. He bent down to cup himself.

"Fuck, Bella! Please, we're not going to get anywhere like this."

I kicked him again. He fell to the floor. I kept kicking him in the groin until my foot started to ache. I was only wearing my ballet flats. Edward's face was completely red and he was rolling on the ground while breathing heavily. I kicked him one last time, square in the balls. He made a horrific noise and then retched. I spat on him.

"That's what you can do with your apology! I hope your dick shrivels up and falls off! For the last time, stay the hell away from me!"

I left him on the floor in the pool of vomit. I set myself up in one of his guest rooms. It had a queen sized bed, tasteful furniture, and a big screen TV mounted on the wall. I planned to hole myself up in there until Esme and Carlisle came back for me. I went into the bathroom and put on a pair of short black pajama shorts and a white camisole.

When I rifled through my overnight bag, I saw that Esme had included my Ipod but no phone. I guessed that they didn't want to risk me calling anyone for help. I put my headphones on and laid down on the bed. "To Zion" by Lauryn Hill started to play. I sang along to the song. The lyrics made me cry because I now understood what she'd been talking about. It was so overwhelming to find out I was pregnant. I rubbed my belly and cooed to the baby as the song surrounded me.

Around one in the morning, my stomach started to rumble. It seems my little angel was hungry all the time. If I kept up all this eating, I was going to be a house by the time I gave birth; that thought caused me to remember Edward's words about me becoming a whale, and I began to cry again. My emotions went from zero to sixty all the time.

A few seconds later, I started to get that feeling that my stomach was turning in on itself. I was shaking. I knew that I would have to leave the room and get some food. I just hoped that Edward had cleaned up his vomit because that was sure to turn my stomach. I didn't want to spend the night puking over the toilet.

I opened my door as quietly as I could and tiptoed out to the hallway. Edward's penthouse was huge and the kitchen was state of the art. It wasn't fair that he had the best of everything. He sure as hell didn't deserve it. I passed the spot I'd left Edward at on the floor. Everything was cleaned up and smelled strongly of some kind of chemical cleaner. I had to hold my nose.

The lights in the kitchen were on. When I saw Edward standing next to the stove, I started to leave but my stomach had other plans. I would just ignore him. He turned around when he heard me enter. If possible, he looked even worse than before. He was wearing low slung jeans and a white t-shirt. His eyes were bloodshot and had deep circles underneath. He was as pale as I'd ever seen him. He looked like a corpse.

"Babydoll, I…um…my mom…helped me….I made you something to eat," he said as he gestured to a covered dish.

I ignored him and opened the refrigerator. "Please just talk to me, Bella. I can make you a plate. It's chicken cordon bleu. I also have mashed potatoes and green beans to go along with it. I can put some rolls in the oven if you like."

I closed the refrigerator and glared at him. He looked sad but hopeful. The food smelled delicious. My stomach settled when I sniffed the air. Although I was hungry, I wasn't about to give him the satisfaction of feeding me. Edward had to suffer.

"Don't call me 'babydoll' Cullen. In fact don't even call me Bella because that's reserved for my friends. You no longer fit into that category. When referring to me use Isabella or Ms. Swan. And I don't want any food that you made. I hate you."

I stomped over to the dishes he pointed to. I used an oven mitt to lift the chicken. I walked over to the garbage can and threw it in, pan and all. I did the same to the containers of green beans and mashed potatoes. I hated to waste food but I wanted to hurt Edward.

The hope in his eyes, one of which was swollen shut, died. For once, he looked grotesque.

I grinned. "Not so handsome right now, are you Cullen? You look like shit."

He lowered his head and sat down on a bar stool. I searched the freezer until I found a frozen Supreme pizza. I put it on a pan and then put it in the oven to warm. Then, I got ingredients for a salad. I thought that Edward would leave once I grabbed the knife but he stayed.

"Isabella, when you told me you were pregnant, I thought that you were having an affair with Alec. During the night when you were sleeping, I heard you mumble something about Alec and then a secret. A reliable source told me that he'd been to your apartment in Spokane. Later, I saw you two arguing in the guesthouse. I thought that you were cheating on me, so when you told me you were pregnant, I assumed it was by him," Edward admitted.

I put down the knife and turned around. My eyes must have looked wild because Edward scooted his chair farther back.

"You stupid asshole! You didn't even bother to talk to me! You just assumed the worst about me and about Alec. He took a bullet for you, and I saved your life! You thought…. You are the dumbest prick on the face of the Earth! Did you honestly think your explanation would make me hate you less? Go to hell Edward! I'm sure your father is saving a spot for you!"

That last part was cruel. I watched as Edward's eyes hardened.

He stood up and growled. "Say what you want about me, but leave my father out of it! You didn't know him and you have no right to speak ill of the dead."

I got up into his face. "You don't tell me what I can and can't say. Your father was a lying bastard just like you. I feel bad for Esme, having such a pathetic piece of shit for a husband and the same for a son. At least Alice is human."

He glared at me. His nostrils were flaring. I almost thought that he might hit me but he didn't. Instead he went to sit back down.,

"There's more. I was so angry when I thought you and Alec cheated that I called Heidi and a few girls from the club. I was planning on having an orgy to forget you. In the end I couldn't do it. The girls engaged in sex and I watched but nothing happened. Well, almost nothing. Heidi kissed my neck and fondled my cock a little. I swear to you that that's all that occurred."

I popped a cherry tomato into my mouth. There was no way I would believe that story. He'd set up an orgy and then not participated, yeah right.

"Edward, Edward, Edward, how dumb do you think I am? Never mind, don't bother to answer that. I'm sure you had fun with your little whores. I bet they were blonde and busty just like you like. I'm not even mad at you. Who you fuck is no longer my concern. Just keep the skanks away from me and my baby."

He made an exasperated noise. "I swear to you that nothing happened. Those bitches don't mean anything to me. It was a mistake on my part. I'm sorry for all of it. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. I want to be a good father to our child. I want to be there for you during this pregnancy and raise our kid the right way. Please, please, please forgive me Bella. I love you so much."

I was quiet while I finished making my salad. I heard Edward stand up and start pacing. I didn't turn around because I didn't want to see his cheating lying face.

"I can't keep you away from the baby Edward, but you will not come near me. I hate you with every cell of my being. I honestly wouldn't care if you dropped dead at this moment. You once said that you wished we never met and I wholeheartedly agree.

"You have done nothing but ruin my life and almost get me killed!" I yelled, glaring at him. "You're not the only one to blame though. I was the one that slept with you without protection; I was the one that convinced myself that I loved you and that you loved me; And I was the one that trusted you. I hope you have fun with your whores. Whatever we had is long gone."

He must have had enough because he exited the kitchen. Usually, I would have cried but I had no more tears left for Edward or for our failed relationship. I ate my salad in silence. It tasted kind of bland so I added some chocolate chips. For some reason, ranch dressing and chocolate tasted awesome together.

Damn pregnancy cravings.

My pizza finished, and I took it out of the oven. I pinched some cheese off of the corners. It burned my tongue but I was so hungry. I thought about cutting the pizza into slices but decided that I'd probably eat the whole thing. I did cut it in half and place it on a large tray. Then, I grabbed a bottle of Pellegrino and headed back to the room.

Edward was sitting on the couch with his head down when I passed. He hadn't even bothered to turn on any lights or the television. I ignored him and continued onto my destination.

I finished my snack in five minutes flat. The simple fact that I had eaten a whole pizza at two in the morning didn't escape me. I was truly knocked up.

I rubbed my stomach and sighed. "Baby Swan, I hope that you are finished for the night because I'm beat. Mommy loves you sweetheart."

A warm feeling spread though my body. It was almost as if the baby was telling me that it loved me, too. I smiled until my cheeks hurt. Somehow, I managed to roll out of bed and brush my teeth. I didn't want to risk seeing Edward again, so I just put my dirty dishes back onto the tray and set it on the coffee table.

It was funny; I'd always thought that I would get married and then have children. When I imagined my husband, the image was always of a faceless man that loved and adored me and our kids. I used to dream of having a big family. Here I was, twenty-four years old, knocked up from an unplanned pregnancy, and a single woman. My parents would probably be ashamed if they could see me. I couldn't even blame it all on Edward. I had been the one to want to have sex without a condom. I had loved him beyond reason and I was being punished for it. The only good thing that could come out of this mess was the baby.

I was almost asleep when a brilliant idea came to me. Since Edward was playing the sad suitor, I would make him truly hurt. I came up with O.T.E.D or Operation Take Edward Down. I spent the next hour thinking of ways to torture him. He had called my baby and me names--he could insult me but no one, and I mean no one, insulted Baby Swan. I was going to make his life so miserable that he would rue the day he met me. I fell asleep with thoughts of torturing Edward in my head.

When I woke up, the sun was out. I looked at my bedside clock. It was nine in the morning the day before Thanksgiving. Carlisle and Esme would be by to get me tomorrow, so I just had to hold out until then. I decided that I would work on O.T.E.D for the rest of my stay.

After stretching, I went to the restroom to brush my teeth. I grabbed a cup and swallowed one of my prenatal vitamins. I liked what I saw in the mirror. I was definitely gaining weight but I was glowing. My cheeks were slightly flushed. I looked good. Smiling, I lifted up my tank top and said hello to Baby Swan.

A minute later, I heard someone knock on the door. Of course it was Edward; we were the only two in the apartment.

"Hey Isabella, I made breakfast for you. Can you stop being angry for one minute and come out here to eat with me?"

I rolled my eyes. Was he seriously trying to impress me again? "Go play in traffic Edward."

I heard him mumble something and then walk away. I grabbed a pair of blue stretch pants out of my bag. I paired them with a Sailor Moon t-shirt and blue hoodie. There was no one here that I wanted to impress so I was dressing for comfort. I put on my ballet slippers and headed out the door. I didn't see Edward, so I continued to the kitchen.

Unfortunately, my luck ran out, because he was sitting at the kitchen table drinking a cup of coffee when I entered. I noticed that there were two large glasses set out. One contained orange juice and the other contained milk. I assumed they were for me. I left them sitting and poured myself a new glass of juice. There was also a plate of waffles, sausage, and eggs sitting on the counter. I ignored all of that, too. Instead, I went to the cupboard and pulled out a box of Cheerios. I poured some in a bowl and added milk. Then, I went to the refrigerator and retrieved two strawberry yogurt cups. The waffles and eggs smelled so good that I almost broke down and ate them but then I remembered O.T.E.D and stopped myself.

I gathered my breakfast and put it on the table, taking the seat across from Edward. He still looked bad but at least he'd showered. He was wearing a different pair of dark wash jeans and a long sleeved v-neck black sweater. His eye was a little less swollen but it was still a bluish purple color. His jaw was bruised. I smiled, hoping that his privates matched his face.

"Could you leave or cover up your ugly face? It's making me lose my appetite."

He grimaced. I knew that Edward was really vain. My jab at his looks had hurt him.

"I'm sorry. Please don't look at me since I'm so grotesque to you. Listen, we need to talk before you hole yourself up in your room for the rest of the day," he muttered.

I put a big spoonful of yogurt in my mouth. I did it slowly so it looked more erotic than it should have. Edward's eyes went instantly to my mouth. He gulped. I licked the spoon clean. My ministrations were meant to remind him of his last blowjob. I hoped that he was enjoying the show because he'd never get the real thing again; at least not from me.

He managed to shake himself out of the trance. "Um…Bel—Isabella… you….um…should eat the breakfast I made for you. It took me three hours to make it. I kept messing up and burning things. I never knew cooking could be so difficult. I really appreciate you making meals for me all the time. I love you, babydoll."

I stabbed my spoon in my cereal and took a healthy bite. My plan was not working. Edward almost looked happy, which wouldn't do at all.

"I'm glad you enjoyed the food I made for you because you won't ever get it again. I told you that I would not be eating anything you made and I meant it. Stop trying to pretend like you're a great boyfriend taking care of your girlfriend. We are not in a relationship. We're just two people that happen to be having a baby with each other. Do yourself and me a favor and refrain from speaking to me."

He threw his napkin down. "I'm trying here, Isabella. I can't go back and change the past. All I can do Is try to be a better person in the future. Can't you at least meet me halfway?"

I went back to eating my Cheerios, ignoring Edward for the rest of breakfast. He stared at me the whole time. I stared back at him with a raised eyebrow, daring him to say something. He kept quiet.

It was starting to get hot so I took off my hoodie. Edward gawked at my chest. I wasn't wearing a bra under my tiny t-shirt. My breasts had grown a little but I still liked going braless when I was lounging around. I absentmindedly rubbed my stomach as I drank my juice. Edward's eyes followed my hand movement.
He had a cheesy grin on his face. "God you're beautiful. May I see your stomach? I would like to say hello to the baby."

I might have let him if he hadn't of said that line about me being 'beautiful'. He had already made it clear that he didn't find me attractive. It made me angry that he would lie to me to try to get something he wanted. I tensed up.

"No, you may not 'see my stomach'. Keep your grubby diseased fingers to yourself. Baby Swan doesn't want to hear your voice and neither do I."

He just stared at me. "Baby Cullen. The baby is as much mine as yours."

I stood up and threw my yogurt cup at his head. It got all over his bronze hair. He looked ridiculous.

"Just because you're the sperm donor doesn't mean you have any rights to my baby. You are not the one carrying it. You will not be the one that is there for it when it's born. The law can make me give you visitation but that's it."

He stood up and went to the sink. I watched him grab some dish towels and started wiping the Yoplait out of his hair before he turned to me.

"I'm going to get a hell of a lot more than visitation. I don't want to fight you, Isabella, but if you insist on being stubborn, I will take you to court and petition for partial custody."

He was going to try to take my baby. That would never happen. I would die first.

"Try it motherfucker! I will ask Carlisle and Esme to hire the best lawyer money can buy. I would spend the rest of my life paying them back if I had to. Do you really want me to get on a stand and testify to all your verbal and emotional abuse? You're the one in anger management for his temper. You're the Mobster who engages in illegal activities. When I got done with you, you'd be lucky to have supervised visitations. Try me Cullen. Bella may have been easily manipulated by your lies but Mama Swan is not. When it comes to my baby, I will do anything."

Edward glared at me. He was stunned that I'd threatened him. I smirked.

"I concede. Can we stop arguing for a second and talk about this like rational adults? It's probably not good for you or the baby when you get so enraged. I know you hate me but please, we need to discuss some important matters," he pleaded

He tried to make conversation while I ate the rest of my breakfast. I zoned out. Eventually he got tired of me not answering and stormed out of the kitchen.

Perhaps Edward was right. The anger couldn't be good for the baby, but I didn't know how else to feel. I was scared of being a single mother; even with the help of the Cullens and my brother, it was going to be difficult. I had been thinking of returning to school, but I would have to wait. I was also going to have to move back to Seattle. Then there was the whole Russian Mafia thing that Alec told me about. I would have to keep my baby safe and away from all of that stuff.

I couldn't live with Jasper or Alice because they lived in this building this building that belonged to Edward. I would probably have to ask Carlisle and Esme to let me move in with them. I could pay them rent. Since my job was in Spokane, I would need to quit and find work in Seattle. I'd have to find employment soon,  because there were few employers willing to hire pregnant women. All these thoughts overwhelmed me as I washed my breakfast dishes.

I was passing Edward's room when I noticed something on his dresser. It was the Bella Swan doll. The exact same one he gave to me. His was in a glass case sitting on his dresser. I went to the storage closet and pulled out what I needed. I went back to his room and opened the glass case. I began hammering the doll into little pieces. Edward rushed into the room.

"Stop Bella! Are you crazy?! Don't do that."

I didn't listen, I just kept killing the monument of the past me. Each shattered piece represented our broken love vows that day. He tried to grab the hammer away from me but failed. I hit his fingers a few times, causing him to swear loudly. I didn't stop until the doll was completely destroyed.

A single tear ran down Edward's cheek. "I loved that doll Isabella. The artist who made it doesn't like making duplicates. I had to beg him to do two and I don't know anyone else that can create such high quality." He was acting like such a baby.

"Don't get your boxers in a twist Cullen. You can have mine. I don't want it." If possible, he looked even sadder when I said that.

I felt a flutter go through my veins. It felt good to be hurting Edward for once. I was in control and I loved it. O.T.E.D was a success so far. I left him to sweep up the pieces of the doll. My anger was satiated for the moment.

I watched a little TV in my room. When that became boring, I went to Edward's library to get a book. He had an excellent collection that I'm sure he took for granted. I ended up choosing Persuasion by Jane Austen. I hadn't read it in a while. I sat down on one of the overstuffed loveseats and read. I spotted a cashmere throw in the corner and curled up, wrapping it around my trembling shoulders.

I must have drifted off to sleep, because when I woke up it was raining. I realized that I was sitting in someone's lap. Edward.

I jumped up. "Don't touch me! I don't want to catch any of the filthy diseases you're carrying around. I can't believe I let you fuck me bareback."

He pulled me back into his arms. "Damn it Bella, I don't have any fucking diseases! I'll get Carlisle to give test me for STD's if that makes you feel better. I never cheated on you. I haven't touched another woman since that first day when I met you. We weren't together then and I already confessed. I never cheated on you. I love you too fucking much, even though you seem to hate my guts."

I didn't believe him. I kept struggling in his arms. He still wouldn't let me go. I wiggled my arms out of the blanket and punched him square in the mouth. His lip swelled and started to bleed. I used his momentary paralysis to stand up. I grabbed my book and ran to my room before he could get me again.

A few minutes later, he was pounding the door. "Open this fucking door right now Swan! I've tried to play nice but you threw that shit in my face. Either open the door or I will break it the fuck down. You have two minutes."

I didn't move from my perch on the bed. He had made this threat before. He was just trying to manipulate me to get what he wanted. The next thing I knew, my door was being broken down. I could hear a power drill and what sounded like a hammer. Edward was breaking down the door. I started to panic. I ran to the bathroom to hide. I heard him enter the room. He came and knocked on the bathroom door.

"Do I have to break down this door too because I will! Come out now!" he commanded.

I wasn't about to let him intimidate me. I opened the door. He was standing there waiting for me. He looked deep in my eyes. I sneered at him. He looked down at his shoes.

"How did we come to this, Isabella? We were so in love. Remember the night I took you to the opera. You were so beautiful and then when we made love…."

I cut him off. "Don't you mean when you fucked me and left."

He pulled on his bronze mane. I had an odd urge to pull it all out until he was bald.

"Is that all you remember Bella, the bad times? There were plenty of good ones, too. I know what we had wasn't perfect but don't throw it away so easily. I am still madly in love with you. I want to be with you and our baby forever. I want to have more children with you and grow old together. I want you to be mine again. I can't take much more of this fighting and arguing bullshit. I love you."

I started to cry. I cursed him for bringing my tears back.

"Yes, that's all I remember because that's all we had. I remember you making fun of my body, almost getting me killed, threatening to bang other whores, breaking my heart, and calling me and your unborn child names. Don't play the victim, Edward. You brought this on yourself. Our volatile romance is over. There is no forever for us--maybe there never was. Please, just leave me alone to my thoughts."

I looked up. Edward's eyes were tortured. He looked like he hadn't slept in a long time. His shoulders sagged with fatigue. I felt kind of bad for him but not bad enough to apologize.

"Okay, I won't bother you for the rest of the time you're here. I won't stop fighting for you and our future family. I truly love you. I'm going to lay down. Let me know if you need anything. I'll see you at Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow."

I breathed a sigh of relief when he left. My room was now doorless but I had a feeling that Edward would stay out. I made myself a quick dinner in the kitchen and then went to sleep. I was emotionally drained for the day.

I woke up around seven in the morning. I rubbed my stomach and told Baby Swan 'Happy Thanksgiving'. Then, I took a shower and washed all the sweat off of my body. I was starting to have hot flashes during the night, which was another unfortunate symptom of pregnancy.

After I got out, I put on my only other change of clothes--a green sweater and tan tights. I was going to have to go shopping with Alice to get some jeans that fit soon. I packed up my overnight bag and went to the kitchen to get breakfast.

As usual,  Edward was there. He'd made me a large omelet that smelled heavenly. I wondered how many tries it took him before it came out right, but I didn't ask. I bypassed his culinary efforts and made myself a pan of scrambled eggs and some toast. I heard him groan in frustration.

"Good morning, Bella and baby. Happy Thanksgiving. You look so cute, babydoll." I glared at him.

"Well….um…I got some books about pregnancy and childbirth. I thought that maybe we could look at them together later today. My mom also told me about a prenatal couples' yoga class we could take. Then there are the Lamaze classes…"

I interrupted. "I'm sure Jasper will be glad to take me to all of that. You have nothing to do for the next six months. Go back to doing what you love; have sex with your bimbos, buy useless expensive crap, and go on a vacation. I'll be fine."

His smile fell. "Please, let me be involved in your pregnancy. Jasper and Alice have to plan for a wedding. They might not have time to take you to all those classes. The only thing I love doing is being with you. Don't leave me again Bella."

I ate my eggs out of the pan, using toast to scoop them up. Edward stared at me with a hurt expression on his face. I stuck my tongue out at him. It was childish but it made him look away. We continued our tense standoff until Carlisle and Esme returned. Edward went to let them in and I followed. I was in a hurry to get out of the Penthouse and away from him.

Esme smiled sheepishly at me. "Did you two get to talk? Is everything okay?"

Edward shook his head. He looked so defeated. If I didn't know him, I would have thought he was for real.
Dr. Cullen grabbed my bag. I didn't even say goodbye as I sauntered past all of them. I heard Edward say that he loved me. I took the elevator down to the private garage. I didn't even wait for the Cullens. I walked over to Dr. Cullens Mercedes. He and Esme came to join me ten minutes later. They both smiled at me sadly before getting into the car.

"Esme, Carlisle, I want you to know that I'm not mad at you guys. Edward and I are over. Please don't hate me. I really tried but we were never meant to be together. I'm going to need your help raising the baby. Please, just say that you don't hate me."

Esme got out of the car and came to the back. She held me as I cried. She told me that they lovd me and that I was a part of the family no matter what. Dr. Cullen pulled away and we headed home.

Alice assaulted me at the door. She said that I looked better than I did yesterday. They all thought Esme had taken me to an overnight spa or something. I went along with the charade.

The pixie followed me upstairs so she could show me the dress she'd picked out for me to wear. It was black, short, strapless, and had a sequined bodice. It would also show off a lot of leg. I began to worry. She  saw me studying it skeptically.

"Bella, it's going to look awesome on you. You do want to be a hot mama, don't you? I promise you that if wear this dress you'll look hot. Plus, you'll get to prove Edward wrong," she giggled.

After that speech I couldn't resist. I was allowed to go back to sleep for a couple hours. When I woke up both Alice and Rosalie were in my room getting dressed. They were both already in their robes.

Thanksgiving dinner at the Cullens was traditionally a formal affair so the men wore suits and the women wore dresses. The food we were going to eat was made by a popular catering company. I had offered to make something but Esme insisted that we should just enjoy our holiday and not be stuck in the kitchen.

Alice sent me to the bathroom. I showered for around twenty minutes. She was getting impatient, so I took my seat in the vanity mirror. I was allowed to put on my own black lace panties and matching strapless bra. We each took turns helping each other with hair and makeup. When we finished, we looked damn good.

Rosalie was my new idol. She was a mother but she was smoking hot. She was wearing a sleeveless red bubble dress with an embroidered empire waist. Alice and I had curled her golden locks and put them in an updo. We left some to frame her face. She did a twirl in front of the mirror. Ali and I catcalled, causing her to roll her eyes and laugh.

Alice took her turn in the lighted floor length three way mirror next. She had chosen a high fashion sleeveless red and black taffeta dress. Her short spiky hair was given extra body and held back with a black rose headband. She looked absolutely beautiful. The dress made her big blue eyes stand out. Both Rosie and Alice were wearing black stilettos.

I didn't want to take my twirl in the mirror but they made me. I was shocked that I looked so good. The dress fit perfectly on my petite frame. I rubbed my belly and cooed to the baby. Rosie and Alice came to stand next to me. They were truly my sisters. I started to cry.

"Pregnant woman hormones coming through people. Don't be alarmed." Rose said.

I giggled. My hair was parted to the side and left hanging down in soft waves. I wore my mom's old diamond earrings and nothing else. I noticed Alice's and Rosalie's wedding and engagement rings. I would never have a husband or true love like them. A deep pain passed through my heart at the thought.

I was alone in the world. I had no mate. Instead of continuing to mope, I decided to focus on the good things. The Cullens loved me. I was in good health and so was my baby. I had a brother who loved and cared for me. I was blessed.

Esme came in to see what we were wearing. She had on a three fourth sleeved fashionable short black dress. I hoped my legs looked as good as hers when I was her age. She was another hot mama. If she and Rose could pull off motherhood so gracefully then there was hope for me.

Esme was also wearing stands of pearls that crisscrossed her neck. Her light brown hair was in a braided updo. She bent down to help me put on the silver heels that Ali picked out for me. They were only two inches, which was enough for me.

Alice had picked out the men's clothes too. They would eah be wearing black wool Hugo Boss suits and ties that matched their eye colors. Carlisle and Jasper both had blue eyes but Jasper's were more cornflower blue where Carlisle's were aqua. Emmet's tie would be a light brown golden color, and he who must not be named would be wearing green.

Esme took a few pictures of us girls before we headed downstairs. All the men were waiting in the living room. Each came to compliment and hug their respective spouse as we entered.

 I giggled when I saw that Dr. Cullen was nibbling on Esme's neck. She was half heartedly trying to fight him off. Emmet's eyes bugged out and he kept trying to pull Rose upstairs. She smacked him. Jaz and Alice began making out with their arms around each other.

Colin and Brady were wearing matching little boy suits. They came to tell me hello. I took turns picking them up and kissing them on their cheeks. Emmett made a joke about how they were already ladies men. I stuck my tongue out at him, which caused Colin and Brady to do the same. Everyone laughed while Em continued to fake pout.

Soon, the doorbell rang. Esme went to answer it. When she came back, Edward was with her.
He looked good; even with the half swollen eye and lip, he was still extremely beautiful. He looked like an angel that had gotten into an accident. My clit started to tingle--I was ashamed that he still had that effect on me.

He gave Esme a beautiful arrangement of white flowers. She went to set it on the dining room table while he sauntered over to me carrying a glass vase of assorted roses. The colors were beautiful. His face lit up with a smile.

"My God Bella. You're absolutely gorgeous. That dress looks perfect on you. I hope you're feeling good today. The baby isn't giving you any problems, is it? I brought these for you."

He held out the flowers to me. I made no move to accept them. He leaned in and tried to kiss me, but I dodged him. That hurt expression came back to his face again. I left him standing there with the flowers while I went to mingle with the rest of the Cullens. Jasper was shooting Edward death glares and so was Rosalie. Esme went to stand by Edward. She and Dr. Cullen were the only two talking to him.

One of the Cullen's maids came in to announce that dinner was ready. We all went to the dining room. It was beautiful. There was fancy China with blue flowers and white doves sitting on white linen placemats. Our napkins were folded into swans. I rubbed my stomach. There was a large cornucopia in the middle of the table along with the centerpiece Edward bought. There were two large turkeys that looked to be over twenty five pounds each.
"Why two turkeys? I asked.

Esme chuckled. "We have an Emmett and a pregnant woman to feed. It's better to be safe than sorry."

Everyone laughed and I blushed. The place setting put me next to Edward. I complained and Alice switched seats with me. Jasper sat on the other side of her, which left two people between Edward and I. He stood up.

"Bella, I would be really happy if you would sit next to me. I promise not to bother you."

I ignored Edward and helped Jaz tuck his napkin into his collar. He could be a real messy eater sometimes. I saw Esme give Edward a look, e nodded his head and then sat down. I didn't want to ruin the dinner, so I kept my mouth shut.

Esme wanted us all to go around the table and say what we were thankful for. Everyone took their turns saying they were thankful for family, etc. Em caused laughter by saying that he was thankful for Rosie's breasts. She tried to cover the boy's ears. Em protested and said that they benefited from her knockers, too. After that, she threatened 'no cuddle time' and he shutup. His comment made me think of Edward and how he'd said my breasts were too small to feed a child. I shouldn't have forgiven him for that. I was so naive back then.

I realized that it  must have been my turn because everyone was staring at me. I cleared my throat.

"I'm thankful that God has chosen to bless me with his greatest gift, a baby. I'm also thankful for being here with my new family. All of you, except for one green-eyed devil, are special to me."

A few people gasped. I mentally chastised myself for using the moment to prod Edward. Everyone was looking at him. His head was hanging low. He had a sad expression on his face. Alice wrapped her arm around his shoulder. He looked like he was about to cry.

Esme broke the tension by asking Edward to go next. He took Alice's hand and lifted his head.

"I'm thankful for being here with everyone I love. I'm most thankful for Bella and our unborn child. Contrary to popular belief, I love and care for them both deeply."

Dr. Cullen and Esme smiled at him. I played with my napkin. The food came after that. It seemed like Emmett and I were having a contest of who could eat the most. My mouth was too tiny to take in the food as fast as him. He winked at me as we both bit into a drumstick. I giggled. Edward caught our play and smirked at me. My smile became a scowl. He turned away.

I chatted happily with everyone. Every time Edward attempted to make conversation, I would leave the discussion and concentrate on my food. I knew that he was getting frustrated because he'd stopped eating. He was just pushing the food around his plate.

Desert came next. Em and I managed to eat a whole pie each. After that, I was stuffed. I watched in amazement as Emmett kept going.

Collin and Brady were young gluttons in the makings. They would be on their father's level one day. I wondered if I would have a boy or a girl and if they'd be tiny or big like Rosie's sons. I really had no preference. As long as my baby was healthy and happym I would be fine.

Jasper made small talk with me throughout dinner. I saw Alice talking to Edward so I guessed that they made up. He would sneak a glance at me every now and then.

After we all ate, Esme and Alice announced another family tradition. Edward was going to play the piano while we all sang Christmas carols. Alice had song books and there was going to be hot chocolate and Christmas cookies. I declined when I heard Edward's name. Both Ali and Esme tried to get me to reconsider, but I refused. Edward gave his patented dejected look before going into the piano room.

Jasper stayed out to talk to me. Bella, I know you're mad at Edward. I was mad too but the guy seems to be really trying. Maybe you should lay off of him a little. He looks terrible."

I poked out my lip. "So, you're on his side now. He was the one who hurt me!"

Jasper shook his head. "I think the both of you have hurt each other. Maybe it's time to forget the past and call a truce. I'm going to apologize to Edward, and I think you should, too."

I sighed. "Do what you want Jasper. I'm not going to forgive Edward. He deserves to suffer. Go carol with Alice. I'm sure she's missing you."

He hugged me. "Think about what I said, Bella. This isn't you. The hate will only consume you and make you do rash things. I'm not saying you should forgive Edward overnight, but at least give him a chance."

My brother left me sitting in the parlor. I chewed over what he said. Maybe he was right but the only thing I had left to hold onto was my anger. If I let that go, reality would set in and I would see how hopeless and alone I really was. My greatest fear in life had always been of being completely alone. I wouldn't have to worry about that now, because of the baby, but I still felt lonely.

I heard footsteps so I looked up. Edward was in the doorway. He was holding a saucer filled with cookies and a mug with hot chocolate. I almost smiled before I remembered who he was. He really did look good in his suit. I decided to play a little game with him. I made sure that there were no blankets in the room, there weren't any that I could see.

I walked over until I was standing a foot away from him. His eyes took in my legs before moving up to my chest. Eventually, he got to my eyes. By that time, he was panting loudly. I flipped my hair over my shoulder and licked my lips. Edward growled.

"Why don't you put the food down and come sit by me on the couch for a minute. I'm ready to talk now." I was practically cooing.

He moved with superhuman speed and pulled me into his lap. I let him because it played well with my game.

"Thank you, babydoll. I knew you would come around eventually. Have I told you how drop dead sexy you look?" he asked, giving me an eager look.

I almost gagged on his blatant lies. He'd cheated on me. He didn't want me. He was just trying to trick me into taking him back so that he could break my heart again. Maybe he got off on it.

Slyly, he reached down to caress my upper thigh. My body was going crazy with the sensations he evoked. I had to shake my head to clear the haze.

"That feels so good, Edward baby," I moaned.

He tried to kiss my mouth, but I gave him my neck instead. He sucked and licked until I was sure he'd left a mark. His hands were creeping up to my underwear. I stopped him.

"Not yet, baby. Let's just touch first."

Edward smirked. "Whatever you want. I love you, babydoll."

I started grinding my hips onto Edward's erection. I was surprised he could even form one after the kicking I'd given him, but the male appendage must have been resilient. Part of me wanted to suck him dry and the other part wanted to cut it off.

I let my dress ride up until my panties were showing, leaving my sex right over Edward's cock. He started to thrust into my panty-covered buttocks.

"Bella, that feels so fucking good. I promise to be gentle with you, babydoll. I missed this so much."

I pulled his hair and kept bucking onto him. He pulled my dress down until my breasts showed. Then, he looked me in the eye as he took a nipple in his mouth. I let out a low groan.

My flimsy panties were soaked through. If I didn't end this soon, Edward Cullen was going to end up fucking me in his mother's parlor. His hands were starting to creep to my panties again. I looked at him. His eyes were closed and his breathing was erratic.I hopped down off of his lap and got to my knees.

"Let me take care of this for you," I said, pointing to his penis.  He looked like I'd just promised to give him a billion dollars.

Quickly, I stripped off his pants and boxers. He got rid of his jacket and shirt. I looked up at him before dipping my head. His manhood was throbbing and leaking precum. I touched the tip and he thrust.

"Bella, you're killing me. I want to taste your pussy and come inside of you this time. I can't do that if you blow me. Please."

I smiled at him. "Close your eyes, Edward." He did as I said.

I went around the room gathering his clothes. I threw them all into the burning fireplace. When I was done I told him he could look now. He was so aroused that he didn't even notice his clothes were missing.

I leaned down and kissed the top of his head. "You really want me. Don't you, baby."

He nodded his head eagerly. "God, you don't know how much I want to be inside your sweet pussy. I've been dreaming about it for months."

His eyes were heavy lidded. His cock was jumping. He was sweating, Plus, he was leaking pre-cum. O.T.E.D. was a complete success.

Edward would have to go through the piano room to get out of this one, which meant everyone would see him naked. I hated to make Esme and my sisters uncomfortable, but it would teach Edward a lesson: Bella Swan was not to be fucked with anymore.

"Edward, I'm so sorry but bestiality is against the law. I would hate for you to go to prison for fucking a 'gross, fat, beached whale'. Goodnight, Quasimodo."

I left him and went to join the rest of the family. I couldn't be sure, but it sounded like Edward was crying.

I whistled a happy tune all the way to the piano room. If he thought that this night had been bad, it was about to get a whole lot worse.


  1. I'm liking the story but I'm getting pissed at Bella. I think she is taking everything a little overboard.

  2. hi I really like the story but i want to kill bella right now ... how could she be so stupid

  3. Bella took it a little too far there...

  4. Edward got what's coming. Bella reminds myself of me right now :)

  5. I know Edward has been extremely cruel with his comments and behavior throughout their relationship but Bella's behavior was in this chapter was very unattractive. I teared up when she smashed his "babydoll" with the hammer. I'm just afraid OTED has been a bit too much for Edward. He now knows he can't turn to whores or even move on to another woman (which I doubt he would do anyway after how his relationship with Bella ended up being so disastrous) since he can't get it up for anyone but Bella. Seeing that he was ready to use his gun on himself after he took her virginity I'm afraid he might end up OD'ing on some drug. My heart is breaking for Edward after reading this chapter.

  6. ok bells enough is enough.... i am also afraid for ed i can see him trying to kill himself too.. james won't have to do it. you are taking her way to far right now i am up for alittle revenge but this is out of hand

  7. Bella has really started to annoy me these past chapters, she blames Edward for everything but they both share the blame. Edward tried to apologize over the months that she moved away, he tried to become a better man for her and she's just now acting like an ice bitch. I mean sure he really has lame ass excuses for the way he treated her, but still he's tried so hard to make it up to her,he deserves a break. :|

  8. omg bella is getting my last nerve i think shes gonna push edward to far and hes gonna try to top him self turning his family against him & smashing his doll was so low she acting so childish right now i really feel for him atm poor edward he trying so hard bless him

  9. ughh i hate Bella now!!! she is such a bitch..poor Edward he loves her too much and she don't deserve it

  10. I seriously think B is taking her revenge on E too far. She's acting very spiteful and childish. Yes, E has said some hurtful things to her but he's trying to improve himself for her. Not many men would bother to take the shit she's heaping on him right now. Her behavior is turning very destructive and she's hurting more than just E. She's a fucking bitch right now, hormones or not.

  11. Bella is being stupid. Her anger for edward consumed her and to make things worse is her hormones are messing with her :((

  12. The guy fucked up.. but she went above and beyond everything .. she knew from the start that he was an ass she can judge him for something he warned her about from the start~~

  13. i think this is getting out of hand her hormones r making her anger intensify she might end up losing everyone if she keeps going on like this poor edward :'-(

  14. I love this story so much. I lost count of how many times I have read it. I have read it so many times and every time i read it, i feel different emotions. you are an awesome writer.

  15. I couldn't read most of this chapter because I really don't like Bella right now. I hope she gets over her stuff soon.

  16. I think Bella has every right to be mad at Edward and NOT forgive him. But the stuff she did wasn't even for revenge. She was just a bitch. She should have just listen to him, told him she wasn't taking him back but he could be involved in the baby's life and then told him to fuck off and not talk to him the rest of the time.

  17. She has sunk to a terrible low. Nothing Edward did was intentional... Well, okay, he DID say cruel things when he tried to send her home from Italy, BUT... At least his stupidity was coming from a place of love and protection. He wanted to do something to protect her.
    What she is doing is nothing short of evil. It is calculated and conniving, and mean.

  18. I don't agree with what Bella did in the end of this chapter. It's kind of silly and meaningless. Edward is flawed and selfish and Bella lowers herself to his level by even associated with him after what he said and did after he learned about the baby. She played game, seduced and then humiliated him only means she was just as shallow. Just walk away, Bella.

  19. Bella is far worse than Edward. Yes he screwed up but look at the lifestyle he's lived until Bella. He was a cold bastard when love took him by surprise and being the man he was, he didn't know how to handle it. Bella knew all of this and who he was when she chose him. Twice he backed away from her for her own good but he apologized and told her his reasons for doing so. Edward is rough around the edges and his way of doing things may not be as smooth as James Bond but at least he did it for the right reasons. Bella is deliberately trying to hurt him and that is unforgivable. To sit there and actually plan on how she can hurt him more and more is sinful. She turned into a total bitch and I don't know what Edward even sees in her anymore because she is not the same sweet girl he first met. When she took a hammer and broke the doll, I had tears in my eyes. That was hateful and mean. The fact that he even had it on his dresser should have told her something. I wish he would have kicked her as out of the apartment. A person can only take so much. Bella should be thankful that Edward loves her as much as he does because she's not perfect and she's no angel either.

  20. All I can write is wow....... didn't know bella had it in her but wow

  21. I hate really can not stand Isabella she always complains about Edward not trusting her well the bitch does the same thing he said he didn't sleep with the girls. Also she always plays the victim talking about how he insults her a lot but at the same time not once has Edward spoken ill of her dead parents but she made that comment about his father I don't care if he wasn't the best by public views obviously Edward loved him and saw something no one else did a d Bella always talks about honesty yet she hasn't told the truth about Alec. Then she is using her pregnancy against Edward the bitch just needs to move on from the past and they should start over because a baby deserves a daddy and mother. The bitch also always talks about Edward breaking her heart well at least he tries to do right by his mistakes sg e never apologies does she even realise Edward almost commit suicide because he felt bad about the stuff he does wrong bitchy bella just does stuff with revenge in her talking about it's for her baby! Bitch no one is perfect obviously get over yourself already because this Edward take down is really making me want to take her ass down. People never fucking judge bella for hitting Edward and even before anger management he never laid a hand on her. Actually the bitch got nerve thinking his mother and step father will just automatically back her up because she preggo and shit well dumbas the world doesn't revolve around you and even if esme thinks her son is bad it's still her son just like she was talking about she'll do anything for her baby what makes her think esme is going to turn on HER baby. That comment earlier and Edward are both right soon no one is going to want that dumbass fucking hypocritical bitch, i mean come on her own brother even leaving her ass behind onto better things! I'm finish love Edward and all the hard word he puts in to change for a pussy because if it's really love then he shouldn't have to change. I HATE ISABELLA������������������������������

  22. Bella is taking a little far. She definitely shouldn't forgive Edward so quickly. But kicking him in the balls till he threw up and stripping him down then leaving him like that, that's just borderline hazing. He didn't deserve all that.